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Dorsi's Book Ch. 1: I Wasn't Supposed to be Born

Updated on January 14, 2013

Chapter 1: My parents had no plans to have another kid....

Who would have thought that when I started to write this book that I would be sitting on the couch with a laptop in my lap, my husbands oversized slippers on, and no goal in mind? I'd always dreamed it would be different, that I would be sitting at an old desk with one of those old vintage typewriters, glasses on, like the writers you see on TV. Buried in my work for days, only taking glimpses into the world to eat, and maybe sleep.

Well, it ain't over tll the fat lady sings,and this chicks not getting any younger - so it's now or never.

A 50th Birthday present to myself - I said - Something memorable to mark the half century mark. Besides, my life has all the makings a of a good book - intrigue, excitement and lots of stories to tell.... and tell....

Wealth, poverty, molestation, divorce, abuse, premature births, death, drug use, alcoholism, infidelity and....

(Unfortunately, all of those things have played some part in my life) Not that I'm proud of it, because I'm not, I've done some great things, and some not so great things in my life - and had some bad things done to me - as we all have - and as a friend once told me, we ALL have a story to tell.

And this is my story.

It's a story about Redemption.

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And In The Beginning.........


re┬Ědemp┬Ětion (r-dmpshn)


1. The act of redeeming or the condition of having been redeemed. 2. Recovery of something pawned or mortgaged. 3. The payment of an obligation, as a government's payment of the value of its bonds. 4. Deliverance upon payment of ransom; rescue. 5. Christianity Salvation from sin through Jesus's sacrifice.

My life, the me that I am, was broken into pieces - then rescued. Rescued by a God that specializes in putting broken pieces back together. True, the finished piece will never look the same again, but maybe the original piece wasn't supposed to look that way in the first place! Take for example my birth. I was supposed to be TWO of us, yes TWO. My mother told me I was a twin, that there was another Dorsi in her womb. I can't imagine that - there being another me! Would he or she have looked just like me? Would we have been sibling soul mates? Like those twins on TV that can read each others minds? I think its kind of sad that I'll never get to know - I even feel a little bad, that maybe I took too much of the life out of my twin. I'll never know until I get to heaven. Then I'll have to ask...

So from the very beginning life sort of sucked, I guess, No twin to play with, to boss around, fight with, get into trouble with. I was a lonely child. Fortunately, I had a beautiful red haired sister named Sherry that had that great love of babies that 13 year olds girls have - she took care of me (not that my mother didn't want too) but my sister was adamant about taking care of her little baby sister. After all, it was my sisters idea that little me should be born.

My parents weren't going to have any more kids, they had my brother Jimmy and my sister Sherry, a boy and girl and that was all they wanted. They probably would have had more children but my sister was desperately sick and needed lots of medical care, because she was born with a congenital heart problem that made her very frail and weak. Doctors couldn't operate when she was born because they just didn't have the technology like they have today. So my dad, being the loving dad that he was, went back into the Navy so my sister could have better medical care. That was also when they decided to have me. My sister bugged them about having a baby until well, they just gave in. Lucky me is all I have to say.

When I was born I got another lucky break - I was born a girl. Had I been a born a boy my brother would have got to name me, but since I was a girl my sister got to name me and that's how I ended up with the name Dorsi. Unfortunately, I never got to ask my sister why she named me that because a year after I was born she died, leaving me with the name she picked, a broken hearted brother, and 2 broken hearted parents that would never get over her loss. Your child dying before you is just never right, is it?

My parents recovered but tears would always spring to my dads eyes whenever he talked about her, and as for my brother, he couldn't talk about her, ever. He had been her champion, and when she died my parents said he was never the same again. She was 13 when she died and he was 11, and I was 1 year old. The operation that my parents had waited 13 years to give her had finally been perfected, so they proceeded with the surgery - which was successful - save for some bleeding. When they went back in to stop the bleeding she got an infection and died. She was allergic to penicillin and back then antibiotics were scarce, and she just couldn't fight any longer. My brave red haired sister went to heaven in 1959, one year after I was born.

My first caretaker was gone.

CHAPTER 2 - Daddy's Little Artist

Ever wonder why some children grow up to be artists? Read my continuing story here for a glimpse into why:


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  • Dorsi profile imageAUTHOR

    Dorsi Diaz 

    10 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area

    Thanks Window Painter for the beautiful compliment and SO glad you took the time to read. I have 11 other chapters that I unpublished here and I am debating on how to proceed with my book.

