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Fountains of Joy

Updated on June 21, 2015

CXVI.

If you should go

To the ends of earth

My heart will follow.

And if I go

I'll take you

In my heart.


______© Nellieanna H. Hay

You Taught My Heart To Sing










You are a Fountain of Joy


Today, let the joy flow up from your center, from your heart. Let joy begin building within each cell of your body. Feel it all over you, all within you. Know yourself as a great fountain of joy.


Let the joy bubble up from the pool of peace and truth that lies within you. Go down deep into the peace, until you are completely peace, all peace, and you will find there is also joy, joy bubbling up and into you, invigorating the peace with the deep joy of just being alive.


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Let this joy bubble up through your heart to pick up all the love that flows there. And then, let it bubble up into your throat, so that you feel you cannot help but speak joy all day long. And then up into your mind, so that your mind clears and the only thoughts that come are of joy.

Now, up and up and up through the crown of your head, a great gushing of joy.


Yes, yes, you are a fountain of joy, bubbling up from the deep center of your being, a fountain of joy and love and delight. This is who you are.

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Announce it to the world.

Announce it over and over.

Let it ring through and out.

Resonate it in your mind.

Speak it - and be it.

Shine out with it.



Be a fountain overflowing so high, it splashes on everyone whose paths you encounter. Joy, love and light pouring from you, brightening each person who touches your life today.



Yes, this is who and what you are at any moment you simply allow yourself to be. This is you, a fountain of joy.



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A mass

Of impulses,

Processes,

Patterns,

Relation-ships ~

More or less

Harmonious.


More so, with life here.

Or - less, nearer death.

Or vice-versa.

In each ~ even there

Is life's harmony ~

The fountain of life,

The fountain of joy

Pervades

Throughout it all.


______© Nellieanna H. Hay

I wrote "The Fountain of Joy" soon after I joined Hubpages over two years ago, ~ thinking it might become a hub. It got filed away and misplaced during a computer breakdown, but apparently was restored with my external back up. When I ran across it this morning, I felt that its time has come! I hope you enjoy it as much as I've enjoyed making it into this hub to share with you!


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      Jim Higgins 4 years ago from Eugene, Oregon

      You are such a positive, outgoing and giving writer on HP that you lift the spirits of all who read you. Up and all but funny!

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      Nellieanna Hay 4 years ago from TEXAS

      Jim! - How good to see you here on this Saturday evening, my first visitor to this new hub. My creativity has been bottled up, doing other things, - I think you understand what those are! :-) That's all running so smoothly, it's just fun to see it happen!

      So writing my own genre is carrying me along on its stream! I was really delighted to come across this material, which was just written in straight narrative form, but had such a wonderful message and was so poetic in its soul - that - - well, here you see what happened!

      Thank you!

      (All my latest videos are being a bit flakey - maybe the weekend load. . . I think I'll reboot and see if it helps. - They play major roles in these hubs & leave huge white gaps when missing!)

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      Jim Higgins 4 years ago from Eugene, Oregon

      I can't seem to see videos on any hub currently for some reason.

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      Nellieanna Hay 4 years ago from TEXAS

      Hm - weird. Well, after I rebooted the one here appeared. Go figure! Can you see it? - it's near the top of the page.

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      Mark G Weller 4 years ago from Lake Charles, LA.

      These are very beautiful words Nellieanna, I am glad you recovered this piece!

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      empire mike 4 years ago from empire, colorado

      i like bubbles!

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      Nellieanna Hay 4 years ago from TEXAS

      Thank you,, MarK! I was pleased to recover them, too! No telling what-all I could find here. It's like my attic, full of nearly forgotten memorabilia! Then there are all those other computers I've hung onto!. . . ;-) I so appreciate your kind words!

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      Nellieanna Hay 4 years ago from TEXAS

      Ah, my Michael! Me too, me too! I'm very glad to see you! Hugs!

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      Christopher Antony Meade 4 years ago from Gillingham Kent. United Kingdom

      All that joy, bubbling out of you, must be making a serious contribution to climate change. There are hungry polar bears swimming through the warming seas of the Arctic, wondering where their next meal is coming from. This is all due to your effervescent self Nellieanna. Shame on you.

      Seriously though, thanks for another lovely hub. Voted up.

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      Pamela Oglesby 4 years ago from United States

      This is a wonderful topic for early Sunday morning. i loved the poem and the pictures that accompanied your beautiful words. Up and awesome as usual.

