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Help! I Need Help. Will You Help Me Before It is Too Late?

Updated on June 9, 2020
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I have been writing poetry, fiction and short stories for many years and have completed a book of poems. I also enjoy comedy writing.

Suicidal Love
Suicidal Love

Help! I need help and don’t know what to do.

My soulmate who I have loved all my life and my best friend have deceived me too

Look, can’t you see I am trembling and my mind is not stable

She broke my mind when she told me she was in love with Able.

I couldn’t believe what I had just heard, I smashed my head into a glass window

For the woman I loved for eternity has just let me go

I can’t take it, I just can’t take it anymore

The thought of her being held in his arms, makes suicide sound like a dream come true


I think about it daily, but maybe I am a little scared

The thought of ending my life sounded a little weird

Then as i stepped through the gate there they were holding hands and walking down the street

My eyes began to get hazy, my legs began to get weak

I felt my heart exploded a little bit, but somehow it was still pounding

I clenched my fist so hard my fingernails cut my hand and blood began oozing

I looked at my bleeding self and smiled and went back in

Then broke a glass, slit my wrist and lay at the window still

Now I will be gone, heaven or hell I don’t really care

My heart has been released of the pain, now it can repair.

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© 2020 Clive Williams

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    • emge profile image

      MG Singh emge 

      13 months ago from Singapore

      Beautiful, love can leave a ache

    • clivewilliams profile imageAUTHOR

      Clive Williams 

      13 months ago from Jamaica

      Emily..I am Ok. But your pain made you stronger. Keep loving life and live, Cheers!

    • Shades-of-truth profile image

      Emily Tack 

      13 months ago from USA

      Hello, again, Clive. I have been there, and worse, I assure you. HOPEFULLY, you are still with us, and understand that God is in charge, not you. My heartaches came from the man I was married to, with whom I had eight children. I thought I was going to die - BUT - God rescued me, and has blessed me beyond measure. Please do let us know you are all right, and please look UP and remember - "this, too - shall pass". Love...

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      Venkatachari M 

      13 months ago from Hyderabad, India

      I feel very sad and sorry about your condition. How could anybody do that! But, do not let the suicidal thoughts wreck you. Be brave to face this reality (if real) and take the help of your friends and a doctor also. God may help you with some solution.

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      BRENDA ARLEDGE 

      13 months ago from Washington Court House

      Wow Clive! This piece touches upon the very way one feels when he has been deceived and his heart is broken.

      It feels like you cannot go on.

      I pray this is just words of poetry and not real life. If you ever need to talk just shoot me a message.

      I know how this feels. Please stay safe. Don't fall into the trap of hurting yourself...it does nothing to her.

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      Pamela Oglesby 

      13 months ago from Sunny Florida

      Your heart is broken but I hop you don't commit suicide!

    • FlourishAnyway profile image

      FlourishAnyway 

      13 months ago from USA

      Definitely a painful way to self-destruct

    • bethperry profile image

      Beth Perry 

      13 months ago from Tennesee

      This poem really voices your pain.

      But please do not hurt yourself. No one who hurts you like this deserves to come away with your life, too.

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      Lorna Lamon 

      13 months ago

      I'm here if you need to talk Clive.

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      Lorna Lamon 

      13 months ago

      I'm concerned for your wellbeing Clive - are you ok.

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      Ruby Jean Richert 

      13 months ago from Southern Illinois

      Do you want me to call the police? HEE

    • clivewilliams profile imageAUTHOR

      Clive Williams 

      13 months ago from Jamaica

      Thanks for commenting

      But my life force has drained

      My love of my life, has broken my heart

      And left me in pain.

      But death is my surrender

      It is my glory of days

      Goodbye world, flesh now gone,

      Entering the spiritual phase

    • always exploring profile image

      Ruby Jean Richert 

      13 months ago from Southern Illinois

      Wow, this is deep and full of hurt. I hope it is just poetry and you are not hurting. Your words touched me.

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      Nell Rose 

      13 months ago from England

      Wow! heavy stuff! hope this is only very good writing? I will take it that it is, lol! very deep and meaningful. Great writing!

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