Darker Now Than Before Your Lessons
Darker Now Than Before Your Life Lessons
Bathing in a sadness drawn of bloody tears
Streaming slowly, it seems
Am I sitting still alone
On this stool
Praying to someone pointed
Without answers and lost exposure
Sheltered myself without closure
Lost too without this...
Spilling differently now so provoking
It's me who makes you ill?
This crush of my desire
A focal point delivered
Among us bathing in a lonesomeness
Trapped, feels like fire
The burning, no closure
Falling, now I'm closer
Seeing as we do
Though never believing,
Belonging, never seeing
You hide your face too
Pardon me? You turn your head
You smile, and you snicker
Like these lessons of your life
Are pointedly so meaningful
In a direction of me
As if you make all the rules
Leading life empty
Looking to him never believing
A speech of a man dedicated
And never undecided
Making him, of me, I'm so unsure
Desperate, trying so hard to control
Am I sitting still alone?
On this stool....
Praying to someone pointed
Without answers, lost exposure
Sheltered myself without closure,
lost too without this
Lesson of a life I'd fight
It's not in my plan
To structure you around us,
look deeper
You try to control to confide in,
digging deeper
Pushing, till you come back around
Consuming until you choose too
Be a man like who?
This man who I've become
Silly you, such a sorry you
Betrayed, such false images
Planted upon but never arrived
This lessons of a life
Many confessions of you
A controlling you
I never knew
You show
To lift the waters
To show
For you
What you would soon miss
So simple, a miserable gesture,
we both assume
Overlooked as always deceived
The reasons you control
Inside a head so dense
Such a torture of a life
To follow
On such one
Hard beaten path
Believe me I will not look back
To see your face
So I could see
All this false love
See this? You see me now?
Remember the man I was
The one I never wanted to become
Darker now than before your Lessons
Your lessons of my life
Made me this way
Made me darker than before
Before your life lessons
You teach to speak
Today I just laugh
It'll never get through
I'm darker now
Darker now than before your lessons
On my life
A life you never knew
To late
I'm darker now than before
Everything will be fine
Don't be scared
You have that pretty mask
To hide your face behind
Well I'm not scared now
I'm just darker than before
All my life lessons
