Bittersweet Visitation
© Copyright 2011 Cindy Murdoch (homesteadbound)
We have all experieced that giddy, clumsy, all-consuming first love. A love that wobbly learns to stand like a newborn foal slowly gaining confidence in itself. You know ... the love that always has a fairytale ending, where the story ends happily ever after. But most of us learn that fairytales are just stories that create false expectations ... of ourselves ... and of another.
But what happens when the fairytale keeps playing long after most of the characters have departed to inhabit different stories. An emptiness and void is all that lingers for the character remaining ... wishing and yearning for something that can never be. Trying to create a new story of their own, haunted involuntarily, yet welcoming the visitation of the long lost love with a bittersweet passion.
In the following setting, our main character has been betrayed by her first love but seems unable to let go of the dreams she once had, and the innocence of the fairytale ending. Finding herself wanting to start a new story but unable to close the book on the story already underway ... she finds herself torn between the two.
Why do you haunt me, so many years have gone by
Oblivious to chains that will not release me
Existence without purpose and you don’t even know
Creating a life wretchedly hollow beyond empty
Once, magically held spellbound, enchanted by you
Bewitched beyond reason, betrayed beyond compare
Desperately hoping he’ll redeem me from this darkness
Gazing into his eyes, even now longing for yours.
My eyes locked on yours, entranced by your gaze
Then desperately panicked when yours strayed away
Could learn to trust fully in the gaze of this other
Were those eyes not the same color as yours
The hands that once trembled at your touch
Fell away sadly when forsaken by you
Now desperately cling to those of another
Trying to erase the memory of you
The sparkle that was mine brought forth by your presence
Painfully died when carelessly tossed aside crushed
Has learned to brighten at the thought of another
Until once again darkened by the shadow of you
The lips you once sampled, nectar so sweet
Spurned when yours you shared with another
Now brush his skin lightly whispering his name
Aching with longing, wishing to say yours
My body you eagerly lusted and yearned for
Too young, not ready to be given just yet
Now savored and pleasured, nothing held back
Aching, longing, yearning . . . ready now too late
Desperate young love, precious first love
Consumed us completely, dealt just once in each life
Untainted and innocent, eager yet shy
Deeper than any that could possibly follow
The heart you once carelessly flung to the side
Wounded and hurt, so many small pieces
Gathered so tenderly, held together now
By the love of another, while hopelessly wishing to forget
Were it not for the nights and the dreams ushered in
I would choose to forget you, this longing suppress
But nightly you visit, inhabiting my dreams
Endless days spent awaiting your bittersweet visitation
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© Copyright 2011 Cindy Murdoch (homesteadbound)
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Comments: "Bittersweet Visitation "
Wonderful bitter and sweet poetry here Cindy, I felt captured in the moment here of some deep feelings for someone, "Those Eyes", how compelling they must have been, and it does indeed hurt to the core to lose such a good lover indeed.
Thanks for sharing this with us all, bravo and sharing!
you're certainly welcome!
great work and perfect picture accompaniment!
Beautifully written,hb! I can relate, having one of those t-shirts in my closet :D
nice work, cindy. I enjoyed this read!
Thanks for chossing my pic for your lovely poem.
You have a winner here in my opinion and so much truth and emotion of lost love.
Nice! Enough said (smile).
Homestead, this is really quite beautiful. A tale of unrequited love torturing this poor soul. Great first poem!
oh, i love the theme of this poem...bittersweet longing of a love lost...it's really true that first love never dies...
A new talent? Up and awesome!
Images and words hard to forget. Thanks.
When I first started reading this, I thought this is poetry from homesteadbound??
I see from the above comments, this is your first poem - it's fabulous!
Voting up/awesome
We will all be waiting for more poetry from you now...
Good luck in the contest, my best wishes MM
poem and pics beautiful good luck
Well this is a beautiful poem! First young love is SO special. I remember when.....Good luck on the contest. I wrote what I thought was probably my best work, but I couldn't get up to 500 words, even with the intro.
Its great... you should write one everyday!
oh wow! Brilliantly painful wrapped in hope... Loved it!
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