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If I Could Slam Like The Poets

Updated on May 13, 2011
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One of my greatest fears is reading my poetry in public. I've only done it once and even though the odds were great, I did not die, choke or pass out. I've been afraid, however, to do it again. In my book this tells me I must.

I've read a couple poets lately that included recordings in their blogs. This seemed like the next logical step on my road to total discomfort. Just click the link below to hear my recorded read, inspired by the ballsy women who slam.




I thought I could write

For they told me so

I even made them cry

No really them over there

There were tears

A few 


But you

Look at you

All up in our faces

Defending your races

With causes and vengeance

So intense, So Arresting

Political agendas openly protesting

Historical untruths your contesting

I hold my breath ingesting

Your well chosen words

Who like rounds from an automatic weapon

Sting my startled flesh into submission

Angry marching words

And I want to turn away from them

But they are followed by tender stanzas that

Lull me back in and

Lick my wounds


Half the time I’m lost to what

It is your even saying

But its sold in your intensity 

To apologize my propensity

For I’m ashamed at my ignorance

Ashamed for being Caucasian

Ashamed for being middle class

For having a life that was easy

Not perfect

But even stale, lets face it

White bread only gets

So hard


And I am ashamed because I’m a coward

And you are powerful

And you write about apartheid and genocide

And the closest I can get is suicide

You nearly rap about racism and sexism

And I haven’t an ism at all 

For I’m causeless

And you are vigilant

I am a cream puff

A pale pastry with no experience


No rape, or deportation, 

Starvation or molestation

No religious persecution

Not seeking retribution

But perhaps absolution 

For this poetic noise pollution

If I could only find the beat 

Then I could at least 

Be a cream puff

With attitude


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      Randy Behavior 5 years ago from Near the Ocean

      Haahaaa, I am the WORST at memorization. Mine are often too short actually. Thanks for poping in marie.

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      mariefontaine 5 years ago from Indianapolis, Indiana

      Your ink is fire...you better get out there at spit that ish into somebody's mic. You good with memorization? And you do know all about the 3 min time limit thing right? I perform and everybody wants me to slam....but I am wordy with my poetry and don't think I can write a 3 min piece... and I have a serious problem with memorization.

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      Randy Behavior 6 years ago from Near the Ocean

      Hi EM! Nice to see you again. I was watching poetry slams on Youtube. I'll check yours out :)

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      6 years ago from East Coast Canada

      The inspiration?? Donno if you spied my Carnival... would love input if you have any.

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      bbnix 6 years ago from Southern California

      Comfortable?...hell, you own it...and our hearts... ;)

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      Randy Behavior 6 years ago from Near the Ocean

      Thanks Johnny, I'm getting more comfortable with the idea.

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      JohnnyZenigame 6 years ago from ...in the dark corners of the night; where truth sleeps.

      I really like this one. Going on stage can be nerve wracking...but never as bad as refraining from bringing your work to the light.

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      W. B. Isley 6 years ago from Monett, MO

      BB - I'll be there soon, sort-of. Are you saying that it's hell in the cloud? *smirk*

      Randy- Thanks for the vote of confidence.

      Careful, I thought I saw a tail flick out of the corner of my eye.

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      Randy Behavior 6 years ago from Near the Ocean

      As long as your computer has a mic it should be easy beans. Took me just a couple minutes to figure it out so you should accomplish it at the speed of light WB.

      Little Devil? Me? Noooooooo.

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      bbnix 6 years ago from Southern California

      Follow Randy to SoundCloud for sure....she's the cutest little devil and she's taking us straight to hell....and I LIKE IT!!!

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      W. B. Isley 6 years ago from Monett, MO

      I'll be emailing you soon on how you accomplish this wonderful feat of putting the spoken word on someone else's website. Without taking the time to figure it out all over again. I'll be taking the hint soon. :-p

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      Randy Behavior 6 years ago from Near the Ocean

      Thanks nighthag. You should record some too; its all the rage! Well not really but it could be if my hub buddies would join me over there.

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      K.A.E Grove 6 years ago from Australia

      I enjoyed reading your poem, but listening to you read it gave it so much more....sizzle, I thought you did a great job and am now looking forward to reading and listening to more. Well done!

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      W. B. Isley 6 years ago from Monett, MO

      I've actually been practicing reading out loud to my wife for awhile now. When we go on trips, she drives and I provide the entertainment by reading books and such. A lot of what I write, I read to her to get her opinion before it gets published. I'll check out this sound cloud thing.

