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Caged EMOTIONS, set free

Updated on November 27, 2012


This poem is based on my present life . I feel a relief just to write it i am sure that there are many others like me who endure verbal abuse from time to time.


Can I really express the way I feel these caged emotions inside me is far to real.when my life seems to lose its meaning and things just comes reeling and then I lost all my feelings.When I feel to drop love and take up hate. Sometimes it feels as though hell has opened up her gate and Satan gets in my life and tries to demonstrate.



I thought I was doing my duty i moved in with you to help you cope with your now frustrating life of this stroke that almost crippled you .You've grown old and you had done lots for me. Now I thought was my turn to repay you, but we surely dont agree, cruel words are being hurled at me. They echo through the walls and frighten me.



Reproaches of what you've done for me pierces me like arrows, I feel helplessly , sometimes I feel to cry or perhaps maybe curl up and die.My heart just keeps crying out why why why! .



No one else really care or have time with you but me. Then why can't we agree and when will you stop verbally abusing me? You're eighty years old now and I am only twenty four. I've got alot of responsibilities then why do you further cast this burden upon me.



People see me and think that I am so happy and free, not knowing I cage all these emotions inside of me. Right now I am setting them free, I've tried with you grandma and even though I haven't done my best. I can still put all your love ones to the test.



Do they know how I feel? Do they hear the hurtful things you say to me?rotten words that could shatter any soul.I've given my life to the Lord at such a tender age, I try to live a pleasing life to Him for He alone careth for me.Instead of encouraging me in the right path, over the years you've only discouraged me. Why oh why do you do this to me?



I feel like I've put up with enough of this and I won't let you finish ruin my emotions.I've washed my hands thoroughly, and I really don't care what the others will have to say about me. All my caged emotions are being set free



Written by: Joanna Chandler

Copyright 2012

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      Bill Holland 4 years ago from Olympia, WA

      I wish you the best, and I hope this release has helped. No one should have to endure abuse of any kind. :)

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      Joanna Chandler 4 years ago from On planet Earth

      Hi billy ,

      thanks for your encouraging words in moments like these it means a lot to me. Verbal abuse hurts the heart and soul especially coming from a supposed loved one.

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      Nancy 4 years ago from California

      I understand truly how you feel. The worst thing of all is that "words spoken can be forgiven, but not forgotten", nor does the pain when hurtful words are said. Sometimes I wonder if people like us with tender hearts should be alone. Then no one could hurt the heart with words. I hope things get better for you. I am sending blessing your way in hopes that it eases your pain somewhat. I wish only the best for you.

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      Joanna Chandler 4 years ago from On planet Earth

      Hi ashelladyhawke happy you came by, you pointed out a very vital point words spoken can be forgiven but not FORGOTTEN, sometimes people say sorry but do they mean it? When they'll repeat the said thing over and over.

      See my at your profile soon

      Thanks a million ;)

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      WillStarr 4 years ago from Phoenix, Arizona

      Hi, Joanna,

      I have a similar problem with an elderly abuser, and I have decided that I will not tolerate it. Love is never abusive, so so just walk out. You have done your best.

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      Martin Kloess 4 years ago from San Francisco

      Thank you for sharing this with me. I have been fortunate that verbal was not among the abuses I suffered. I can feel from your words how lucky I am. Bless you

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      Joanna Chandler 4 years ago from On planet Earth

      Hi Will

      You know the funny thing people won't say anything about the abuse I get they'll say that's your granny she's getting old ignore her, but how many times can I ignore those repeatedly abusive hurls?

      But if and when I do as you say everyone will turn the fire on me and say I am the mean one. Life is too funny.

      Thanks for coming by ;)

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      Joanna Chandler 4 years ago from On planet Earth

      Mhatter99

      Thank God you're not in my shoe it's really a blessing and not a curse.

      Have a lovely night's rest

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      Salini 4 years ago from India

      Hey dear... It is sad that you are facing this thing. I respect your choice of setting yourself free. The pain and sufferings that you are feeling inside is being rippled to us by your fabulous poem.

      Stay strong.

      Have a nice day ahead.

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      Joanna Chandler 4 years ago from On planet Earth

      Hey glad to see you around again Life Iz Beautiful,

      Yes indeed it is especially coming from a grandmother,

      Have a wonderful day sweetie

      Peace be unto you from God our Father

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      WillStarr 4 years ago from Phoenix, Arizona

      "But if and when I do as you say everyone will turn the fire on me and say I am the mean one."

