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AM READY

Updated on April 18, 2019

Am probably the last person you wanna talk to. I understand that. I don't blame you for feeling like that.
I really just have a way of always messing things up, that I admit. I am messed up myself, sometimes I just do stuff that o end up regretting.
Stuff like messing what we had together.
.
The first time I saw you my heart didn't jump honestly. My mouth just dropped, speechless. I wasn't even sure how I was creep up and just say " hello " to you. The thought of it just gave me goosebumps , with a sharp line of adrenaline rushing down my spine.
I was never sure that we'd be so close to the point that I feel empty when you don't check up on me.
And then I messed up, forgot that I had everything I needed just next to me.
.
. I know it sounds like am trying to explain my mistakes but am really saying ,it's not the same without you. It took me a mistake to realise its always been you all along.
. It took me time to learn that there's never be any other than you..
..
But I don't care if you are a mistake. Because if you are, I'll keep repeating it. You my perfect mistake. If it's wrong, then I never wanna be right....
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.. Am ready to rectify my mistakes if you allow me to..
Am ready to be that person I should have been...
Am ready to take it all back just to make you happy...
.
. Am sorry for I have been nothing short of immature... Am sorry for leaving.
Am sorry it took this long to admit I was wrong.
.. Am sorry but I just need you back.
It's unbearable just having to think about you everyday and not tell you about it..
I need you..

Am ready to be who I should have been all along. Am ready to be who you deserve.
.
.. Inkmade ™

© 2019 Amani Utembu

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    • Amani Utembu profile imageAUTHOR

      Amani Utembu 

      11 months ago from Nairobi -Kenya

      Everyone makes mistakes. It's just hard to admit...

    • Brenda Arledge profile image

      BRENDA ARLEDGE 

      11 months ago from Washington Court House

      So refreshing to hear a mans' word that he misses her and made a mistake.

      Good write...very heartfelt.

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