Be Mine Again
It's like me to always give you the surprise calls every once in a while , even when I know you are busy just to remind you that I love you.
It's like me to always text you when I think I should just to check up on you, make sure you okay.
I know sometimes it seems like am stubborn or just annoying ,but what can I say, I just love you that much and am always thinking about you.
I don't actually remember the last time I was this stubborn or overprotective... Or paranoid.. Or crazy.. Or insecure .
But lately it's not as fun as it used to be.
Gone are the days you'd pick those phone calls and say " am on my way home " or text me back with " see you in a few minutes. "
Gone are those days when I couldn't go a day without seeing you, lately I have to even stay for weeks without seeing you.
Gone are those days you'd call me late at night just to say goodnight.
Gone are those days I didn't have to pretend to be smiling, now it's become a habit , a mask I put on as soon as I lock the front door.
. And I am trying to be okay , hoping that tonight will be different. Hoping that tonight I'll call you and you'll pick up and say that you miss me like I miss you.
Hoping that you'll surprise me so that I won't be sobbing on my pillows yet again.
Hoping that you'll come back to me and set my heart ablaze again..
. Hoping that I'll unscrew this fake smile and be happy for real because my jaws are getting tired.
Hoping that you'll say you love me back.
Hoping that you'll be mine again.
.. Inkmade. ™
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