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Feels Right

Updated on February 13, 2020

Have tried to be a bad guy , emotionless , heartless but it just didn't work out . The character just wasn't easy to act normal on.
Tried to be the nice , and to be honest I don't really know that character either . And I don't think I ever will.
Truthful , didn't work . I tried so hard to contain myself and well , it didn't work either . Just the chosen truths were good to keep everyone smiling.
I tried writing about it, like some Picasso poet , trying hide what I was really saying so it wouldn't be that obvious. Well, at least I tried on this ... But wasn't working , so I just became me . The person am always trying to run away from .
The Picasso version of me wouldn't say it better , so I'll do it.
I think the sun just set and you ain't happy like you normally are . Even the smile's a bit slanted , that heart doesn't beat like it used to . The touch feels just normal ...
I can't seem to change it . Picasso can't . And that sunset just doesn't feel right . The glow is gone maybe .
Am not sure if there's hope for the moon anytime soon leave alone Pegasus in the sky .... And I know you won't say it or even pray on it , because that's ' noise ' .
And normally I'd say this to your face , but I don't wanna see a faint breakdown. Or a quick rubbing if the eyes . It's easier because thinking it feels safer and less hurting.
Amma go the opposite side of the sunset , because it feels just right .

© 2020 Amani Utembu


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    • Brenda Arledge profile image


      5 weeks ago from Washington Court House


      Rewrite this one taking out some of the .....

      Talk to you soon

    • Brenda Arledge profile image


      6 weeks ago from Washington Court House

      He seems to be realizing that he does not know how to love someone.

      Maybe he only goes through the motions using a few chosen truths. The word being chosen.

      Sad that he won't communicate his thoughts face to face for their love may be fixed.

      Sometimes one does not understand how another really feels.

    • Amani Utembu profile imageAUTHOR

      Amani Utembu 

      12 months ago from Nairobi -Kenya

      Thank you Brenda

    • Brenda Arledge profile image


      12 months ago from Washington Court House


      This is so heartfelt.

      Sad that in the truth he only said enough to keep smiles going...not exactly being completely truthful.

      Her smile is not the same because she knows he does not or well...ever did love her the way he should have.

      She was never part of his family the way she thought of him. She loved him deeply.

      Sad that he is going to the opposite side of the sunset since he is finally changing to the man he has kept hidden all along...the man she knew he really was all the time.

      Great write.

      Thank you.


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