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      bbnix 6 years ago from Southern California

      working on my next...this shit's tough, but I do love it and Randy's knocking em out of the park...

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      Randy Behavior 6 years ago from Near the Ocean

      It'd be fun to have some of my HP friends over on Sound Cloud. BBnix did one!

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      W. B. Isley 6 years ago from Monett, MO

      You definitely have started me thinking about the audio thing for sure. I'm wondering if it would be worth my time to put some of my stuff into audio?

      Have fun.

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      Randy Behavior 6 years ago from Near the Ocean

      Oh Genna what a dear comment, thank you. I played this for my girlfriend yesterday. She lit up and exclaimed awesome! I just cocked my head sideways like a confused dog, "really?"

      You should do a few of yours Genna.... tying to start a trend here :)

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      Genna East 6 years ago from Massachusetts, USA

      Excellent poem, Randy! Humorous, witty, and brilliant. Your reading truly gave the words verve and “being.” Well done.

      “White bread only gets so hard." Just a one of the jewels found here.

      Cream puff? No way!! This made me think about so many bitter voices pushing the wind…not so with you. This is one of the best poems I have ever read, or listened to. Up and awesome.

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      W. B. Isley 6 years ago from Monett, MO

      Evening RB, that is an interesting use of technology. I personally think there is a point at which technology is capable of ruining any endeavor. The ten years of the computer nerd thing has me convinced of this.

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      Randy Behavior 6 years ago from Near the Ocean

      Morning WB! I've even seen some poets, not hubpages, who do little videos for their poems. They use still shots and music and then voice over. At some point I think technology ruins poetry... not sure where that point is yet though.

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      W. B. Isley 6 years ago from Monett, MO

      It was a wonderful experience, actually getting to hear the way the artist intends the poem to be heard. You have a great voice. I will check out the others as I have time.

      Thanks for the idea. I suppose it could be useful when I start writing more poetry to try this idea too. I also wonder if it could be useful to record some of my other writings as well. Hmmmm. (The wheels start turning in the brain, and the sound of creaking is heard in the room.)

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      Randy Behavior 6 years ago from Near the Ocean

      Thanks for the comment Ayala :)

      I am glad you liked the recorded read Poetic Fool. This was my first, but I'm up to 15 recorded now.

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      Poetic Fool 6 years ago

      Randy, the reading makes all the difference because it gets the intended emphasis and meter. Lovely job. You should be encouraged to record more.

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      ayala 6 years ago

      Awesome !

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      Randy Behavior 6 years ago from Near the Ocean

      Yea I've been listening to yours too Claudia. It kinda helps to "know" the poet I think.

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      Claudia Schönfeld 6 years ago

      so you haven't an ism at all..? smiles

      really enjoyed the poem and the read randy. i think it's great to hear how the poet would speak his/her own words - it adds so much. i just started to experiment with recordings (and the gate was high for me because of my german accent...) but i thought well...let's jump and see if i can swim..and yes - didn't drown so far...

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      Randy Behavior 6 years ago from Near the Ocean

      Hi Shashi, thank you for the comment.

      Good Morning Alive Always. Yea I suppose we are. Thanks for coming by for a read.

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      ALIVE aLways 6 years ago

      It was truly awesome, we often criticize ourselves, I see you are getting good of it :-)

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      Shashi 6 years ago

      I enjoyed this one very much my friend. Specially your reading... First time coming here.. and I liked it so much..

      Shashi

      ? ??? ?????

      Om Namah Shivaya

      http://shadowdancingwithmind.blogspot.com/2011/05/...

      At Twitter @VerseEveryDay

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      Randy Behavior 6 years ago from Near the Ocean

      Hey Brian thanks for dropping by. I've only listened to the "pros" on youtube, but they awed me.

      Hi Lori. Nice to meet you :)

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      lori 6 years ago

      So, can I just say kudos to you for stepping out of your comfort zone. Next, this was awesome. I laughed when you said, "And the closest I can get is suicide..." I think this is the first time visiting you, but I can promise I will be back. Really enjoyed this. Excellent!

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      brian miller 6 years ago

      nice...visited the neuyorican poets for the friday night slam when we were in NYC...slam is awesome, such performers...finding that beat, breathing, remembering your 3 minutes...it is intense...best we have in town is an open mic but...nicely spun...they mesmerize with words...