      But THEY won't take her in, right?

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      Joanna Chandler 4 years ago from On planet Earth

      You're definitely right about that again. No they won't but they'll try to talk me into taking the insults etc and say she's old that's why I must bear. Old people should respect themselves and others also.

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      Frank Atanacio 4 years ago from Shelton

      wow ladyfiddler.. strong and emotion packed... im hoping for a strong silver lining..yeah?

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      WillStarr 4 years ago from Phoenix, Arizona

      "No they won't but they'll try to talk me into taking the insults etc and say she's old that's why I must bear. "

      We build our own prisons in situations like this with false guilt. The obligation you feel is self imposed, and only you can fix it.

      In my own situation, I have put others on notice that I will no longer accept any responsibility for her welfare. They are currently scrambling and frantic.

      You should try it.

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      Joanna Chandler 4 years ago from On planet Earth

      Hi frank good to see you yeah me to

      Thanks for the read

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      Joanna Chandler 4 years ago from On planet Earth

      Willy u made ALOT of sense and you are speaking the gospel truth. I think guilt plays on my mind too much when the guilt should be on the slackers, who don't care if Sunday falls on a Monday.

      Thanks again , a splendid weekend to you

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      Jackie Lynnley 4 years ago from The Beautiful South

      Well I missed this baby girl, didn't get a notice on it! The devil loves to play us and bring ones against us that should be our helpers. I washed my hands too but it was after a long battle. God does not want that for us. How can we be serving Him while fighting battles? ^

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      dreamseeker2 4 years ago

      No one deserves to be abused in any form, but unfortunately it happens even in the best of situations and family's. I am happy to hear you allowed your emotions to be set free through your poem. Writing helps so much in venting ones hurts and frustrations. Voted it up, of course. Hope things get better for you soon. We all deserve respect and to be loved without unwarranted harm, verbally or otherwise.

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      SandCastles 4 years ago

      This is a very powerful poem. I've been abused by eldery people too. I wrote a hub about it, "Difficult people: the miserable old woman and the axe to grind person".

      Great poem! Voted up.

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      Alexander Thandi Ubani 4 years ago from Lagos

      You poured out your emotions and pains here. So sorry you found yourself in this situation. Wish I could help. But you gotta be strong. Victory will be all yours!

      Thandi

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      Joanna Chandler 4 years ago from On planet Earth

      Hi Ubani thanks so much for your comment I appreciate it.

      Have a bless ;) weekend

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      Joanna Chandler 4 years ago from On planet Earth

      Hey sandcastle please forgive my late response I approved your comment but forgot to come back to the hub a comment after. Hope you are fine

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      lovedoctor926 4 years ago

      Do you have any other family members that you can move in with? Your sanity and peace of mind are at stake here. Your grandmother needs elderly home living assistance. You can't do this on your own because you are very young and like you said you have responsibilities of your own. You're already doing a lot for her. I'm not trying to defend her, but I'm trying to understand why she does what she does. Is she an abusive person towards everyone she encounters? She is 80 years old and perhaps feels helpless and probably alone with nobody she can count on except you. So it seems like she is displacing her anger and frustration on you who I'm sure she loves the most. My advice to you is to change your reaction to her. Try to be a bit more patient and understanding with her and don't respond to any of her accusations. She will continue pushing your buttons sort of like a test, but if she just don't pay mind to her when she insults you and puts you down, eventually the bad behavior will stop. It's good that you have found God. Pray to him for guidance, strength and most important healing of the mind and soul.

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      lovedoctor926 4 years ago

      but if you don't pay mind to her (correction)

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      Joanna Chandler 4 years ago from On planet Earth

      Goodnight lovedoctor thanks so much for your lovely encouraging comment . You have said a lot in a nutshell and you also made great sense to.

      God be with you always

      Peace and Love

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      lovedoctor926 4 years ago

      Hi Lady Fiddler,

      I'm glad that I could help you. Thanks for the kind words. Hope things get better for you. You've already been through a lot especially after losing your little brother. Wishing you joy, peace and happiness for the New Years. Doc.

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      Joanna Chandler 4 years ago from On planet Earth

      Thanks she's acting up worst than ever. Oh God I need your love and grace

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