The Strength I Have: Down Deep
Down deep you feel that strength you will need just once more,
Last time he extinguished that fire; he’s the one your love burned for.
There is nothing left but pain; that emptiness running so deep,
Losing myself, my mind, my dreams; leaving only residue in cracks does seep.
Remembering what all drilled and taught; ten years gone past;
Eighteen years young, dreams still alive, that yearning didn't last.
My best friend was my rifle and rack mate; my enemy sand pits and fleas,
Slide for dear life I did, fell a time or twelve, got right back up, rest a tease.
Co-Dependent NEVER! Avoidant or Dependent no way, no how, not me!
Adapted and overcame is what my inner voice whispers, almost in glee.
Long ago I was young, ambitious, fearless, confident; hell a scruffy recruit
Boot doesn't last but what it taught me sure did; Marine? NO HONOR? A hoot.
Deep Down inside me a rumble did build; that change finally came overcame me
My soul he sucked away was revived; i a miracle in ways I now do see
The truth boldly pointed and this I say to my reflection; stand in my own latrine
Standing strong, so proudly as I say its now time; Look at the United States Marine
God, Corps and Country is what life is about; you may not serve in fleet or war
Your day come and gone; but the corps is always within us, our heart, soul, never far.
I dig deep each day to remember that girl; no man would out run or out perform
Trained like an equal, my ambitions, the thirst ...attack now when depression does swarm
All Rights Reserved by Author: Abigayle Malchow (abbykorinnelee) 2010/11
© 2011 Abigayle Rourk