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      Katharella 6 years ago from Lost in America

      BB Now I've got to log in and hear yours! I wanted to sneak in there and be RB's first fan :) *na na I win* :) lol

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      Randy Behavior 6 years ago from Near the Ocean

      Thanks for the feedback Deborah. The live readings are mixed blessing perhaps.

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      Deborah Demander 6 years ago from First Wyoming, then THE WORLD

      I enjoyed reading your poem. Listening to it took me by surprise. I read it with my voice in my head, and your voice was totally different than expected. Great job. Thanks for posting the live reading.

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      bbnix 6 years ago from Southern California

      "interesting classy women," indeed...

      Now that's one to write about... ;)

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      Randy Behavior 6 years ago from Near the Ocean

      I'll go check it out BB. You surrounded by a bunch of interesting classy women tripping the light fantastic, I can't imagine a bigger grin on your face

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      bbnix 6 years ago from Southern California

      I listened to more of you audios, Randy. It really is a new wonderful experience revisiting the many shades of you in your own voice - you are, indeed, a gift!!

      Thank you for that..

      I've opened my own SoundCloud account. I've been told my deep voice is interesting, soothing even - I'll give it a shot..you'll have to tell me what you think when I do!

      And its hard to imagine a more fun evening than being a guy you know and share fun with on a GNO...

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      Randy Behavior 6 years ago from Near the Ocean

      OK GNO is next then. You should write a short piece about that experience. Too funny!

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      Katharella 6 years ago from Lost in America

      Yeah I do actually. Girls Night Out.

      And my reason. For what it says, is SO TRUE. My friend and I went to a club. We were the only two females in the group of men, and NOBODY was hittin' the dance floor. But as close as we danced, one would think we were bring pushed together! I grabbed her and pulled her near just to whisper a little secret, it appeared more than it was, the band missed a beat, our tabled full of beer.. all I needed to say was an innocent sentence, and arm in arm we waltzed off the rock bands floor! Um, yes, other girls gave us mean looks, because we hadn't done a thing but dance, and OUR tabled filled with drinks. We were the spark of the evening, right down to the limo the band followed us out!

      Not that I think you need it, but I think, if you glam it up, and feel it, it'll come out just as you mean it, then you can read as if you're in the moment!

      Girls night out is sexy to guys, fun for girls, that lead to CRAZY FUN for the guys, it's all there!

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      Randy Behavior 6 years ago from Near the Ocean

      Hi Kavita. I have been told I write with honesty. Honestly I don't how else to do it :/

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      Kavita 6 years ago

      Wowww.. your confessions here made this poem very poignant and superbly powerful! Excellently written!

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      ajcor 6 years ago from NSW. Australia

      that would be hear!

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      ajcor 6 years ago from NSW. Australia

      thanks Randy ...ps your voice is lovely on the poems I hears - I aim to go back and listen to your others...cheers

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      Randy Behavior 6 years ago from Near the Ocean

      Still, I bow to your nervous fierceness :P

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      ajcor 6 years ago from NSW. Australia

      nervously fierce if there is such a thing... and the interviewer was very kind ...

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      Randy Behavior 6 years ago from Near the Ocean

      Thanks ajcor! Radio huh? You are fierce!

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      ajcor 6 years ago from NSW. Australia

      just became your second (?) follower on Sound Cloud...cheers

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      ajcor 6 years ago from NSW. Australia

      Loved this poem Randy - "If I could only find the beat" - think you have found the beat well and truly - your poem resonated with me, particularly the fluidity and imagery.

      I too have a fear of public speaking but last weekend I actually read some of my poems on the radio and felt as I had conquered Everest!

      What is the link to your verbal poetry so I can too can go listen? - if you don't mind that is... Scrub that just saw that it is on this page...good one a.

      cheers

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      Randy Behavior 6 years ago from Near the Ocean

      I've done eight now. Tell me what you think! Unless of course you hate them.... then be very very quiet. ;)

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      Twilight Lawns 6 years ago from Norbury-sur-Mer, Surrey, England. U.K.

      Heard it again. Loved it again. Need I say more?

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      bbnix 6 years ago from Southern California

      Nikki and Randy, you two rock, I would pay to see to your show, oh wait a minute, I'm producing a play to pay you two to rock!!! SLAM!!!!

      Check it out. I've acted in both my plays and others, it's easy, its all the repetition in preparation, the rehearsals...

      If I can do it, you can do it!!!

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      Randy Behavior 6 years ago from Near the Ocean

      Thanks Nikki. I was asked to read one of my poems at our local college once, but I was shaking like a leaf! I'm getting more confident.

