I'm a Loser

I'm an idiot with a broken heart.
A dummy with an addiction to love.
I know if I had listened up,
I wouldn't be playing alone.

Yes, I'm a girl with an ego.
I want to tumble
to prove I'm strong like the boys.
Young girl, rumble
'til no one likes you.
I've got so much to prove.

With a chip on my shoulder
and my heart on my arm,
I'm walking backwards
thinking of the future.
I don't make any sense at all.
Tell me I'm a loser.

Hey, do you wanna know something that
sorta eats at me?
I don't mind that I'm not very close
with most of my family.

And I don't care how much judgement or shade gets thrown at me.
It bounces off of me.
I don't feel a thing.

I don't need to be set free
of destruction and sin.
I am no slave,
I'm a master and student
to my own belief system.

I'm a loser.

You say my soul needs cleansing
while pretending you are perfect.
For that, I cannot respect you.

When you act like I'm a bad person
because I curse in my verses,
it hurts.

Please, excuse my vulgarities cause my heart is still a good one.
I tend to make things harder for myself,
but I take care of myself by myself.

If I am a little short with you while you're offering "direction",
don't focus your emotions on that.
I respect your advice, but I didn't ask for it.

I think it's funny how
during those times I'm down and out
you and the comfort you offer
are nowhere to be found.
It's like you're a phony.
But, it doesn't hurt me
cause you are who you are,
just like I can't pretend to be
someone I'm not.

I'm just a loser.

I grow every day.
I constantly challenge and conquer my fears,
I am comfortable with my tears,
and I do my best to help my peers.

I work hard for what I need and want,
I don't accept handouts,
and my spirit is strong.

I'm not very poised,
but I've got a bunch of charm.

You haven't seen my light or talent,
and I won't fight
to get you to notice.

I said you couldn't box me in
cause I'm different.
It's impossible for me
to follow one beat.

If you insist on a label,
at least let me choose it.
I'm a loser.

Now, don't go falling under my influence.