ArtsAutosBooksBusinessEducationEntertainmentFamilyFashionFoodGamesGenderHealthHolidaysHomeHubPagesPersonal FinancePetsPoliticsReligionSportsTechnologyTravel

Focus on the Self

Updated on March 20, 2022
trusouldj profile image

I was that loner kid who read comics when everyone else was playing, listened to the B-sides, watched old movies ... And wrote in spirals

Being prepared ...

Isn't that what they teach the Cub scouts? Unfortunately, I was a cub for only a few weeks before the excitement of wearing a uniform and earning badges wore off. The story of my life.

LES BROWN (The Motivator) often shares a quote ... (paraphrase) Would you rather be prepared while waiting for an opportunity to arrive or be caught unprepared when opportunity knocks?

I think about me. I'm basically a basement writer; not unlike an "alley mechanic". Ever since a high school teacher said that I had talent back in '86/'87/'88, I've been writing my tail off. Spirals galore (1 subject/3 subject/5 subject), composition books (the black and white marble design that's been around at least as long as I can remember) and even art sketch books. I'd fill all of the above with stories acted out by hundreds of fictional characters. Some good works. Some not so good works. Some close to great ... And nobody knows it but me.

Good is good. That's not so hard. This means that inspiration was kind to me on that particular day.

Not so good is not so good. This means that the writer's block and various distractions from family can often result in uneven volumes that end up being rewritten and improved upon. Other times, I have ended up with a hotter mess than before.

What makes some of these works great is when I can read something I wrote in 1995 and be encouraged by something a character says 20 years later. Then as I'm exclaiming out loud how good a response that was, it dawns on me that I'm the one who wrote those lines. How about that?

Don't get me wrong, I've tried -- not extremely hard, but I've tried to hit that high note. There was the website I created through And the reboot I created on Both named after a black and white magazine I created on card stock paper in the early 90s that was meant to rival CCM (Contemporary Christian Magazine); reviewing CDS, books and DVDS.

These sites, along with stints collaborating with other peoples' projects: (defunct), Gospel Flava Magazine (defunct) and S7ven Magazine (defunct) ...

Between all of these endeavors, I wrote some good pieces. I also had some stuff totally reworked by the editor, because they didn't trust my talent. But most of all I got to interview my crush, singer extraordinaire (and KATY PERRY favorite), CRYSTAL LEWIS. There will never be a sweeter sound than Miss Crystal calling me from her manager's office and asking to speak to me personally. I still get goosebumps thinking about it.

I interviewed other great singers too, like a sweetheart named TAMMY TRENT, who lost her husband a day before the September 11th tragedy. As well I received packages almost everyday from music labels and media companies and publicists, filled with amazing product that had yet to reach the shelves of retailers.

However, the authentic dream has always been to publish my fiction. But the business of it has intimidated me from following through. Registering this, copyrighting that and sending query letters and securing agents and all of the things it takes to make the wheels on the bus go round and round. All of that making the dream feel so far away from achieving.

In the end, I suppose I'm a master procrastinator and a major scary cat. In the sense that fear has taken over time after time whenever I attempted to move in the right direction. The "what ifs" and the "I'm not good enough(s)" ... Then you turn your back and blink your eyes for just a minute and like PAUL SIMON sang to OPRAH, "Twenty five years have come and gone".

Now here we are ... 2019 ...

Did I mention that in 2016 I could have died due to sudden complications with my heart? No? Yeah. Well, that's a story for another day.

At the end of the day, no one knows how much time they truly have on this earth. So I encourage you to do as I'm trying to do this year. Let your light so shine. Get your work out to the masses by any means necessary. Even if its just in a blog or website of your own making; a newsletter even. At least you said what you needed to say and shared it. And when its all said and done, you and we the readers will be the better for it.

This content reflects the personal opinions of the author. It is accurate and true to the best of the author’s knowledge and should not be substituted for impartial fact or advice in legal, political, or personal matters.

© 2019 LaZeric Freeman


This website uses cookies

As a user in the EEA, your approval is needed on a few things. To provide a better website experience, uses cookies (and other similar technologies) and may collect, process, and share personal data. Please choose which areas of our service you consent to our doing so.

For more information on managing or withdrawing consents and how we handle data, visit our Privacy Policy at:

Show Details
HubPages Device IDThis is used to identify particular browsers or devices when the access the service, and is used for security reasons.
LoginThis is necessary to sign in to the HubPages Service.
Google RecaptchaThis is used to prevent bots and spam. (Privacy Policy)
AkismetThis is used to detect comment spam. (Privacy Policy)
HubPages Google AnalyticsThis is used to provide data on traffic to our website, all personally identifyable data is anonymized. (Privacy Policy)
HubPages Traffic PixelThis is used to collect data on traffic to articles and other pages on our site. Unless you are signed in to a HubPages account, all personally identifiable information is anonymized.
Amazon Web ServicesThis is a cloud services platform that we used to host our service. (Privacy Policy)
CloudflareThis is a cloud CDN service that we use to efficiently deliver files required for our service to operate such as javascript, cascading style sheets, images, and videos. (Privacy Policy)
Google Hosted LibrariesJavascript software libraries such as jQuery are loaded at endpoints on the or domains, for performance and efficiency reasons. (Privacy Policy)
Google Custom SearchThis is feature allows you to search the site. (Privacy Policy)
Google MapsSome articles have Google Maps embedded in them. (Privacy Policy)
Google ChartsThis is used to display charts and graphs on articles and the author center. (Privacy Policy)
Google AdSense Host APIThis service allows you to sign up for or associate a Google AdSense account with HubPages, so that you can earn money from ads on your articles. No data is shared unless you engage with this feature. (Privacy Policy)
Google YouTubeSome articles have YouTube videos embedded in them. (Privacy Policy)
VimeoSome articles have Vimeo videos embedded in them. (Privacy Policy)
PaypalThis is used for a registered author who enrolls in the HubPages Earnings program and requests to be paid via PayPal. No data is shared with Paypal unless you engage with this feature. (Privacy Policy)
Facebook LoginYou can use this to streamline signing up for, or signing in to your Hubpages account. No data is shared with Facebook unless you engage with this feature. (Privacy Policy)
MavenThis supports the Maven widget and search functionality. (Privacy Policy)
Google AdSenseThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
Google DoubleClickGoogle provides ad serving technology and runs an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
Index ExchangeThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
SovrnThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
Facebook AdsThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
Amazon Unified Ad MarketplaceThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
AppNexusThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
OpenxThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
Rubicon ProjectThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
TripleLiftThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
Say MediaWe partner with Say Media to deliver ad campaigns on our sites. (Privacy Policy)
Remarketing PixelsWe may use remarketing pixels from advertising networks such as Google AdWords, Bing Ads, and Facebook in order to advertise the HubPages Service to people that have visited our sites.
Conversion Tracking PixelsWe may use conversion tracking pixels from advertising networks such as Google AdWords, Bing Ads, and Facebook in order to identify when an advertisement has successfully resulted in the desired action, such as signing up for the HubPages Service or publishing an article on the HubPages Service.
Author Google AnalyticsThis is used to provide traffic data and reports to the authors of articles on the HubPages Service. (Privacy Policy)
ComscoreComScore is a media measurement and analytics company providing marketing data and analytics to enterprises, media and advertising agencies, and publishers. Non-consent will result in ComScore only processing obfuscated personal data. (Privacy Policy)
Amazon Tracking PixelSome articles display amazon products as part of the Amazon Affiliate program, this pixel provides traffic statistics for those products (Privacy Policy)
ClickscoThis is a data management platform studying reader behavior (Privacy Policy)