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      Nikkij504gurl 6 years ago from Louisiana

      SLAM! You've got it chick! this would be well applauded at a poetry slam. I did one once, it was pretty awesome. and when in school i used to attend a poetry club and we would read our poetry out loud, it was fun, try not to think of it as competing but just great writers exchanging words and works with each other. take deep breaths and practice reading it out loud before hand.

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      Randy Behavior 6 years ago from Near the Ocean

      Hi attemptedhumour. Thats interesting is was so different for you. I only write it from my perspective of course, the audience always brings its own. I've done a few more of them. I think I'm getting better.

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      attemptedhumour 6 years ago from Australia

      Hi Randy, having read the poem before listening to the audio it certainly came out a lot different. I read the poem in a more serious vein, it was still excellent of course, but the written word has little inflection and can be interpreted in many ways. It is perfectly normal to be shy and nervous. I think most people would be the same. Some would never pluck up the courage to stand up in public and recite their own words. I thought about doing the same on hubpages as i have with songs, but i've been too slack to bother. It is a real shock when you first hear your own voice recording and i'm sure most people would be surprised at the outcome. You will probably always be nervous when reciting your work. I get nervous when i play indoor soccer, yet i couldn't care less whether we win or lose. It's that stupid brain kicking in on auto pilot. The main thing is that you had a go, the outcome was great and the exercise might encourage more of the brilliant writers on hubpages to follow suit. See ya.

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      Randy Behavior 6 years ago from Near the Ocean

      Thanks Nellienna. Ben said you did one on youtube but I could never find it :(

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      Nellieanna Hay 6 years ago from TEXAS

      RB - I just LOVE it! The reading is so well done and the message is delightful! Voting up and some other things.

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      Randy Behavior 6 years ago from Near the Ocean

      Katharella I did "The Bath" at Doug's suggestion. Do you have a suggestion for what I should voice next? I'm guessing its gonna take a dozen of these before I stop getting the adrenaline/fear rush from it :P

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      Katharella 6 years ago from Lost in America

      Hi RB.. I think, maybe most people do their arts when they are inspired! More comes out, regardless of the art form under inspiration.I can't wait until you upload more!

      I would write a whole hub on why I like what you have to say, and I'm really glad you uploaded it verbally because not everyone has the greatest eyesight 8) but great vision when they've heard the contextual verbalization.

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      Randy Behavior 6 years ago from Near the Ocean

      Ahorseback, thanks for the comment. It just struck me that all the slammers hitting the stage were reading poems about really dark stuff. Maybe its just what's in vogue right now. I can only write what I'm feeling compelled to write. Some days its death and torment other days its lollipops :)

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      ahorseback 6 years ago

      Randy , as usual you're poetry is great , the speaking in public? It isn't for me either. Though work once forced me into having to do it! I wouldn't want to now though, especialy with my own writing. But listen , I read in you're poetry about your lack of " bad experiences" , I do believe you have a talent for poetry that is phenominal , you don't need the negativism for that . There's plenty of that around , Too much! Write what you know , beauty, happiness , youth , Take your favorite subject or a pretty picture , a song or a thought , do it, you can slam!

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      Randy Behavior 6 years ago from Near the Ocean

      Welcome back to the land of light saddle. I think we find our richest ink in our darkest places. I bet you came out with poem in hand. I'll have to go check.

      Thank you for the very kind words! I just got done voicing my The Bath poem. It was harder than I thought it would be, as I kept getting emotional in the middle of it. A little I suppose is good, but too much and I couldn't finish. I'll have to find my balance.

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      saddlerider1 6 years ago

      Well well my dear poetess, I have been buried in my cave amongst the snakes,bats and the odd raven to keep me company to tear at my wounds and leave my soul barren, yet to open my eyes and come back into the light to take in the fresh air and exhale the stale poison.

      I have fallen on these words you penned and a cream puff certainly came alive with attitude. I listened intently to your words and voice over,they flowed beautifully and caught my attention and ear. To be bold and venture into voicing our words, thoughts, creations is definitely a move that many of us fear, however having said that, once performed one will become more at ease and at peace with their offerings.

      You did a splendid job and I am so pleased to be a part of your freedom, now go get em tiger. You have a stage presence, I visualize it, I feel it, I loved it. I applaud and bow before you fellow poet.

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      Kelly Umphenour 6 years ago from St. Louis, MO

      Randy - husky is over rated - I wish I could sound all sweet! Lol! The grass is always greener right?

