Not alot of people really like me for me. A lot of them don't even know the half about me. Few know bout my flaws .
Almost none know where I have come from or what I actually want .
.. And you know me, I like some company to help me forget what have lost in the past,to help me forget the bad lot that happened.
... That's why I don't really open up about me just to anybody I meet. That's why I have a problem in trusting . That's why I actually stopped opening up about me, I realised I was scaring people away while I actually needed them. None of them stayed . And I don't blame them for getting scared, because am scared of myself at times. Am scared that some day the past is just gone wake up on me,roast me., make fun of me. And finally just swallow me whole.
But you was a special one. Why you stayed I don't really know and am glad you stayed. I wasn't expecting it, I wasn't prepared for it, didn't see it coming either . But you were different, and I couldn't tell why but I could just feel it .
We are kinda different but same. Been fighting different wars but we still here. ..
You've been looking out for me as if I were your family, like blood. I don't just understand how you just stay even when we fight. The moments I forget who I am, you just there looking out for me. The moments I feel like I should just let go, you help me tighten my grip. When it seems like have lost it all, you remind me I still got you. When I want to just give up... You just there.... Almost everytime.... Heaven sent.....
And I know I can't pay back the times have hurt you. I can't take back the times I made you worried. I can't be sorry enough for the many things I did..... I can't make us meet again for the first time.
I just owe you much more than friendship and love can offer...