EVERY NIGHT, MY PAST

We all like to read stories especially which stories have useful lessons. Some random people like to read sad stories. These sad stories can belong to a person or a destroyed family. The entertaining industries also like to catch these attracting moments to make a movie. This short story belongs to a woman, who has faced many problems in her own family and society. She is still facing problems because her ancestors are totally uneducated.

My past, I think about my previous life at the end of every day. This September 2019, I become a 29 year old lady but I am still unsuccessful. Every one born alone and die alone. The life never stops if someone dies. When I was younger I was thought about my best future and lovely life. I thought I will be best and qualified doctor or engineer but no. My whole family was in the way of my success. I tried to set my career as a professional college or a university professor but I am failed because of my family.

Every person learns from his/her mistakes. I also made uncountable mistakes in my early life. I belong from an uneducated and stupid family. My ancestors aren’t my well-wishers and supporters in any way. My family is consisted of three brothers and two sisters including me. But still I am alone and hopeless.

When I was younger, I thought every member of my family is with me and they will always with me. My family will support me and never leave me alone. But when I see the families of my friends, they are happy in their life. There is an important reason that my friends are from supported families and I am not. When I was student, my parents supported me for my education and best future. But, when I tried to study in a good college, my father tried to stop me and I stopped. Then I started my bachelor in a college located in my own city.

I still remember today when my father stopped me and I cried for my education. I still remember those tears. That was the first time I realized that I am girl and a daughter. I don’t have the value like sons. But you know what my mother was with me only. She supported me for everything.

Many times I felt that my father doesn’t care about me and that’s why every person is against me. Every person wants to destroy me. Everyone let me realize so helpless and hopeless but i didn’t give up. I know this is normal for everyone. Nobody cares about it because every girl who belongs from a disgusting family is facing many problems in society. All of these problems are because of our elders. In this country, there are people here who support their daughters in every life matter, and there are those who put their innocent daughter in the hell.

After two years of my bachelor, I started my master level in 2011 and I got admission in virtual university of Pakistan, Lahore. I started to make a work hard to complete my master degree. After many issues, at last, I completed my master degree 2016. To complete the degree requirement, I performed my training as internship in a bank which was situated in my own city. Many other people, such as online friend support me for my education and my dreams. Then I tried to do a good job and I got them too but my father never supported me and I had to leave those jobs. Then that was the first time when I realized that my father and my family never do good for me and then my father died for me.

Today, whatever i am, if I have something like a master degree then this is because of my mother’s support and my online friends. I am very thankful to them. I am still unmarried because nobody likes me. People come and leave. There is one thing that if your parents are not with you, you won’t get any success in your life. I never thought badly about my family but they are the main reason behind my tearful story.

At the end, I want to say that don’t do this with your daughters. After a man creation, the female is the main and important creation of God. Our prophet gave a full respect to a woman. Please don’t destroy them. Care about them because once they gone they will never be back for you. Like me now i can’t be back to my family whatever it takes. Because they are main reason behind my broken heart and unsuccessful life.