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If it Wasn't For You...

Updated on August 20, 2012

I want so bad for this time to be different

To be able to believe the things he says

To know that all the time we spent

Won’t end up a big mess

His I love you would be genuine

I wouldn’t be a game to play

He would really want to spend forever with me

If I had things my way

It’s a shame to know that it’s all a hoax

That every word from his mouth is a lie

A good man does not exist

He’s just like every other guy

Breaks my heart to lose my hope

And Give up on a happy life

But It’s better than hurting

When you falsely believe you’ll really be someone’s wife

It’s better than forgetting

The disappointment, even more

all the tears that followed after

He broke your heart before

Regardless of what you see

Nothing has changed

He’ll still be who he wants to be

Even after all the promises exchanged

Are broken

And you’re left on your own

With not even a token

Of the love that you were shown

It wasn’t ever real

Not a moment, laugh, or smile

It was only what appealed

And He was faking all the while

So if you ask me if I’ve loved

The answer is no

Because what I’ve experienced

Was always just a show

What I’ve felt

Was just a sham

But at least I know

Who I am

Not the fool

I let you play

I’ve ruled out loves existence

In every way

I took the time

to make it clear

There’s no room

For fairy tales here

Take your happy ending

Somewhere else

I’ll keep my heart

To myself.

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    • DTroth profile image

      Diana Owens 

      7 years ago from My Little Hole In The Wall, HubPages, USA

      Hi Huey19,

      I know the pain you speak of. As soon as I gave up on men and love, my future husband walked into my life.

      Don't give up just yet, darlin'. He's out there...and probably feeling the very same way that you do. (:

      peace to you...always,

      Diana

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      Amy 

      8 years ago from Chicago

      Saleheensblog-thank you for your comment, I'm happy to have stirred emotions.

      A mother, paused- Thank you for the compliment, and I'm not hopeless, just very frustrated. I know i have a lot of life left to live before quitting so soon. Thanks for the comment.

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      A mother,paused 

      8 years ago from Aubrey, TX

      Beautiful poem. Sad, heartfelt but a little hopeless. I hope love does find the person with such a eliquent mind.

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      ROMANCER OF LIFE 

      8 years ago from Honolulu, Hawaii

      That's right... keep your heart to yourself. Don't waste it on someone who doesn't deserve it.

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      Holly Jackson 

      8 years ago from England, UK.

      Such a sad but beautiful poem. :( x

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