This poem described accurately my personal fight with depression.
Depression This Morning.
When i woke this morning,
The whole world was grey.
No body talking,nothng to say.
Didn't want to leave my bed,
I'd rather be dead.
It's coming to a head,i feel the pressure is on
The world is killing me,it weighs a tonne.
Nowhere to turn,no avenues to walk
people don't want to know,don't want to talk.
Living on the edge,living day by day,
Get's harder and harder,a way out i pray.
Arguing with my myself,arguing with family,
Seems an endless journey,wondering who will harm me.
I've seen the doctor,drugs are the next course
He has the solution,he's a doctor of course.
He knows what he's doing,its not a ruse
Give him a chance,what have you got to lose.
Doped up to the eyeballs,not feeling myself
I'm losing my mind,I'm losing my self.
I have to go on,for the sake of my kids
even though it feels like,my lifes on the skids.
i will carry on , I'm a determined guy
one day i will be happy,i will soar to the sky.
some days my mood can be quite uplifting,others can be horriffic.some days I just can't muster up any energy to do anything. I have great highs,but incredible lows. a thing I've dealt with now for over ten years.there does not seem to be any light at the end of the tunnel.hopefully in the future things might change.