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Discovering Me Myself

Updated on July 5, 2011
Shower: The place where you can't tell the difference between water and tears.
Shower: The place where you can't tell the difference between water and tears.
Never forgetting, hiding behind the curtain trying to wash him away
Never forgetting, hiding behind the curtain trying to wash him away
always a part of your heart, can't love be helped?
always a part of your heart, can't love be helped?

This is old so for those of you that know me, no worries this is no recent issue. . .

Got to pick myself up off the floor
I can't go on like this anymore
Fighting away tears each night and day
Got to accept that you won't stay
I don't need your hand to hold
I'm strong I'm smart and yes im bold
I'll make it without you by my side,
But It sure will... be an exciting ride

Got to keep telling myself
I don't need him, I don't need him, I don't need, him

I have what it takes inside
To overcome the pain i hide
To wash away this memory
And be the me i need to be
I know I'll be alright
because it's you that's lost this fight
Forever's walking out your door
And i know now....I don't want you anymore

I Keep on trying
I don't need him, i don't need him, I don't need, him

Once upon a pretend time
I thought that you would be all mine
We planned to live a happy life
Together with me as you're wife
You said you loved me for my sake
But now i see my big mistake
To let you in my heart
i should've seen it from the start
You just did what you do
Loving, hurting, lying too

Its easier for me
i don't need him, i don't need him, I don't need, him

I don't blame him at all
He just couldn't be there
We never broke down that wall
And couldn't find what it was we shared
It comes down to me in the end
All is forgiven, I'll take a new friend.

But like i said before
I don't need him, I don't need him, i don't need, him

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      M Carnahan 

      5 years ago from Nevada

      Wow; pretty deep. You are a good writer. Keep it up and good luck to you.

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      Amy 

      7 years ago from Chicago

      thank you all so much for your encouraging commments. Dim Flaxenwick, I am happy to have been encouraging to anyone that has gone through a similiar let down. I've learned the only one to pick you up when you fall is you. Lyla, glad you loved it, you have a beautiful hub name btw. Miss, I try my hardest to get my feelings into my words. The most intense thoughts and pains and pleasures are found in my poetry and I'm happy they're recognizable and affective.

      Poetic Fool, as always you're comments are so helpful.Originally i wrote this as a song in the shower, hence the repeating line. But I forgot the tune and decided it was a strong piece of writing anyhow. I'm glad you noticed the emphasis on him, it was intentional. Thanks for being so observant and as always I look forward to your work and more comments. :-)

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      Poetic Fool 

      7 years ago

      This was great! So many will be able to relate to it. I especially liked the repeating verse that tied it all together:

      "I don't need him, I don't need him, i don't need, him"

      and placing the comma before the word him in the last repetition completely changes the emphasis. Great!

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      miss_jkim 

      7 years ago

      There is such power and passion in your work. I can feel the pain, disappointment, and agony as I have lived through this tearing apart of two souls. Stay strong!

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      Lyla Day 

      7 years ago

      This was great. I loved it.

    • Dim Flaxenwick profile image

      Dim Flaxenwick 

      7 years ago from Great Britain

      Vey encouraging for anyone reading this , who is feeling self-doubt at the end of a relationship. Happy to know it is not who you are now, but passed.

      Great read. Thank you.

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