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      De Greek 4 years ago from UK

      If you should go

      To the ends of earth

      My heart will follow.

      And if I go

      I'll take you

      In my heart.

      Now how is it possible for any man worth the name not to fall in love with you? ;-)

      WHERE IS THAT BOOK OF POETRY? !!!

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      Nellieanna Hay 4 years ago from TEXAS

      Oh, Christopher! haha. Well this isn't the thermodynamic kind of bubbling and warmth, though. - - Is it? Old Faithful does that well enough! ;-) hehe Thank you for the lovely sort-of left-handed compliment! Hugs.

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      Nellieanna Hay 4 years ago from TEXAS

      Pamela - I'm delighted that you visited and enjoyed it! It's been pleasant on my Sunday morning too - - especially knowing you enjoyed too! Thank you for sharing that!

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      Nellieanna Hay 4 years ago from TEXAS

      Dimitris - what a beloved sweet tease you are. Leaves me to contemplate . . . even if it's just all about a book of poetry. . . ;-)

      I appreciate your unvarying encouragement, my dear - ever since my very first day on Hubpages!

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      De Greek 4 years ago from UK

      I have shown your poem to Natalie and she says that for someone as sweet as you, she will make an exception and she will allow me to become a bigamist ;-) So how about it? ;-))))

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      Nellieanna Hay 4 years ago from TEXAS

      Give that lovely lady a hug for me! I must mention that IF I should decide to have a husband, I'm GREEDY! - He must be mine all mine! (I'm not really looking for one BTW. BTDT!) Know that - of all the bigamy deals I've been offered, - this is the absolutely BESTEST! Kisses to you both!

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      neeleshkulkarni 4 years ago from new delhi

      I see De Greek beat me to it this time Nellie,but i do not seek bigamy,just the occasional chance to be with you, particularly when you think up these gems.

      Marrying you would be monopolizing you whereas you belong to the whole world.The beauty of your thoughts cannot be fettered.

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      Nellieanna Hay 4 years ago from TEXAS

      Neelesh! A man who understands me!

      Thank you, dear friend, for such elegant praise!

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      IntegrityYes 4 years ago

      I definitely understand you too.

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      Jaggedfrost 4 years ago

      Shall we have joy

      if cause is not at hand

      if hands are not soiled

      with the work of the Man

      if care and toil

      are not on the mind

      seeking to bring the lost

      the wandered to find

      are not these things cause for joy

      and if such were your listeners only

      then I very much agree with you

      otherwise

      the rest have much cause

      to worry.

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      traslochimilano 4 years ago from USA

      Beautiful hub

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      Augustine A Zavala 4 years ago from Texas

      I'm always taken to a different realm when I read your poetry. I feel peace, joy, and sometimes melancholy. You always know how to tap into my inner self. Lovely, lovely piece...

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      De Greek 4 years ago from UK

      Being the ignoramus that I am, I had to Google BTDT and discovered that it means "Been There Done That". So you have bigamist experience then?....:-)))

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      Leni Sands 4 years ago from UK

      I just love reading your hubs - they are so uplifting...shared just about everywhere...

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      Sunnie Day 4 years ago

      Hello my dear Nellieanna, Have missed you so! Thank you for a beautiful poem..I love fountains, water falls, and slow flowing streams...I think by gazing on them, it slows the inner turmoil, and makes us stop to ponder...

      Love and hugs,

      Sunnie

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      Nellieanna Hay 4 years ago from TEXAS

      Aw, Integrity - thank you - that's sweet. However, Neelesh and I have been cyber friends quite awhile, enough to know each other to the extent sensitivity is present, - as it obviously is in his case. So - - It wasn't just a first impression, though as a first impression, yours seems lovely too; and, after all -it describes YOUR impression rather than what is so about me. ;-)

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      Nellieanna Hay 4 years ago from TEXAS

      JK - What a thinking poem/reply - - what else from thou?

      You express your perspective so well! Notice that my writ doesn't recommend any specific cause of joy. Indeed, more recommendation for bringing an inner joyousness to whatever one is into or doing externally, as well as internally. So your 'cause at hand' can fit.

      It does not recommend a 'no worry' attitude, where worry is warranted. (notice the choice of music is "Rainy Days Mondays". Life requires balance and generously provides it!! It does recommend BEING joy and letting the joy BE, whatever the external situations needing worry may be. Understanding those worry situations in life's realities, both understanding and joy can be brought to bear to the extent of their effectivity,- mostly depending on what is in the other persons involved.

