I Hope It Rains

I hope it rains today. This days the stars don't stir the memories I want.. Just not the right memories...

. I don't think my heart has had a constant cycle for a while now, I don't think have been myself for a while either...

You've been gone way too long, I think I'm loosing it.. Or maybe I already lost it and it hasn't hit me just yet.
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I crave you more than the chicken wings you for sure know am addicted to. Sometimes all I need to know is that you are there so that I can be fine.
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I can't even lie, nobody can read my eyes anymore. Like if I wanted to hide, I bet nobody will find me even if I tried making it easy for them to find me, but you would in a matter of moments.. Which sometimes is a bit scary cause sometimes I hide to far that I even forget where am at....
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Just a little sanity, like a long see breeze is all I want, but every time the wind blows the migraines kick in and I can't even enjoy those few seconds...
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I just hope it rains, those nightmares are becoming a series that's way too scary and maybe I'll sleep alright...
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Maybe that thick line between the sides will fade and I'll get to say hello and see that smile once again...