    -from your fellow window painter friend!!

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    10 years ago

    Well this caught me by surprise... there I was minding my own business, linking to websites. Came across hubPages, did my Hub and started browsing. Found your Hub Dorsi and started reading and you touched my heart with your story. I am a window painter by trade and can appreciate your work. God Bless you Dorsi. Mike

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    Dorsi Diaz 

    10 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area

    Thank you EVERYONE for stopping by and reading the beginning of my story. I appreciate it alot!

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    10 years ago from naga city

    oh my gosh, my heart's crying now..hugs for you!

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    John Cain 

    11 years ago from Dayton, Texas

    Dorsi: This hub really got my attention. So Im hooked and must read part two and so on. You are my newest fan. Bless you.

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    DeBorrah K Ogans 

    11 years ago


    What a womderful heartfelt story! I am looking forward to more...

    Thank You for sharing!


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    Grundge Hedgehog 

    11 years ago from Durban

    FANTASTIC! I love writing and can only dream of being actually published... for real... in print... on paper... YOU know what i mean :)I constantly find myself jotting down ideas that pop into my head and they all make for wonderful short pieces but I just need to try and get myself to piece something a bit longer together. If you have any tips and ideas for me, PLEASE help me out. I would love the advice. You can read some of my posts and get an idea of my writing style. I really would appreciate any advice and help anyone can give me.

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    Coast Runner 

    12 years ago

    I was drawn into your story and now I want more. So many of us write stories, but they never publish for one reason or another - mostly because we never know who to park it with. You have inspired me to put my first chapter up too. Thanks.

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    Michelle Simtoco 

    12 years ago from Cebu, Philippines

    You are so right Dorsi, all of us have a story to tell. :) I'm glad to be reading your story now. :)

  • Dorsi profile imageAUTHOR

    Dorsi Diaz 

    12 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area

    Thanks for the feedback and the comments. I hope that by sharing my story it can help other people- I plan on rewriting parts of this of course, and adding actual pictures from the era the chapter is written ( gotta lot of scanning to do!) and Marisa, that is a wonderful suggestion and I would certainly do that because you are so right!

    I think many of us can identify with having to survive ( what else can we do when faced with adversity?) I suppose some people can get bitter, but as for me, I want to turn those bad experiences into something good- something more lasting that can benefit someone else. I love all your support and comments- and thanks again.

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    Kate Swanson 

    12 years ago from Sydney

    Hi Dorsi. Your first chapter makes a great start. When you get the book published, I would leave out the preface and use it as the "blurb" instead. You have to consider the person who will pick up the book in a bookshop and open the first page - you want them to be hooked from the get-go, and the picture of you sitting on the couch with your laptop ain't going to do that! Whereas the start of Chapter 1 would.

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    12 years ago

    Fantastic Dorsi, that was compelling reading. Well done to you for being such a survivor.

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    12 years ago from Oklahoma

    Dorsi, I am so glad that you are sharing your life with us. I am always interested in finding out more about people and their lives. I, like everyone else, will happily read more of your story!

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    Barbara Silva 

    12 years ago

    Hi Dorsi,

    I love the first chapter as well. As you gave a "sneak peak" into some of your triumphs and tragedies, I found my self cringing and feeling excited at the same time.

    Often, when we share those darker moments of our lives, we find that more people than we imagined have been through similar experiences and are so very relieved to finally be able to talk about feel understood. Moreover, it provides hope -- if you are able to move beyond the challenge and use it to better yourself in some way, you become a role model to those still caught in the struggle.

    So I'm anticipating a good read here, but more importantly I believe you will have an impact on others who are still seeking "redemption." I am looking forward to every word!

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    William F Torpey 

    12 years ago from South Valley Stream, N.Y.

    Good work, Dorsi. Like everyone else, I'm looking forward to reading more.

  • Enlydia Listener profile image

    Enlydia Listener 

    12 years ago from trailer in the country

    I have always thought that everyone has a story to tell or a book inside of them....thankyou for sharing.

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    Leah Kay, The Pup 

    12 years ago from Anywhere-USA

    Hi Dorsi!