      Thank you for your perspective as always! It adds so much.

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      Nellieanna Hay 4 years ago from TEXAS

      traslochimilano - I'm fascinated by your nickname. It conjures visions of Scottish-Italian origins. :-)

      I peeked at your hubsite to see who you are, and now I'm hooked! So knowledgeable - beyond my ken - but I like to disprove that old dogs CAN learn new tricks! I'm an amateur techie, so it's interesting to me!!

      Thank you for visiting my hub and leaving the beautiful comment!

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      Nellieanna Hay 4 years ago from TEXAS

      Augustine, my august friend! You know it does my heart good to hear that my poetry and stuff bring feelings of gentle relaxation to you.

      Yes, there may be moments of melancholy; - all honest feelings include such 'negatives'. Again, - it's inevitable to have them, but it's how one treats them which determines how damaging they are during their stay. To me, it's balancing them with equally felt brighter feelings, and timing; ie: allowing them to BE when they arise and while they're honestly being experienced and released,- rather than being clung to after-the-fact, - remembered & rehashed, and kept alive or pushed into new forms about which to fret. The sneaky thing about that is there never comes a stopping place when they're prolonged, as there was when the feeling first came & was being felt while experienced and then released when it was over.

      I'm delighted to tap into your inner self! Lovely place to dwell a bit. Hugs

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      Nellieanna Hay 4 years ago from TEXAS

      DARLING! DARLING! Dimitris, love! "In context" is a basic principle I'm sure you understand, so let's review: My comment:

      "if I should decide to have a husband, I'm GREEDY! - He must be mine all mine! (I'm not really looking for one BTW. BTDT!)".

      Do you see or detect ANY PLURALITY in any of that? One sees "a husband" as the topic I'm discussing, who is referred to as: "He", (a singular pronoun) and in "looking for one" - not two or more.

      To reply to your question, no, NO bigamy in my history. I know only of one at a time - and those, LONG exclusive times! :-) hehehe.

      Nice try - and I do love to frolic with you. You're fun! Rascal! Hugs.

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      Nellieanna Hay 4 years ago from TEXAS

      Leni - Thank you! wow ! That's high praise! I'm always so very pleased to see YOU. Hugs.

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      Nellieanna Hay 4 years ago from TEXAS

      Sunnie- aw. Yes, fountains and flowing streams are magical. We used to have one of those little mantel waterfalls (recycling water over a series of little rock ledges) and George loved to sit near it and muse.

      Growing up in my pre-/early- teens in San Angelo, we lived near one of the city's many parks. Ours had a lovely sunken garden with a waterfall at one end, flowing into a large fishpond with a Japanese type bridge over its further end, where the water went into a walled canal which meandered throughout the park. I LOVED to play there!

      I'd seen what is like a waterfall over lake dams but I saw my first real waterfalls on a delightful drive through New England in the fall during the 70s. I was startled and delighted to just 'come upon' a waterfall in a ledge along the country road! Talk about magic!!

      Well, dear Sunnie, I've not been away! Just writing my Chapter 1 of The Journey and doing what I could/can to help with the other 15 Chapters, mostly being sure they're actively linked, or any other stuff with which I could help! Hope you'll give them a peek! It was Alan's (arb's) inspiration and he's been focused on it too. A unique 'Look at Aging' from 16 different perspectives of ages from the youngest of the seniors (50s) to the eldest in our bunch - me, @ 80. Every chapter provides glimpses of all 16 perspectives, each of us independently answering a different question by that one of the 16 who writes that Chapter, who bring their other comments, poetry, graphics, etc. It truly is an experience, both to write and to read!

      I'm a reluctant joiner or collaborator but this one surpasses my highest hopes! I can honestly promise a good read, each Chapter building on the basic premise to fill it out more and more as it progresses through them!

      I'm also delighted to have a chance to catch my breath and write some of my own stuff (Alan says the same thing about his!) So I'm on a writing spree! Thank you so much for visiting!!

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      Christopher Price 4 years ago from Vermont, USA

      I seem to be late to the party, but fortunately there seems to be plenty of Bubbly to go 'round.

      No wonder I always feel a bit heady in your presence.

      Hugs, Dear Nellianna.

      CP

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      Sunnie Day 4 years ago

      How wonderful Nellieanna, I would love to read this book. Is it on hubs or somewhere I can take a look..your blog? It sounds like such a wonderful collaboration. Wishing you the very bet on this beautiful journey.