      I wish I could write poetry like you too but I'm smart enough to know my limitations so I'll keep enjoying yours!

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      Randy Behavior 6 years ago from Near the Ocean

      Hi BB! We poetesses could not have a more devoted and exuberant ally than you BB. I will email you about your project. Thanks!

      Morning RH. I like the way my voice sounds when I have a cold... all sexy and husky. Probably how you sound everyday. I gave up getting colds years ago though, so I'm stuck with sweet.

      Thanks Cardisa. I think I'm gonna go back and add voice to some of my old poems.

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      Carolee Samuda 6 years ago from Jamaica

      I loved it. You need to do more of that and such a nice voice too!!

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      Kelly Umphenour 6 years ago from St. Louis, MO

      Randy - this was very cool! I loved the poem and listening to it. I have to admit though you sound very sweet:)

      My voice is deeper and someone called the other day and said, " hi how are you" - I didn't recognize the voice so I played along and said," fine how are you?" Then the voice said, "what is wrong with you, your voice sounds so husky today?" I said, "uh I sound like this everyday!"

      Wrong number:) LOL!

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      bbnix 6 years ago from Southern California

      YES!!!

      It's so incredibly amazing that you've shared this with us. I loved it. You're the greatest. I soooo love your work (and you knock me out too).

      Bella sent me here, she's the greatest too.

      I'm currently writing and preparing to produce a play, a paying gig, in fact. It would be a gift if you participated at some level, if only your writing, but your voice would be awesome too.

      I want many here at the hubs to participate, including Bella, and others I'll contact soon.

      I would call it a somewhat overly dramatic, explosively entertaining, yet subtly beautiful reading of a dozen great poems - one of yours included, again, if you would be interested..

      It's a part of my bb's books, art, and theatre business (for lack of a better phrase).

      But the main point I'm trying to project is the poets, the majesty and grace that you are, and perhaps promote you and your work to the prominence you quite deserve...even if you would rather stay clear of most of the limelight...

      Anyway, let me know..e-mail me if your interested. I'll return e-mail a synopsis.

      Much luv'

      See ya'..

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      Randy Behavior 6 years ago from Near the Ocean

      O.K. Doug, The Bath is the one I was asked to read at our local college. The only live read I've done, so that should be easy enough. I don't have the right attitude to be a true "slammer" I don't think. I come across to sweet I think.

      Oh Bella I'm thrilled if I have inspired you. Let me know if you do it so I can come have a listen.

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      Erica Sanchez 6 years ago from California

      Randy I have to give you great big kudos for attempting! YOu are an inspiration. I outta try that someday nervous but I will try thanks to you! I found this awesome and cool!!

      smiles :)

      bella

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      Doug Turner Jr. 6 years ago

      Well I won't recommend any of the steamy ones just yet -- the "Saxophone" would make me nervous to read out loud. Mmm... how about "The Bath"? It's a great poem and one of the first of yours I ever read. It may not be slam-style, but this isn't a slam forum, more of a kick back and listen to poetry forum.

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      Randy Behavior 6 years ago from Near the Ocean

      Hey JL, maybe I will inspire other's to shed their fears and read aloud. That would put some greater meaning behind my own fears. I'm gonna back and read some others I think... not sure which I should do though.

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      JadedLove 6 years ago

      i am amazed by you. I have always been afraid to even let someone read my words, let alone read them to people. I find this beautiful and inspiring. now i am shaking.lol

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      Randy Behavior 6 years ago from Near the Ocean

      Its delicious to wake to love in the morning TL :)

      I think I would just die if I was called on the spot like that. I'm not good at memorizing things. What ever space in one's brain that does that got filled up with Paul Revere's Ride when I was in second grade.

      Somebody did a hub about having balls here on the HP. It was decided that I have them but only one has descended. Its when the judgement of people are involved that I get timid. Jumping off a platform 500 feet in the air to do a zip line thrilling! Walking on to a stage and I'm "shitting bricks" (another technical term).

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      Randy Behavior 6 years ago from Near the Ocean

      Thanks Micky! I held this one for a long time because its not my usual style. I was afraid the rhyme scheme would come across as trite. I'm glad you like it.

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      Twilight Lawns 6 years ago from Norbury-sur-Mer, Surrey, England. U.K.

      I loved it. Really loved it. What's the matter with me? I loved it.

      I went to a poetry reading at a rival teachers' college when I was twenty-one, and the Literature Lecturer there, who happened to have lectured at my college also, ended the evening by saying, "And tonight, we have a special guest, one of the blah blah blah poets..." and then pointed at me and asked me to come and recite some of my poems.

