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For I am not real, I am who you are

Updated on October 19, 2011

Life is what you believe it to be, but the key to understanding it is that you must keep living

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Things may never be perfect-and I may never get over all the hurt...but I am not looking for perfection---I am just looking to feel whole.
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Kept at a distance, as regards to who I am


For I am not real,

I am who you are,

I am never close,

But I am rarely too far.



Kept at a distance,

As regards to who I am,

I am not with you,

I am lost in your hands.



A summer’s last wish,

A winter prayer,

A spring time kiss,

Do things ever become clear?



Fall out of site,

I fall into forever,

I keep them at a distance,

Living within shadows.



No room to lose,

I struggle to trust,

No longer an option,

I become what I must.



It is not real,

What you pretend to show,

I live for the future,

A future I do not know.



I know that I am here,

Here I will lie.

I lie within my heart,

To continue to survive.



I am still not sure if I have ever been seen.

I know that it isn’t you so it must be me.

Trust my heart?

I don’t know that I can.

My heart has betrayed me,

I'm afraid of what it has felt.



You say this is no way to live.

I giggle and turn away,

What do you expect?

What do you want me to say?



No one has cared-at least not for real.

I have never been the first choice.

Or someone others took time to believe in.



Surviving has cost me plenty,

Plenty of life still left to lose.

I won’t be lost in forever,

Because forever has no rules.



I will have a say in tomorrow,

Tomorrow is saved for me.

A service that won’t cost any money,

But a service that isn’t free.



I must not be real

Can I please change?

I'm tired of paying,

And I am tired of pain.



If there is a payment

and I must pay up the cost

I guess it makes sense

that I am the cost of all I have ever lost.



Of all that I have lost

It isnt you- so it must be me

Easy for you to say

When I am the one who bleeds.


Because I believe we all probably feel this at least once in our lives....

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    • youmeget profile image

      youmeget 6 years ago

      Beautiful poem.

      Thanks for sharing.

      youmeget

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      mckbirdbks 6 years ago from Emerald Wells, Just off the crossroads,Texas

      This stretches boundaries. A remarkable feat in this day and age.

      Voted Up and beautiful.

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      Richieb799 6 years ago from Cardiff, Wales UK

      Hey hun, I like this one, the lyrics express some suffering but the overall picture and images at the side show a hope or place of untold refuge

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      aware 6 years ago from West Palm Beach Florida.

      Another great hub.

      Ray

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      Cagsil 6 years ago from USA or America

      Hey Holly, I'll agree with Aware- another great hub that is excellently written. Believe it or not, Life is easy, people make it complicated. It's a quote I created and live by. It's worthy to appreciate yourself and to find that happy comfort zone where the heart and mind are in balance. Always a pleasure to see you producing more writing, because I continue to watch you as you grow in the person you choose to be. Just remember, it's your choice and ability to create your future. I believe in you and my faith in you does not waiver. Thumbs up. :)

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      Augustine A Zavala 6 years ago from Texas

      Surviving and enduring forges us into the individuals that withstand anything. Creating prose from those experiences is like writing a hymn; solemn. Thanks again for sharing.

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      tom hellert 6 years ago from home

      HC,

      good stuff way cool pics I digg it.

      th

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      Holly 6 years ago from Lone Star State

      youmeget- Thanks for the comment, I am glad you liked this poem :)

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      Holly 6 years ago from Lone Star State

      mckbirdbks ,

      Thank you so very much for the wonderful review of my work- I am so happy that you liked it and I truly appreciate the kind words... You just made my night! :)

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      Holly 6 years ago from Lone Star State

      Richieb799 ,

      Thanks you-for stopping by! I need to go visit your hubs soon, I have unfortunately fallen behind on my reading due to work... I appreciate the comment and am happy that you liked the poem :)

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      Holly 6 years ago from Lone Star State

      aware- as always, thanks for reading and commenting, I appreciate you taking your time to follow me :)

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      Holly 6 years ago from Lone Star State

      Cagsil-Thank you for your insight and views of the world... glad that you shared :) and thanks for the comment and quote... here is my addition to your advice (quote)

      "life is too short to have anything but delusional notions about yourself" :)

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      Holly 6 years ago from Lone Star State

      A.A. Zavala- thanks for the sentiment... very wise, you are!

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      Holly 6 years ago from Lone Star State

      tom hellert

      Which is a good thing- :) glad you enjoyed the poem and the pics...

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      Eiddwen 6 years ago from Wales

      Beautiful and I am pushing all the buttons on this one.

      Take care

      Eiddwen.

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      Holly 6 years ago from Lone Star State

      Eiddwen

      Thank you so much for the continued comments- I am so happy that you enjoyed this :)

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      Plarson 5 years ago from Alabama

      H.C.- I sit here, 2 months nearly behind on reading my hub pages posts and following some of my fav writers. Seems the world I thought was so well put together, had a weak link, the other person. Many of the lines of this poem have hit home. An while I might not like the cold truth of the matter, or having to admit the truth, I found some easing of my internal suffering and pain in the realization, that others have felt the same and I can find strength in their writings. -Paul

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      Holly 5 years ago from Lone Star State

      Plarson (Paul)

      Thanks for reading, and I am so glad you can draw some strength and some hope from something that i have written. The great thing about life is it is always changing, as we are always changing- we all have bad and lost moments, but the sun can shine again. I hope you are doing well and that you have found a little bit of hope...because others have been where you are and have survived

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      Nimra Aijaz 5 years ago from Steel Town

      The most beautiful thing about poetry is that it presents feelings in a way most people can relate to it somehow. Some find solace in it, for some it evokes hope and strength.

      Yet another great piece of writing by you- touched my heart! :)

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      Holly 5 years ago from Lone Star State

      Canscorpion- Glad you stumbled across this one. I must say, if someone ever sat down and read all of my hubs (poetry in-particular) they would certainly get a glimpse into my world or feeling and thought. I am glad that I am able to portray myself in such a manner that people have been able to relate to. I hope I inspire more so than invoke solace. Thanks for yet another encouraging comment.

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      vasantha T k 5 years ago from Bangalore

      nice hub and neat pictures.

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      Holly 5 years ago from Lone Star State

      vasantha t k- thank you for the comment- I am glad you liked this one :)

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