      Love,

      Sunnie

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      Nellieanna Hay 4 years ago from TEXAS

      Absolutely plenty, Christopher! The bubbly, indeed! Whoo-hoo!

      How sweet .- "Heady" is - er - 'high' praise! hehe. Thank you for coming by!

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      Nellieanna Hay 4 years ago from TEXAS

      Sunnie - it is on hubs, but not all in one place. "The Journey - Chapter 1" is right here on my HP site and links to another's page - and- another's - and so forth - . Go to my profile and you'll see both the "Latest Hubs" link to my first Chapter, and a Table of Contents to the 10 Chapter so far published, including mine.

      Today Chapter 10 was published. There will be another tomorrow - and each day of this week till Friday, then the final two Chapters, 15 and 16 on Monday and Tuesday of next week. Each is clearly linked (both directions) so you can progress through at your own pace, like reading a book. You'll see. . .

      It is an amazing collaboration! I feel like I know those of the 16 I knew before better than ever; and those I hardly knew, I now know very well, too. The mutual generosity among everyone has been something to behold!

      Thank you for following up and asking more!

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      arb 4 years ago from oregon

      Hello butterfly! Such a sweet exhortation, completely in the nature of one who sees the world as a garden in need of celebration. It does a body good, not to mention our burdened spirit.

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      Nellieanna Hay 4 years ago from TEXAS

      In such case, my work is not in vain! So glad to see you back from your getaway! Sounds like your burdened spirit needs some relieving!

      Welcome back and thank you for the visit and lovely comments!

      (The world is not always a garden, nor a celebration. Reason enough to stir some up and bring some on!) :-)

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      mckbirdbks 4 years ago from Emerald Wells, Just off the crossroads,Texas

      "Rainy Days and Mondays", and a message "You are a Fountain of Joy". What a nice stroll through a well maintained garden of hope and quiet treasures.

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      Nellieanna Hay 4 years ago from TEXAS

      Thank you, Mike. I think you 'get it'! Hugs.

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      Vincent Moore 4 years ago

      Not only does my cup runneth over with joy, but when I came to this read Bubbles began to permeate all around me and I felt so uplifted and intoxicated by your words as always my sweet poet:-)) Knowing you have found the fountain of joy it compliments the fountain of youth you've also found.

      You've stirred up my joy, therefore I am going to open a bottle of Dom and let it breath so the bubbles will tickle my fancy as I sip from my fine crystal goblet and think of you my dear. Cheers and big hugs from me to you.

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      Nellieanna Hay 4 years ago from TEXAS

      Well, no Dom for me - I can't possibly drink a whole bottle of bubbly - but I'm having a pleasant goblet of Riesling, which is rather sparkly. I'm enjoying it. Toast?

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      DREAM ON 4 years ago

      Nellieanna Your hubs are so wonderful.You have a such profound knowledge to share with every one.I haven't been around in years wiping away my tears.I have listened to your words so many moons ago.You might not remember but I do... to stay focused and things will work themself out.I left the part out about all the hard work and endless days of frustration and constant battles with life little things.Well I can still get lost in many worlds but this time I can visit them one at a time.You are very dear to my heart.You are like a sweet aunt and a grandmother who has an eye on everything.I am blessed to read your work.If you get time GypsyRose Lee is another one of my favorite hubbers I know you will enjoy.She has a style I have never seen before. I can talk on and on but this day has to move along and with it all the chores a man has to do.God bless and love always.Did I say what a teriffic hub rated up and awesome!

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      Nellieanna Hay 4 years ago from TEXAS

      Dear Dream On - I'm always thrilled to see you've visiting my hubs. I communicate so much of my personal perspective about life -- which benefits me and may even benefit others -- in my poetry and other writings. So it pleases me when others stop & read & let me know they did. I guess I am a kind of cyber aunt or grandmother. :-)Thank you!

      I do greatly believe that staying focused (the eye on the ball) is helpful in resolving the challenges which always accompany many of our activities as we wend our way through life's constant surprises. Anyone who expects life to be 'clear sailing' and secure is delusional! To be LIFE - to be a living process, it HAS to change constantly which means, as Robert Burns said:

      The best laid schemes o' Mice an' Men,

      Gang aft agley,

      An' lea'e us nought but grief an' pain,

      For promis'd joy!

