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Darker Now Than Before Your Lessons

Updated on May 14, 2019
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Women are a beautiful much needed creations. Wirhout women us men would not have children. So, respect our women!

Darker Now Than Before Your Life Lessons

Bathing in a sadness drawn of bloody tears

Streaming slowly, it seems

Am I sitting still alone

On this stool

Praying to someone pointed

Without answers and lost exposure

Sheltered myself without closure

Lost too without this...

Spilling differently now so provoking

It's me who makes you ill?

This crush of my desire

A focal point delivered

Among us bathing in a lonesomeness

Trapped, feels like fire

The burning, no closure

Falling, now I'm closer

Seeing as we do

Though never believing,

Belonging, never seeing

You hide your face too

Pardon me? You turn your head

You smile, and you snicker

Like these lessons of your life

Are pointedly so meaningful

In a direction of me

As if you make all the rules

Leading life empty

Looking to him never believing

A speech of a man dedicated

And never undecided

Making him, of me, I'm so unsure

Desperate, trying so hard to control

Am I sitting still alone?

On this stool....

Praying to someone pointed

Without answers, lost exposure

Sheltered myself without closure,
lost too without this

Lesson of a life I'd fight

It's not in my plan

To structure you around us,
look deeper

You try to control to confide in,
digging deeper

Pushing, till you come back around

Consuming until you choose too

Be a man like who?

This man who I've become

Silly you, such a sorry you

Betrayed, such false images

Planted upon but never arrived

This lessons of a life
Many confessions of you
A controlling you
I never knew
You show
To lift the waters
To show
For you
What you would soon miss

So simple, a miserable gesture,
we both assume

Overlooked as always deceived

The reasons you control

Inside a head so dense

Such a torture of a life

To follow

On such one
Hard beaten path

Believe me I will not look back

To see your face
So I could see
All this false love

See this? You see me now?
Remember the man I was
The one I never wanted to become

Darker now than before your Lessons

Your lessons of my life
Made me this way

Made me darker than before
Before your life lessons

You teach to speak
Today I just laugh
It'll never get through

I'm darker now
Darker now than before your lessons
On my life
A life you never knew

To late
I'm darker now than before

Everything will be fine
Don't be scared
You have that pretty mask
To hide your face behind

Well I'm not scared now
I'm just darker than before
All my life lessons

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    • DarkDisOrder profile image

      DarkDisOrder 

      8 years ago from B.A.D. (Beyond All Dimensions)

      This was well played, good read...

    • blackreign2012 profile image

      blackreign2012 

      9 years ago

      another great piece enjoyed reading ~hugs~

    • DomShadows profile imageAUTHOR

      Dom Shadows 

      9 years ago from Zanesville, Ohio

      cupid--> TY.. and yes, It's not a habit just my style.. I flow bright like a distant rainbow =)

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      cupid51 

      9 years ago from INDIA

      All the mysteries are hidden in the darkness! When we take rest on the lap of the deep darkness, the sweet dreams come only then! Darkness is not always to be scared of!

      A great poem, flowing like a fountain!

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      christalluna1124 

      9 years ago from Dallas Texas

      Dom,

      Very deep and intense. Brings out emotions, even those hidden deep. Keep up the good work. Beautiful.

      Warmest regards,

      Chris

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      Carolyn Blacknall 

      9 years ago from Houston, Texas

      For some dark reason, I like this.

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      Denizee 

      9 years ago

      Very deep, and dark as well as thought provoking. I see a "man" who gives of himself to someone who obviously is using him as an emotional punching bag - she snickers, she turns her head. The she in this pushes him to the ultimate low regarding self-esteem and he does not understand the cruelty of her actions. If I were this man, I'd leave and never look back. We have but one life to live - and I have found myself in relationships where respect was not given. Why I lingered feeling miserable I'll never know, but finally I had to give in to pursue happiness. Great write.

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      Dom Shadows 

      9 years ago from Zanesville, Ohio

      Thanks everyone for such nice words. I'm grateful of all you guys. Thanks so much. Been busy lately. I don't get a lot of time on here.

    • Dim Flaxenwick profile image

      Dim Flaxenwick 

      9 years ago from Great Britain

      Brilliant when something or someone is gradually revealed through a dark poem like that. thank you enjoyed it

    • I*n*v*i*c*t*u*s profile image

      I*n*v*i*c*t*u*s 

      9 years ago

      Seeing through shadowing masks can be quite tough and finding whom is pulling reigns evenmore so.. yet time has a way of spilling the truth.. greatly expressed!

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      Jess Killmenow 

      9 years ago from Nowheresville, Eastern United States

      Nice job. The emotions are real, and cliches nicely avoided. Fresh. Like it a lot. Thanks!

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      tantrum 

      9 years ago from Tropic of Capricorn

      It's no good letting people control our lives. Good poem ! cheers ! :)

    • Cris A profile image

      Cris A 

      9 years ago from Manila, Philippines

      Yes, you click on that every time you make a new hub of any kind. And have you explored the capsules? You can add videos, too - poetry and music hell yeah!

    • DomShadows profile imageAUTHOR

      Dom Shadows 

      9 years ago from Zanesville, Ohio

      Nope right on about that man. Shoo I even listen to solid gold oldies, classical. A lot of alot man..

      Really good idea to thanks. Now 1 question.

      Do I just click on "start new hub" like i do with my poetry lyrics?

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      Cris A 

      9 years ago from Manila, Philippines

      Oh you know, your musical influences, the music/musicians that rock your world, and you can do it across genres, too. really, the sky is the limit since you are not pigeonholed in metal alone.

    • DomShadows profile imageAUTHOR

      Dom Shadows 

      9 years ago from Zanesville, Ohio

      Hub about my Music or Stuff I like? What do you mean?

      And I agree too with that.. Word up with the sword up

    • Cris A profile image

      Cris A 

      9 years ago from Manila, Philippines

      Cool - maybe you can hub about your music too. Or stuff you like as there are many music fans here on HP.

      True that - our writing is blind to the nature of our motivation.

    • DomShadows profile imageAUTHOR

      Dom Shadows 

      9 years ago from Zanesville, Ohio

      Thats cool man, I'm very big into music, mostly just a singer/writer but I can play a little too. Well that was a pretty good guess but to be honest. On that poll no body is really wrong all of it drives me.. Provokes me.. Makes me scream..lol

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      Cris A 

      9 years ago from Manila, Philippines

      A wannabe musician is more apt! LOL No I'm not, I'm just musically inclined is all. But your structure 'makes better sense' if music is imagined alongside it.

      Ha! And I did vote for the 'darker' stuff as your inspiration for writing in your poll in 'Flaw-less'. And I see why as the dark is almost always more intense :D

    • DomShadows profile imageAUTHOR

      Dom Shadows 

      9 years ago from Zanesville, Ohio

      Whoa dude? I must read up a little on you. Are you a musician? I do alot of different styles of writing. Lyrical Poetry, Song Lyrics, Expressionism Lyrics, Poetry..ETC.

      Yeah, I still write alot of songs, mostly rock/metal/hardcore type. But I also can do acoustic/Blues/r&b/hip-hop-. Blah. But yes I have a few many people that like this song when I was younger in my metal days.

      By the way--> the darker side is my thing. Soon as I finish my book I'll give ya the title.

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      Cris A 

      9 years ago from Manila, Philippines

      The buildup and the return to the title as the last line and also the structure...this could be a song, or is it?

      Anyway, another dark poem. Good thing I like them dark sometimes. And funny I just wrote a poem called darkling. Thanks for sharing :D

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