I Try Not To Be
Anxious
I don’t know
I still do not want to know
Circumventing, gallivanting
Me to you
Most dreadful thing to be
Exposing my deficient capabilities
Expectations hard to meet
Happiness elusive
Success abstract
Satisfaction conditional.
Future and relationships at stake
Little time to spare
I don't trust
I cannot trust
Failure apparent
Sadness constant
Apprehensive
What more I am flawed about.
Selfish, hot tempered, ill-mannered,
Domineering, nagging, insensitive, unsympathetic,
Unruly, insecure, unforgiving, assuming,
Close-minded, obsessive-compulsive, condescending
Unimaginable episodes could burst
Hold
Outrage put off
Repulsive behavior ignored
Evaded confrontation
Avoided humiliation and scarred reputation
Adapted civil and acceptable decorum.
Reacting?
Or plain acting?
I can't identify pervading thoughts.