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He Sees

Updated on April 1, 2014
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All of Me

4/1/2014

I had given up on being seen and understood ages ago. The desire was never strong enough to cause sadness at its loss. It didn't create a void in me. It didn't become an unfulfilled wish. I just came to accept that I was different and couldn't be fully understood by those around me. I wasn't designed to care about the same things as so many and I was not made to be lost in the meaningless. Still, I was beyond blessed to have been accepted, embraced, and loved without the need for understanding. It ended up being the biggest gift I had ever been given save for my daughter. It taught me the most important thing I would ever learn. Understanding is not a requirement of acceptance.

Now, I am rendered completely still by the eyes that can look straight thru me. These eyes see me as amazing and exciting when I have come to see myself as simple and different. My head spins and my words fail me as I fill with gratitude to be seen when I didn't expect it would ever happen. I almost doubt that it is possible. The clearest I have been seen by the outside world is by those that read my words and feel my spirit but never see me in the flesh. How could these eyes see all of me and be filled with so much love? I try to doubt but it is pointless because the spirit tells me that I am seen. Everything hidden under this flawed flesh is seen. I am seen as beautiful despite the scars. Its seems like the first time my core is able to dance in vulnerability under the caring arms of one filled with love. I am not trying to please. There is no best foot forward, no facade and still these eyes see me as amazing. There is no desire to change me, to shift my views, or to 'improve' me. There is a want to be as close as possible, so much so that skin gets in the way and all I can do in the face of this grand gesture is smile and breathe deeply as my words fail me and my heart swells.

The whispered words 'the rest of the world fades away when I have you in my arms' float thru my mind as I realize that another has come into the world that has only ever existed within me and for my daughter. The is no fear of drowning in my depths. There is no fear of my dark places. Then the truth hits hard... do I know how to be seen? How do you keep someone happy that you are making happy with out effort or intention? A question I never asked myself before. The answer for me will have to remain the same... don't try. The flow continues and I embrace the loving gaze that burns straight thru me for as long as I am to have it. I am seen. I am opened and out pouring. I have no idea of the depths this current has for me and still there is no fear of drowning. Who I am in flesh and who I am in spirit exist at the same time in the gaze of another and I am amazed.


Thank you for the song!

© 2014 Lissette

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    • Moms-Secret profile imageAUTHOR

      Lissette 

      3 years ago from Central Florida

      Powerful compliment, strikes thru the heart. Thank you for reading and feeling the works Motherofnations. I am happy to hear how you came to find me. FaithReaper's kindness to me was amazing. I came to know of her and her page only after her kind deed to me and still it bears fruit. So grateful.

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      Mothers of Nations 

      3 years ago

      You bring me to tears... I can't explain here, but my goodness you are one of the most wonderful writers I have ever come across and believe me I read a lot... You words affect me in a way that very little have... maybe that's why I have so quickly become a fan - I understand what I read, I feel it, I've known it, I know it... I'm so grateful to have found your hubpage (through FaithReaper)... I pray for your prosperity and an endless abundance of blessings for you and your little one, in Jesus' name... God bless you...

    • Moms-Secret profile imageAUTHOR

      Lissette 

      4 years ago from Central Florida

      Thank you Gypsy. Lovely to see you.

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      Lissette 

      4 years ago from Central Florida

      Very nice to see you here American Choices. I am happy to hear that you enjoyed it. Your words are so kind to me, I really appreciate them. They make me smile. The song was a gift. I was so happy to hear it. I had thought that the time of songs being able to stand the test of time had passed.

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      Gypsy Rose Lee 

      4 years ago from Riga, Latvia

      Lovely message.

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      American_Choices 

      4 years ago from USA

      Wow! Truly beautiful! What wisdom you have conveyed. I hung to every word and could relate. I wanted so long for a true love - what a great blessing. Thank you for sharing. And what a fantastic song!

    • Moms-Secret profile imageAUTHOR

      Lissette 

      4 years ago from Central Florida

      So nice to see you Audrey. Thank you for the read, visit, and the great compliments.

    • Moms-Secret profile imageAUTHOR

      Lissette 

      4 years ago from Central Florida

      Tireless, even if it is only a portion that is seen it is a blessing I never expected to see in my lifetime by anyone other than my daughter.

    • Moms-Secret profile imageAUTHOR

      Lissette 

      4 years ago from Central Florida

      Wow, Jodah! That is a strong compliment and I am so very grateful. Thank you for viewing me like that and wishing me such great things to wallow in.

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      Lissette 

      4 years ago from Central Florida

      Frank! I have missed you too and your great comments to me. I have to admit, I have so many incomplete pieces that didn't flow out of me and now lay by the wayside. Most of the ones that get published pour out without control, without being edited, or thought of to much.

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      Lissette 

      4 years ago from Central Florida

      Always nice to see you Faith! I feel like I was made to love on others on many levels but having given the stories I have had, I honestly thought that my stories were done and I had seen all that there was to see... and then I was given the gift of being wrong again. Blessings to you.

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      Lissette 

      4 years ago from Central Florida

      That is a beautiful comment Vocalcoach. It brought such a huge smile... that the love in me could be felt by you thru words. Its so humbling and explosively flattering. Thank you for giving me this feeling of fulfillment.

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      Audrey Howitt 

      4 years ago from California

      Such beautiful words and message!

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      Judy Specht 

      4 years ago from California

      Lovely to be seen and known for who you are in truth. Cheers!

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      John Hansen 

      4 years ago from Queensland Australia

      Beautiful words of true unconditional love. Wallow in it, you are amazing, don't believe otherwise. Vote up.

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      Frank Atanacio 

      4 years ago from Shelton

      wow, I miss ur stuff and it's a treat when you publish moms

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      Faith Reaper 

      4 years ago from southern USA

      Beautiful message. Of that unconditional love ...it certainly is as you describe it. Blessings

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      Audrey Hunt 

      4 years ago from Idyllwild Ca.

      Thank you for this message. You have so much love inside of you. This love is both felt and acknowledged by the reader.

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