It's Not Like Me I'm So Very Sorry - A Poem

In our youth I loved how you adored me for all to see. I needed that - I didn't think I was pretty or worthy just as me.

But despite your goodness I held myself back. Inexperience, insecurities, a confident mind I did lack.

If I show you my soul could I bear the hurt? Should you not like what you see I'd feel like dirt.

Do I need to give up my dreams if I went your way? Instead of talking and figuring it out I just threw you away. I thought it would be easier I didn't know what to say.

It's been many, many years but I'm still riddled with guilt. I never meant to be so cruel or make your kindness wilt.

You still haunt my dreams, yes even now. To find out what it means I just don't know how.

I don't like who I was it's really not me. I'm so very sorry I wish you could see.