DEAR SELF ;

Dear self, i really want to wish that i am still asleep or something . Because am a mess right now..
... Its crazy you wanted to grow up so fast, everything's not exactly how you dreamed it would be..
Everything is just a mess really, you are a mess, thats why am seriously praying that am somewhere asleep having vusisons if the future or something...
.. Dear me, I actually miss you, and as crazy as that sounds... But i can't wait to be you again..
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Everything hurts; thinking hurts, breathing seems like so sort of punishment that you cant escape.... I hurt because I miss you...
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Dear self.... I hurt because I let you down more than just a few times. I almost even forgot about you while I was growing up,
... Maybe when you wake up you'll love the future, but lord knows I'd do anything to be you just for a day . cause I sure don't think am ready for all this ' growing up ' just yet.
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Dear me... You know are are the most important thing to me, even if i don't tell you that at all...
Dear me, you know I love you, but I really don't know how to just love you enough..
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Dear self... Am lost, I wanna believe you'll catch up before growing up fully hypnotizes me and place me in a place where u can't find you...
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Dear me.... I think I lost you...
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Please wake me up so I can be you , for you...
.. Dear me.... Please forgive me for lost time...
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Yours sincerely, dear self.