I MEANT TO LOVE YOU
I MEANT TO LOVE YOU
I meant to love you but I couldn’t
I couldn’t get past the abuse of my childhood
I couldn’t get past how rejected I felt
I couldn’t get past how unloved I felt by my parents
I meant to love you but I couldn’t
I couldn’t get past the bullies who shamed me
I couldn’t get past the lack of friends I had
I couldn’t get past the men who raped me
I meant to love you but I couldn’t
I couldn’t get past my inability to complete my education
I couldn’t get past how worthless I felt
I couldn’t get past people telling me how worthless I was
I meant to love you but I couldn’t
I couldn’t get past the last guy who used and abused me
I couldn’t get past the last guy who lied to me
I couldn’t get past the last guy who stole my heart
I meant to love you but I couldn’t
I had to love my children
I had to protect my children
I had only enough love for my children
I meant to love you but I couldn’t
I couldn’t get past the mistakes that you made
I couldn’t get pass my past
So I couldn’t get to see you
I meant to love you but I couldn’t
I tried but I couldn’t
I was broken
Too broken to love you
I meant to love you but I couldn’t
I really meant to love you
I tried to love you
I thought I could love you, but I couldn’t
I meant to love you but I couldn’t
I couldn’t trust you with my heart
I couldn’t trust you in my life
I just didn’t know how to trust you
I meant to love you but I couldn’t
I couldn’t stop being afraid
I couldn’t stop believing the negatives
I couldn’t stop feeling unworthy of your love
I meant to love you but I couldn’t
I couldn’t get pass all that haunted me
I didn’t know I needed to fix me first
Before I could love you
I meant to love you but I just couldn’t.