I'm a Loser
I'm an idiot with a broken heart.
A dummy with an addiction to love.
I know if I had listened up,
I wouldn't be playing alone.
Yes, I'm a girl with an ego.
I want to tumble
to prove I'm strong like the boys.
Young girl, rumble
'til no one likes you.
I've got so much to prove.
With a chip on my shoulder
and my heart on my arm,
I'm walking backwards
thinking of the future.
I don't make any sense at all.
Tell me I'm a loser.
Hey, do you wanna know something that
sorta eats at me?
I don't mind that I'm not very close
with most of my family.
And I don't care how much judgement or shade gets thrown at me.
It bounces off of me.
I don't feel a thing.
I don't need to be set free
of destruction and sin.
I am no slave,
I'm a master and student
to my own belief system.
I'm a loser.
You say my soul needs cleansing
while pretending you are perfect.
For that, I cannot respect you.
When you act like I'm a bad person
because I curse in my verses,
it hurts.
Please, excuse my vulgarities cause my heart is still a good one.
I tend to make things harder for myself,
but I take care of myself by myself.
If I am a little short with you while you're offering "direction",
don't focus your emotions on that.
I respect your advice, but I didn't ask for it.
I think it's funny how
during those times I'm down and out
you and the comfort you offer
are nowhere to be found.
It's like you're a phony.
But, it doesn't hurt me
cause you are who you are,
just like I can't pretend to be
someone I'm not.
I'm just a loser.
I grow every day.
I constantly challenge and conquer my fears,
I am comfortable with my tears,
and I do my best to help my peers.
I work hard for what I need and want,
I don't accept handouts,
and my spirit is strong.
I'm not very poised,
but I've got a bunch of charm.
You haven't seen my light or talent,
and I won't fight
to get you to notice.
I said you couldn't box me in
cause I'm different.
It's impossible for me
to follow one beat.
If you insist on a label,
at least let me choose it.
I'm a loser.
Now, don't go falling under my influence.
Comments
Humm...NO! You are not a loser, but a poet, a lover, one with great feelings and sensitivity. Sometimes, no... many times.... family hurt more than anyone else. Because they think that they are allowed, that they know you best. Usually, they know very little except the role that you play in the family.
Go on and keep writing...it's real good.
Naomi
Well, I love the writing. It's always hard to tell with poetry whether the poet is really writing about how they feel or just rhetoric. I hate the words "I'm a loser", but you are the writer and I respect the freedom of your feelings and poetry.
Ryem...this is so powerful. I read it with admiration and awe but I also found it heartbreaking.
"If you insist on a label, at least let me choose it"
I am choosing to believe that you picked "loser" because you wanted to say it before someone else did. Ryem, anyone who thinks you are a loser doesn't get to be with you. Up+
Ryem, if you speak it, you then you make it exist indefinately whether it is about you or not. So just cancel that. I see you as a winner when you can get through the tunnel of despair from a relationship and can happily move on.
No, you may be a gifted writer , a yearning and awesome soul , a woman of mega truth and awareness which is the hardest trial on earth , No my dear you are no loser sorry ! You're quite beautiful too ! Love you honesty ! BIGGGG HUUGGG! from an old guy !....Ed
Nope, as a poet and story teller, you are a WINNER!
Powerful, sad, insightful. No your not a loser. Everyone goes through hard times in life. The key is to pick up the pieces and change what hurts. Positive thinking is hard but attainable. Good Luck
Wow. I hope you're not describing yourself as a loser. A loser cant write like this. Such depth of emotion.! I agree with Jodah.
- Author
Thank you everyone who stopped by and commented on my poem. I want to make it clear that I wasn't actually calling myself a loser. I chose that label because it is the furthest thing from the image I see of myself.
It is very often that while we are judging other people, our judgments aren't anything like that person's actual reality. While writing, it just felt right to express my real emotions and give myself a negative label.
There was something awkward and off beat that attracted me to the words I chose. I really appreciate all of your concern and support!
Your words are deep and speak of a person who desires acknowledgement of another's attention. It is how many feel when they are ignored. I do hate the label loser in general, but can understand your reasoning for use in this passage.
When you have the gift - never a loser the losers are those who don't recognize the creativity in you.
- Author
Thank you teaches and Gypsy! : )
Ryem, marvelous and great poem ! Why are we here ? To experience ourselves freely without fear and force. Everyone of us is unique and we have to bring all our sensibilities and possibilities out in our own way with all dignity and glory. Wonderful work, dear. :-)
- Author
Harish, you are wonderful! Thank you!
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