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Updated on December 13, 2011


Struggling to make it, I don’t know if I can take this anymore

Emotions flowing wildly, my veins are getting sore

Sadness plagues the mind like an incurable disease

It robs you of your joy and brings you to your knees

Long gone are my loved ones, they’ve fallen through the floor

I’m locked in limbo, its dark, I can’t find the door

This is no cry for help but a declaration of my state of mind

Situations in life leave me stranded with my childhood swept behind

The Hate is so tangible its coming out of every pore

The Frustration so deep I can feel it in my core

“What’s in store for me tomorrow?” is what I worry at night

The people around are all so loving its hurting

Bcuz the only thought in my mind is that I am a burden

This is no joke, see this is my life

My hope is so close to being cut by a knife

One misfortune after another leaving me distraught

Nothing I can do, my hands are tied, my stomach in a knot

Life is a story and it seems depression is the plot

I’ve got nothing to give cause my love is all I’ve got

What’s the point of trying when all I do is useless

I can’t sort it out, my life is a mess

I cant be happy without something in the back of my mind

Trying to draw me back into darkness, I cant find

A single genuinely joyful moment of my childhood

I would love you to the fullest, only if I could

Everything in my life is like a mental war

It’s easy to give up when you have nothing to live for


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      Mike Pugh 

      7 years ago from New York City

      Giving up isn't easy for me, because I've literally crawled out of the depths of despair, and lead myself back into it all on purpose.

      That very purpose of going back into it all is to grab everyone I can and lead them out of it, so you see I can never ever give up, its like trying to save family from a burning building, I just don't look back and keep pulling them out.

      Keep your head up bro, you'll see the light indeed, if this is your truest experiences, depression is a motivating force to me to make changes towards a good life once and for all. Thanks for sharing voted up!

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      Brian Loewer 

      7 years ago from Portland, Oregon

      Been there man... Real glad to read your work. I like this one a lot. Nice rhythm. Love Poems about the battle of the mind & soul.

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      Irell VL 

      7 years ago

      Thank you all for your comments and feedback. It really means a lot to me.

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      Poetic Fool 

      7 years ago

      Deep, dark and desperate! I've never suffered from such depression but you just gave me some insight into the despair. Beautifully done! I'm a fan now.

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      7 years ago from California, USA

      Wow...I can totally relate! Very moving poem...I vote up!

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      Deborah Brooks Langford 

      7 years ago from Brownsville,TX

      I can feel your pain. I am so sorry.. I know how you feel. I love the poem because you made me feel. I voted up and awesome

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      Sydney J 

      7 years ago

      Amazing as always, and I can totally relate :-)


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