Hidden Thoughts Beckoning to Be Told

 
This is a story of a girl
a very strange little girl
one who doesn't like Mondays
or even Sundays
she found a small little gun
and played with it, for fun
she found her happiness
if only by circumstance
she has only loved once
only once
she broke her heart
and now they are apart
nobody on this earth
should've gave birth
to this troubled girl
this frail little girl
who is so cold
and never bold
one who is broken
no word's to be spoken
to describe her tears
and prescribe her fears
to help her suffering
this bitter souring
why? she asks
must this task
of loving
one so dear
bring her so
much fear?
so she built a wall
in hope to never fall
but she was burned
no matter how much she yearned
for forgiveness

In my shadows of blind fate
I saw you in my reflection
tormenting me with your words, of deceit...
the master of puppets, some would call you
you can't pretend that you understand me
I will peel away all your impurities
straight to your heart
your little black heart
ripping away your layers of hate
no satisfaction...
you fear life
that's why you abuse it
you watch me from behind, stalking me
I grab the gun on the table
one bullet left, I say
all the secrets you hide, are no more
I can't focus, I pull the trigger
I stagger back
my bloody hands are now clean,
of your putrid sufferings...

I came in on a rainy day,
and staggered up the stairs
it's your birthday
I am all alone in the house
where have you gone?
I call out your name, my spouse
and I get no answer...

today is the day to celebrate
a day for joy and hope
we even had plans for a date
but your no where in sight
and you left no note
was it because of our fight?

I heard you come in the door
and stagger up the stairs
so I hid under the floor
I heard you loudly yell
"honey I'm home!"
but I ran for the back stairwell
I said my goodbyes
not with a note
but with my cries

I know to day is my birthday
a time to celebrate
but no time for a date, I daresay
no joy or hope here
no matter what you said
it's all gone, I fear
I know we had a fight
a stupid disagreement
but I need to go, goodnight