If it Wasn't For You...
I want so bad for this time to be different
To be able to believe the things he says
To know that all the time we spent
Won’t end up a big mess
His I love you would be genuine
I wouldn’t be a game to play
He would really want to spend forever with me
If I had things my way
It’s a shame to know that it’s all a hoax
That every word from his mouth is a lie
A good man does not exist
He’s just like every other guy
Breaks my heart to lose my hope
And Give up on a happy life
But It’s better than hurting
When you falsely believe you’ll really be someone’s wife
It’s better than forgetting
The disappointment, even more
all the tears that followed after
He broke your heart before
Regardless of what you see
Nothing has changed
He’ll still be who he wants to be
Even after all the promises exchanged
Are broken
And you’re left on your own
With not even a token
Of the love that you were shown
It wasn’t ever real
Not a moment, laugh, or smile
It was only what appealed
And He was faking all the while
So if you ask me if I’ve loved
The answer is no
Because what I’ve experienced
Was always just a show
What I’ve felt
Was just a sham
But at least I know
Who I am
Not the fool
I let you play
I’ve ruled out loves existence
In every way
I took the time
to make it clear
There’s no room
For fairy tales here
Take your happy ending
Somewhere else
I’ll keep my heart
To myself.