      Robert Burns, To a Mouse (Poem, November, 1785); Scottish national poet (1759 - 1796)  

      Translates: (The best laid schemes of Mice and Men often go awry, And leave us nothing but grief and pain, For promised joy!)

      The way to handle that is to be aware it will happen and when it does, to embrace it and make the best of it. Realizing that it is LIFE being LIFE- which is never static or stagnant but is always on the move. When that stops, - life stops. So it's a good idea to embrace the notion that things are going to change and may not always change the way we'd planned!

      But nothing wrong at all with being focused & paying attention to what one is actually doing to set it up the way it actually goes. Wishing doesn't make it so. But doing appropriate things gives it direction - as does doing inappropriate things, which happens when we're not really paying attention. Then, we must relax and trust that it's a beneficent life which favors the best for us! If, sometimes, the best for us is a lesson - - well -- we get that! :-)

      Often it turns out that the 'surprises' open doors we didn't even know were there and our plans would've missed them! And other times, the surprises are to teach us, sometimes because we set ourselves up for them and weren't aware of it! Being human, we do that sometimes.

      One of my hubs, FERTILE FLUX, is about just these things from my own personal experience. That was what I learned to call those times when things seem so murky and out of focus, but which always seemed to be opening doors I wouldn't have seen otherwise. When I caught on to that, it became much simpler to endure and survive.

      I've always enjoyed reading your hubs, too - you're so honest and a real optimist at heart, which is always refreshing. I think we have a lot in common.

      I've 'met' Gypsy Rose Lee - and she is a very lovely person, though I am not well acquainted with her yet! Thank you for mentioning her! And thank you for visiting and leaving such a lovely comment!

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      LaThing 4 years ago from From a World Within, USA

      Dear Nellieanna, this is such an inspirational and uplifting piece! Wonderful, flowing words, that seem to reach right within you and bubble up with those bubbles of Joy! Beautiful, my friend!

      Hugs to you.....

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      Nellieanna Hay 4 years ago from TEXAS

      Thank you so much, Lizzie! I'm glad you visited here and brought me back to it. It gives me a lift too!

      Big hugs, and have a good Thanksgiving!

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      Jaggedfrost 4 years ago

      from the shores of my turbulence

      thy words trusted true

      though I be me

      unchanging, unmovable,

      I was yet unsatisfied

      having much care

      and few sights of the vista

      my climb should provide

      Yet having climbed higher still

      thy words no longer haunt

      for thy words

      travel even to where I be

      Like those before

      who came my way

      one has to hold on

      to these things of day

      for the nights ahead

      when this light grows dim

      ere it go out

      and find one's self

      in a state most grim

      Travel some more

      the sun comes up again

      One could say

      stand still and it happens the same.

      but if one stands still

      not traveling in the night.

      one is limited

      slowed down

      and ashamed in the light.

      it seems some paths

      and ways forward

      are best seen in the night

      where the moon

      gives a wisdom all her own

      The pain of the bumps

      darkness brings

      makes for calluses most precious

      lessons learned

      for nimble travel home.

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      Nellieanna Hay 4 years ago from TEXAS

      Hello, my friend. I've had you on my mind lately, JF! The new Profile setup brings older hubs to light and when I was here yesterday (and lately returning to other older comment threads being tickled) I refreshed our exchanges on them. We have a history, don't we? It's very valuable.

      I did then and still do feel empathy and affection for you. I'm aware of the weight of your commitment to your principles and your destiny, and that they can & do hang heavy at times. Of course, being you, you can't and won't desert them for your own comfort, but stick to it and ferret out the 'most precious lessons learned'. Only you can know the value of those lessons, but my experience shows that those learned with anguish are most completely internalized and made available for future application.

      I'm pleased to see you. I sense the 'turbulence' which you acknowledge, being calmed. My first impulse is simply to hug you. So consider yourself hugged!

      The flow of days and nights is good. 'Calluses' notwithstanding, the 'nimble travel home' is surely worth the trip for one's own reasons for boarding the train, regardless of related results! HUGS!!

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      Jaggedfrost 4 years ago

      Thank you, I have missed you too. I will check out your updates. Your bewilderment at my aims and and reasons for the lessons I insist on slightly stings.

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      Nellieanna Hay 4 years ago from TEXAS

      Well, IF I were bewildered, it would be more likely to gratify than to sting, I'm thinking. Think of the discussion that it would require!

