Forgiving Myself- Journal Challenge, Day 19
Today’s journal prompt for me is “I am willing to forgive ….” However, I am not only willing, but ready and able to forgive myself for past poor choices and willful disobedience. Webster’s New Explorer College Dictionary defines forgiveness as “ceasing to feel resentment against (an offender); PARDON (forgive your enemies). Acknowledgement is the first step towards healing, so I acknowledge that the inner me has functioned as an enemy to manifesting the truest desires of my heart and that I have experienced feelings of remorse and resentment.
"There is something here I must forgive!" – Iyanla Vanzant, Faith in the Valley, pg.61
Forgiveness is a key ingredient to unblocking blessings, creating harmony in relationships and allowing people to move forward freely in life and love. It is God’s measure and requirement to forgive others in order to be forgiven ourselves. In Faith in the Valley on page 61, Iyanla Vanzant says, “Forgiveness heals old wounds. Forgiveness removes us from the shadows of the past. Forgiveness helps us understand where we are, how we got there, how to shut the door and not return.”
"I move forward with forgiveness." – Iyanla Vanzant, Faith in the Valley, pg.148
Forgiveness Starts Within
I forgive myself for running from the intensity of love into a perceived safe relationship and moving forward in an engagement because I was dissatisfied with being single, even though Spirit clearly told me to WAIT. I forgive myself for getting married in 1986 out of fear and an inability to call the wedding off after realizing the relationship wasn’t God’s perfect will for me. I forgive myself for getting married for the wrong reasons and not being ready, mature enough or able to communicate the baggage and pain I carried into the relationship from the traumatic experiences of my life. I forgive myself for believing that my choices of willful disobedience ruined five lives and for any and all pain I contributed to those relationships. I forgive myself for not waiting patiently on God's divine timing and perfect will for me in the relationship area of my life.
"I think forgiving thoughts. I speak forgiving words." – Iyanla Vanzant, Faith in the Valley, pg.140
NOTE: Write Here, Right Now: 30 Day Journaling Challenge day 19 complete. Thank you, God!