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Frankenwoman: A term of endearment for a woman who has undergone ECT or electroconvulsive-therapy.

Updated on February 13, 2014
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ocfireflies is a retired teacher. She graduated from Appalachian State University with a B.S. in English/Secondary Education.

Now no longer a stranger to E C T


Turn the screws in my neck.

Adjust the chemicals in my brain.

Connect the wires where they once were frayed.

Herd us in and out of the curtained stalls.

Your minions have their jobs.

Keep the conveyor belts moving?


Stick tubes in our veins.

Sink us into deep sleeps.

Shake and Splice. Seize our haze.


Arrive in the early morn

Blanketed by the night

Escorted by one son

Then the other

Both

Wonder

How this came to be:

A cog in someone else’s psychiatric machine

The cast is always the same

Loving hearts twice displayed

Balancing parts

Holding humanity


Have you changed?


Did the electric currents

Recharge your brain?


Have those thoughts that haunt you daily

Disappeared and Dissipated?


Battery-charged AC/DC

Exhausted from the boom and banging


Wondering who or what I am

Submerged in a fog

Confused and thinking loud


I am wheel-chaired to the car

where my son sits behind the wheel

ready to take me away from here


Now no longer a stranger to E C T

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    • ocfireflies profile imageAUTHOR

      ocfireflies 

      2 years ago from North Carolina

      Will do. Thank you.

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      Mel Carriere 

      2 years ago from San Diego California

      Only fair they are naming storms after boys now. Hunker down and stay safe.

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      ocfireflies 

      2 years ago from North Carolina

      Mel,

      I, too believe "Seize our haze" summarizes quite accurately the experience. When I am asked, if I would go through it again, I am never sure how to answer. If the feeling I got after the second one had stayed intact, then I believe I would do it again. Thank you dear one for reading and commenting on this piece. Please note that I am having computer issues. It makes commenting frustrating because I never know when it will just crash. Wishing I was in California and not here in NC, "Jonas" Blizzard 2016 has been relentless.

      Blessings,

      Kim

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      Mel Carriere 

      2 years ago from San Diego California

      "Seize our haze." That's a powerful line, almost as if they looted something from you that, while tormenting, is also an essential part of your being. Who is the real villain of the piece, the thoughts that torment you or the paid automatons charged with stealing these thoughts from you, perhaps bottling them and putting them in a safe somewhere, for future insidious purposes. Great food for earth shaking thought here. Loved it!

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      Carrieann 

      3 years ago

      I'd veutrne that this article has saved me more time than any other.

    • ocfireflies profile imageAUTHOR

      ocfireflies 

      4 years ago from North Carolina

      Jamie, Nadine, GRL, Suzette, Eddy and Audrey,

      Please accept this belated thank you. I continue to work at making my way back to HP. I can't tell you how much you all mean to me.

      Kim

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      Audrey Howitt 

      4 years ago from California

      Kim, I hope you are doing better. This is a difficult place in so many ways. Keep writing --I think it helps--hugs to you

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      Eiddwen 

      4 years ago from Wales

      Wow powerful and so gripping. your talent certainly shows through here. Voted up for sure.

      Eddy.

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      Suzette Walker 

      4 years ago from Taos, NM

      Kim:I have missed you! Thank you for sharing this. This is beautifully written on a subject we don't talk about. You brave woman! I had no idea what this was like until reading your poem. I would be terrified to get this done and it is good you have taken away some of the fear. Welcome back!

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      Gypsy Rose Lee 

      4 years ago from Riga, Latvia

      Be strong and keep the faith. The Lord will help see you through.

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      Nadine May 

      4 years ago from Cape Town, Western Cape, South Africa

      Kim that sounds all very scary. That must have been so difficult, whatever they do under the term of healing. Best wishes

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      Jamie Lee Hamann 

      4 years ago from Reno NV

      Kim, this is great poetry, I felt at times that I was reading Anne Sexton. Even though your poetry is all your own. I have personal experience with the contents of this poem but I will refrain from going into this further, I do have a short story "The Transmutation of Brenda and Loco" where it is breifly mentioned. Mental Health to people with severe conditions has never been very kind. Jamie

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      ocfireflies 

      4 years ago from North Carolina

      Jodah,

      I have missed you! Thanks for the kind words and vote.

      teaches12345,

      Thank you dear one for your blessings. They are much appreciated.

      Jo,

      So glad to be back. Thank you for referencing my poems as "amazing."

      Feeling so blessed to be among a community of such beautiful people,

      Kim

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      Jo Alexis-Hagues 

      4 years ago from Lincolnshire, U.K

      Hi Kim, so sad to learn that you've been having such a tough time of it, but it's good to see you back. I hope you'll be feeling much better soon, and I'm looking forward to reading more of your amazing poems. Take care, and my very best to you.

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      Dianna Mendez 

      4 years ago

      Oh my, what an experience! I am so sorry for your pain in getting this treatment. Your words say so much and portray the affects of it all. Blessings, dear friend.

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      John Hansen 

      4 years ago from Queensland Australia

      Hello Kim, welcome back and hugs. I have missed you on Hub Pages, great to see you back writing and commenting again. I hope all you have gone through helps you and proves worth it. I didn't even realise that this treatment was still in practice until recently. The fact that it is should be proof that it must work in most cases. You were brave to write about this and I applaud you for trusting us all with something personal like this. Great hub, voted up.

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      ocfireflies 

      4 years ago from North Carolina

      Bill,

      While I have not totally made up my mind as to whether the experience helped enough to make it worth the side effects, I am glad that it is over.

      Faith,

      I can't tell you how much the hugs and love are appreciated.

      Faithful Daughter,

      I am most grateful for your prayers.

      Genna East,

      I believe that the treatments are becoming much more common. I am glad to hear that your mother-in-law responded well.

      Many thanks to all of you and your well wishes. Some days are better than others. Just trying really hard to take one day at a time.

      Much Love,

      Kim

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      Genna East 

      4 years ago from Massachusetts, USA

      My mother-in-law had this therapy, and it helped her. I am pleased this is now behind you, Kim, and join others in our best wishes for you. I admire your courage in sharing this experience with us.

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      Evie Lopez 

      4 years ago from Sunny Florida

      My heart goes out to you. My mother had these several times, so I understand. I pray you will heal from your depression.

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      Faith Reaper 

      4 years ago from southern USA

      Dear Kim,

      So great to see you here writing again! You have been missed precious heart. Yes, what an ordeal to say the least.

      Lots of hugs and love your way,

      Faith Reaper

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      Bill Holland 

      4 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Kim, my goodness. What an ordeal! What a nightmare? Thank you for sharing this....and I am very happy you are back with us.

      bill

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      ocfireflies 

      4 years ago from North Carolina

      Jackie and sallybea,

      Thanks so much for your responses. I have missed you and look forward to getting back in the hub page rhythm.

      Many Blessings,

      Kim

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      Sally Gulbrandsen 

      4 years ago from Norfolk

      Hope the outcome from this treatment is the desired one. You are very brave to write about this subject - it definitely helps people to know what options are available to them. Thanks for sharing.

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      Jackie Lynnley 

      4 years ago from The Beautiful South

      I am a stranger to it so now I have a little insight, but I am not a stranger to the fears of machines trying to find our cause of crises and just fear of tomorrow but trust is the best way to fight it, that it will all work out to the good...

      Have missed you, good to see you around again! ^+

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