Indoctrinate
Will everything
Or anything
Soberly
Or intoxicated
Smother me
Or separate
The emotions
Inside of me
That everyone else
Stresses to hide
Breaking what i once fixed
Lifting my fingers free
Off of the memories
That make me shriek
Stopping my circulation
Freezing my hands
In ever clenched fists
I know i exaggerate
Procrastinate
Deteriorate
Every day i make a mark
And evaporate
To seep into the clouds of the mind
Or a foreign place
Restart
Fate
Notably
She is the empty shell
Of the beautiful woman
That i Fantasized
As a figment
Of my reality
I miss the person
That i taught myself
That you were
Colored so heavily
In my imagination
To vivid
To ever be
I controlled the distinctions
The estimations
The limitations
Giving you credit
For what you shouldn't have received
My only flaw
Was having no destination
With no hesitation
Blinded sight
My Heart
You'll never touch it
You'll never scratch the surface
you had a glance
But can never free
Whats held captive
So deeply
Briefly
Inside of me