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      Nellieanna Hay 4 years ago from TEXAS

      :-) (-:

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      Jaggedfrost 4 years ago

      Think long and hard. I am ready when you are.

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      Nellieanna Hay 4 years ago from TEXAS

      I'm much less bewildered than you may realize. ;-)

      We'll see. (*(*(*(JF)*)*)*) hugs.

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      Jaggedfrost 4 years ago

      That makes me terribly curious as to what conclusions you have tumbled to that I am not aware of or of which you haven't already alluded to.

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      Nellieanna Hay 4 years ago from TEXAS

      Time and ownership of my impressions has lent them a perspective which suits me but may or may not suit you. Whenever one person takes into him or herself impressions of another person, they become internalized if they 'stick' and become part of the recipient's own subjective reality, which is accessible to him /her - but may seem foreign to the originator. But you're interesting!

      Your impression that I am/was 'bewildered' is an illustration of the principle. I am not bewildered, but because you know what you want me to know & understand and perhaps don't see it reflected as you know it, - it must be because 'she's bewildered'. NO ONE else can or will EVER perceive any of us as we really ARE. Lots of folks don't even perceive themselves. I'm thankful this day that I do perceive me quite well.

      Too bad there aren't 'pictures' of what each of us sees as 'so' to compare. But I'm more interested NOW in where you've proceeded from THEN. I can't promise it will fit or suit any better than my earlier impressions. Nor can I define how I see you because I'm well aware of my own filtering the residue.

      Hugs and my wishes for YOU to have the best and most fulfilling Thanksgiving, - if possible with all the clamor about Black Friday, Black Thursday and on and on.

      I miss when Thanksgiving came and was itself, which one got into exclusively at the time. Christmas was way off and one began slowly to get into that spirit.

      All this clamor makes me want less to even 'buy' presents. In fact - I never got my things I'd accumulated for my distant family wrapped and mailed LAST YEAR. They're still on my guest room bed and surroundings, along with some of the wrapping paraphernalia. Unfortunately some involved calendar information so they won't apply this year, but basically - if I can bring myself to go on and wrap and send (allowing for the baby who's a year older and the baby due in 14 days!) perhaps I won't be such a scrooge in 2012. I love to make my gifts, but haven't gotten that done in awhile. Things change.

      My George & I would give each other only one or two things (plus our stockings with little fun things) & make unwrapping last all day and a bottle of sherry! We had to guess the contents before we could open the packages! haha!

      At the ranch once, we hadn't even gotten to town to get any presents, so we just wrote down what we'd have given and even made that last all day, having to guess them.

      Another time out there in the mid 1990s, I handmade his gift a decorative mat of woven Beaked Yucca leaves from my ranch. It's pictured on one of my webpages:

      http://nellieanna.com/4conservatory.html

      It's still lovely, though it's lost some of the color. The thorns were a challenge when I was tying the woof and warp with tiny slivers of the yucca leaves themselves. And we were almost always together, so it was a challenge to work on it when he was outside tending to the well or the water for the RV, - which we lived in before we built the cabin ourselves.

      Ah - life is good. I'm thankful for it. I'm going out for Thanksgiving dinner with some old friends. He was one of George's compatriots in WWII, both in the Navy, though they met after the war. Poor Norm is very feeble. I'll drive and we'll take his wheelchair. Their daughter will go with us to help with him. My stepson invited me to go with them, but I'd already accepted this invitation. I feel I'm 'paying forward' somewhat. She needs grown-up, lucid conversation, and so she & I 'hang out' on occasion, and when he goes too - which is rarely now - she REALLY needs me along. Other times, their daughter babysits him at home while we go to a movie or the Dallas Museum of Art for a lovely day out.

      So that's my Thanksgiving plan. Been plotting the drive route - its way on the other side of Dallas where we found a restaurant serving Thanksgiving - or even open today! All the stores are open though. ugh.

      So I need to prepare myself with last minute getting ready before I go pick up their daughter and then them and head off on the trip.

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      Jaggedfrost 4 years ago

      For all my assumptions, if we shall call them that, allowing for the fact that this language is woefully short of the word necessary to explain myself and I get the feeling that that opportunity is not in my hands, you fascinate me too. Believe it or not, that had I known all the facts surrounding the various invites you received,, I find that your choice is just in line with how I feel you think. I like that thought even if I haven't the words that would simply describe you though I have tried with indifferent success.

