I Try Not To Be
I don’t know
I still do not want to know
Me to you
Most dreadful thing to be
Exposing my deficient capabilities
Expectations hard to meet
Future and relationships at stake
Little time to spare
I don't trust
I cannot trust
What more I am flawed about.
Selfish, hot tempered, ill-mannered,
Domineering, nagging, insensitive, unsympathetic,
Unruly, insecure, unforgiving, assuming,
Close-minded, obsessive-compulsive, condescending
Unimaginable episodes could burst
Outrage put off
Repulsive behavior ignored
Avoided humiliation and scarred reputation
Adapted civil and acceptable decorum.
Or plain acting?
I can't identify pervading thoughts.