I Reach out to You
Am I not good enough
do my tears wash away your sins
Do you find retribution in how
you treat me
Is this your way of showing love
Am I to beg for your understanding
spill my soul
blood staining your hands
my blood
I reach out to you
you turn from me
Am I that repulsive
did I put these marks on myself
The ones unseen
will never heal
I reach out to you
forgiveness they say heals
How deep the wounds
I don't know if forgiveness
will be enough
Look me in the eyes
I can't hide the pain
I reach out to you
you look away
shame registers across your face
not able to embrace my
tortured stare
This isn't love
a sick obsession
is what you've created in your mind
The one person to keep me safe
I reach out to you
you betray my faith
take my trust and twist it up
throwing it away leaving me to fight
for self preservation
and walking out the door
I reach out to you
now you'll reach out for me
I'm no longer there
© 2009 ek ellis