Beginning to End a New

My brain is haunted
By this question,
Will we survive the night?
Where will i wake up,
If i die?
Will you be there? 
To calm my nerves
To make me whole again?
To sooth the burn
From the flame 
Of the world that consumed me

Trapped in a flushing cyclone
Reaching in every direction
For your hand,
That i can't seem to find

Who turned out the lights?

Then i feel the pinch
That slowly progresses 
Into the pain of a wound
Of being stabbed by a knife

Then i think of the question,
What made me
Want to begin this life?

Searching for you,
I walk into the light

Where the road goes
Or when the story ends
When ill break down
Or when ill have 
Some cash to lend
Where is the love,
That God hasn't sent?
Burning threw 
What i hadn't yet spent

I don't want to turn my head
But sometimes 
you have to look back
Just to remember
Where you've been

Times and troubles
I always thought 
That i complained allot
When i look around 
I notice that the world 
Is made up all of 
The things that i haven't got

I wan't to crawl deep into 
My head
I'm just afraid that if i do 
I might not come back
Again