    A wonderful story!!! You just might give me the courage to write more about my life. I haven't the experience of loosing a sibling (but then again maybe I have...). However I have a daughter that has manic depression and was diagnosed at a very young age of 13. Anyways, your story is inspiring. can't wait for the next chapter.

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    Patricia Costanzo 

    12 years ago from Behind the Redwood Curtain

    Yes we all have a story, but it sounds like yours is gonna be a barn burner!

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    hot dorkage 

    12 years ago from Oregon, USA

    I think a lot of us have a really interesting story to tell. I'll be reading the installments. Thank you for sharing

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    12 years ago

    dorsi i never even knew you had a sister or anything!or that you were a twin!!!

    i can't wait to read more!!u are an awesome writter and keep it up!!i loveeee reading your articles!!i love you

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    12 years ago from Florida

    Dorsi - I've never lost a sibling, though I came close with my only brother. He was 3 months early, and spent the first two months in the hospital, hooked up to a respirator. I thank God he lived, because until he came along, I was the only member of our family not to have a brother!

    This is brave, what you are writing. But honesty from the heart is one of the most compelling types of writing out there. Three cheers!

    Jim Henry,

    aka Crashcromwell

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    Dorsi Diaz 

    12 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area

    Thank-you, thank-you and thank-you everyone! This encourages me to write more!

    It's been sitting on the back burner and I needed this to help me push forward! I really appreciate all of your love and support for my book project!

  • C.S.Alexis profile image


    12 years ago from NW Indiana

    Okay Dorsi,

    This is a great start. Fifty has a way of pushing us forward. You touched my heart some months passed and now you have me sitting on the edge of my computer chair....Waiting! C.S.

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    Patty Inglish MS 

    12 years ago from USA and Asgardia, the First Space Nation

    Chapter 1 is already more story than some folks have lived for 50 years, I think. At any rate, it signals much more to come. Thanks for sharing it here.


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    Shirley Anderson 

    12 years ago from Ontario, Canada

    Okay Dorsi, this is just the first chapter and you've already brought tears to my eyes.

    Like the others, I'm looking forward to more!

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    Eddie Perkins 

    12 years ago


    I really appreciate this “beginning”. You are very talented indeed and I will be looking forward to “the rest of the story”.

    Thank you very much. ~ eddie

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    12 years ago from MA, USA

    Wow Dorsi...I can't imagine writing this as I hold my breath recalling my older sister losing her twins at birth which is never talked about and I thought I forgot.  Your story is great Dorsi, it is a story about all of us and you are right....It's Now or Never!  I'm wishing you all the Luck as you write and looking forward to Chapter 2.

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    12 years ago from Bay Area

    Dorsi, I would so buy this book and read it all in one day if it was on the shelf. I want more it is just not fair that you leave us hanging like that on on the edge of our seats. So please please publish more I want to read more. Thanks

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    12 years ago from Central Texas

    I can't wait to read more either!

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    Chef Jeff 

    12 years ago from Universe, Milky Way, Outer Arm, Sol, Earth, Western Hemisphere, North America, Illinois, Chicago.

    So when you are a best selling author, will you forget all of your hub pals? LOL!!!

    Good luck and I too hope to be reading it in book form.


    Chef Jeff T.

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    Cris A 

    12 years ago from Manila, Philippines

    i love how you tell your story in this first chapter, stark, direct and brutally honest. Like the wonderful people who have already read this, I, too, will be looking forward to reading the rest of your life as it unfolds here. You are truly a "golden girl" in many ways. Thanks for sharing :D

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    Rebecca Graf 

    12 years ago from Wisconsin

    Dorsi, congrats and beginning this. I can only imagine how hard some of this can be. I'm looking forward to the rest.

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    12 years ago from SomeWhere Out There

    That is wonderful and I poured out my life yesterday it is called on a wing and a prayer. I believe many may be shocked, but it was a part of my life. I love your Chapter and you keep on going, thank you for sharing :)

  • Dorsi profile imageAUTHOR

    Dorsi Diaz 

    12 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area

    Thank you Susan. When we lose siblings early it's very strange because you know they were part of the family, but they aren't there as you grow up, and it's leaves a strange void, doesn't it?

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    Susan Keeping 

    12 years ago from Kitchener, Ontario

    What a wonderful start to your story. I can't wait to read the rest.

    I had a brother who died when I was very young and my parents never talked about him. I was so young I even forgot I had had a brother.


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