      I didn't have any of them to memory.

      Read them!

      I didn't have any with me.

      I have seldom been so shit scared (a technical term) in my whole life.

      I would love to "get my feet wet", as Doug says, but I don't think I have the knowledge of the technology required [another way of saying "I don't think I have the balls (another technical term)].

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      Micky Dee 6 years ago

      Beautifully awesome Randy. You nail a lot - a lot - most - all - but you really spiked this one!

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      Randy Behavior 6 years ago from Near the Ocean

      Alright... what is a "classic" Randy poem then?

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      Doug Turner Jr. 6 years ago

      Ha ha, I wasn't going to mention it, but since you did in the comment in above: yes, you do sound young and girlish. But hey, beats the hell out of sounding like a haggard landlord lady who smokes too much, right?

      Hats off to you for bravery. You sought out your weakest link and attacked it with intent to improve, like a football team in spring training or an annual fiscal analysis for a corporation.

      My request: pick one of your great poems and add a voiceover for it. This was good, but it was a commentary on the art of reading out loud. I understand; you were just getting your feet wet, but I'd love to hear you read a classic Randy poem. Bravo.

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      Randy Behavior 6 years ago from Near the Ocean

      Yeah Tony, my voice sounds better in my head for sure. I have to do radio commercials for my shop and am always surprised that I sound like a little girl.

      I'm glad you did too mckbirdbks. I can take all the positive feedback I can get!

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      Randy Behavior 6 years ago from Near the Ocean

      Thanks Katharella for the pep talk. I'm just a shy person in general, so standing in front of an audience goes against my nature. I just have to decide its ok to look the fool. Once I give myself permission to look like an idiot I think I'll be ok.

      You mean you followed me on SoundCloud? I didn't even know you could. Its all new to me. Guess I better read some more stuff, so actually have an inventory. LOL Thanks for breaking the ice :)

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      Katharella 6 years ago from Lost in America

      RB: You have your first fan follow! :) I signed up you need a fanbase lady!

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      mckbirdbks 6 years ago from Emerald Wells, Just off the crossroads,Texas

      That was so brave. You read with style and elegance. Great poetry, great read. I'm glad I stopped by for your premier.

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      Tony DeLorger 6 years ago from Adelaide, South Australia

      Love it RB. When you first hear yourself speak from recording, it makes you cringe. For some reason we never hear ourselves like someone else. Great poem and well read. Congrats.

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      Katharella 6 years ago from Lost in America

      I have read mine too.. but I haven't the courage to upload the video!! :( WOW, you are amazing.. and so right... very very well done!!! I applaud you! Keep practicing!! Really, I don't think you need it, you know how you feel.. and you convey it well.. but you need to satisfy YOU. I think, because your voice is so soft, it's hard to give the hardness that some of the parts need, but it's your voice, that says "I'm serious I'm not joking, this is anger, this is my next step"

      Practice in front of a mirror. ALONE, and you will gain soon enough the confidence to actually hit a coffee house with stand... costume/dressing.. and confidence that you can do it.

      We are always too critical of ourselves I think.. I picture you in a not a copy, but, a STevie nicks style, only a Gypsy covered red & black notbook, so your cream colored skin stand out against it, with a tall candle stand aside you. I think you can do it! You'll only need glances, but it being mostly for show, theatrics also help a fear of speaking in public because it's a distraction to what you feel flaws that no one else sees! I learned that in theatre arts class that sometimes people hear as they're looking elsewhere... or of course there's always the "picture the audience naked" thing :) ::APPLAUD:: I love that site, would you mind if I follow and join.. or is there a joining under you. Mine and my friends book of poetry may never make it to publish but why not try before hand huh?!

      This particular piece speaks volumes. You can always make your own cd too I'm sure you've thought of right!?

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      Randy Behavior 6 years ago from Near the Ocean

      Thanks Jeff. I'm pretty normal looking.... no extra appendages or anything :) But just reading into a microphone with no audience made my heart race. I suppose it's something one gets used to.

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      Jeffrey Penn May 6 years ago from St. Louis

      Your reading made this poem come alive. Enjoyed it. You sound like a pro, so no need to feel uneasy in front of crowds unless you have a eye on your forehead or Vulcan ears or a limp tail through your legs, but even then, it's all part of the act, so who cares? (I've read in front of crowds, and I've heard others and your reading is excellent.)