      You are a good woman, maybe one of the best of my acquaintance. Your education has made you charitable and sensible. You do what makes you happy for your own reasons. What makes you happy is the best interest of those around you. You are young at heart. I may have speculated beyond this mark but these things I maintain to having always thought about you.

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      Nellieanna Hay 4 years ago from TEXAS

      What a generous comment, JF! And a surprise. I do appreciate your perceiving my motives in the choice of my Thanksgiving invitation, not that I wouldn't go just to enjoy it, but it did feel like doing something nice for them, too. Being with Norm in public is a bit of a strain, both from the perspective of his physical limits but also of his behavioral oddities, such as trying to unwrap and eat the butter patties and to take food and beverages of others at the table, among others. Susie, their daughter, is very good with him, though.

      No precise words are necessary to convey a kind perception of one person by another. I very much appreciate yours of me! Any assumptions or inaccuracies are to be expected when one person attempts to perceive, much less to describe another; but they pale in the glow of the pervading generosity! Thank you!

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      Jaggedfrost 4 years ago

      While you make me blush, unfortunately that leaves me with little to say in response and is an effective conversation stopper.

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      Nellieanna Hay 4 years ago from TEXAS

      I'll welcome you if and when your impulse to engage in mutual conversation reemerges.

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      Jaggedfrost 4 years ago

      You shall never find me unwilling though rreciprocity becomes a concern as your faithful have consumed this subject quite nicely.

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      Nellieanna Hay 4 years ago from TEXAS

      Dear JF - However you feel about it and view it is acceptable for you by me. I can't explain or fix a reality of it which isn't mine. I can only surmise from your words that there may be a feeling that something's missing between us which you need; and/or that there is too much happening in my life for our dialog to progress as hoped; though in examining our conversation thread here for the past week, it's rather abundantly progressed daily & smoothly in a reciprocal manner. Doesn't mean it's satisfactory to you, though.

      Ever since I've been online -- with a 16th anniversary coming up -- I've noticed that response levels to my input online rises and falls like the tides, -- that 'popularity' or 'demand for me' comes and goes like the seasons. I know that 'my faithful' have other priorities in their lives which can and do at times outweigh their loyalty to me. I've accepted all of it as it is at any given moment, without mourning the famines or craving & getting caught up & gorging on the feasts. In other words, I do not raise a ruckus over it, one way or the other - - ever.

      It is spontaneity which activates my own responses, not duty. Individuals interest me, not crowds. It is quality I value, not quantity, & this applies in my relationships both online and off. People's willingness to interact with me is the prize, not their conformity or duty to being my friend.

      I can't promise to meet 'tit with tat' any more than anyone else can or does. In fact some of my most treasured cyber friends may take lengthy (even as long as a year) unexplained sabbaticals to do whatever they need to do in their 'real lives' - or for whatever other reasons they may have which outweigh being active online, including responding to my comments and interacting as we may do. If we really relate at all, I'm not owed an explanation or apology; and certainly if we don't relate much, none is needed.

      I simply accept it without dismay or distress, and welcome the friends when and if they return and resume our relationship. I've found that people who want to keep me in their lives do return and resume; so that there we'll be, talking as if there'd been no interruption. If explanation is offered, it's accepted without question; if not, it won't be requested. In cases of friends with whom I have a strong rapport & kinship, I've usually sensed whatever issues had dominating their lives, anyway.

      I don't 'chase after' anyone who has chosen to be elsewhere than around me. I'f I've chosen to be elsewhere than with them, it's mine to make 'the moves' if conditions have resolved and theirs to accept or not.

      As it is, I've online friends from 16 years ago who have come and gone in and out of my cyber life - and vice versa - and we simply feel the closeness which drew us together in the first place when we're in contact.

      My faith that "There is no problem" covers a lot of territory, CF.

      I'm not suggesting my attitude for you or anyone else but, it provides fortitude and serenity which I value - and spares me from high blood pressure and questionable faith. :-)

      I consider you a valuable friend.

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      Jaggedfrost 4 years ago

      I consider you a valuable friend. I have not intention of having you chase after me. I appreciate your art. I am n0t asking you to meet me tit for tat in these conversations here, word for word, yet I would have your opinion on some of my more recent posts on my site.

      I am not really great at asking for things, especially here, where I get rather annoyed at people who expect that just because they make themselves my fan that I need to return it as though it was some great favor.

      I do visit people who make an impact on my site or follow me. I can't help being curious, especially if their comment makes me wonder at their nature. A body of work is very telling.

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