It's Not Real (a Funeral for a Friend)
Smite my eyes
to 'void the sight.
I keep saying
"It's not real."
But he's there,
ready to be unloaded
from the Reaper's
black mobile.
***
We pull the bars,
slide him out.
Funny, I think,
he feels so light.
But I keep thinking,
"It's not real."
***
Six of us hoist him up.
And the march begins.
guests in black
step aside to let us
help him complete
his final journey to
that cold, hard earth
on a pastoral green hill.
***
"It's not real."
I protest inside my head.
That cancer didn't lick him.
He told me he'd win
and I believed him.
And still, I want to believe.
***
But he's there,
in the box we carry,
looming closer to
Its finality.
***
"It's not real!"
I scream inside my head.
"Damnit! It's not real!"
***
We lay him down
near the mound of earth
and the hole it came from.
The pastor speaks, in remembrance,
"To a brave soul who lost the battle
and is now ready
to join his mother and father
in the hereafter."
***
Then it's over.
The casket lowers
and, we, the pallbearers
grab our dirt
and be the first
to lay him to rest.
***
And as I sprinkle that earth
upon the polished box,
I realize:
It's real,
despite my protest.
"It's real."
All too real.
Part of a series
This poem concludes a series a poems and short stories pertaining my friend's passing. This poem is based on that day when his family and friends (especially me) laid him to rest on the green hill overlooking San Pedro, L.A. Harbor and Catalina Island. In many respects, that day, 10 years ago, was a beautiful spring day. The sun was out. A light breeze blew from the north west and the Pacific Ocean outside the breakwaters seem to glisten under an intense blue sky.
It was the type of day one wouldn't expect for a somber event such as a funeral. The day was surreal; a glorious day for a sad and somber event. The poem reflects the feelings I had that day. I felt, at time, it was a dream and that somebody was going to wake me up from it. Even to this day, I have to remind myself that it did happen.
The one glaring reminder of that reality is that my friend is not here....rest in peace.
Other Poems and Stories with Similar Subject Matter
- Talking to Heaven
Sometimes, a good friend is long gone into the great void. Yet, it always feels like he's here. That's when you start talking to Heaven, not for answers, just for comfort. - A Conversations with Death
A mysterious old man brings comfort to a man grieving for his friend. But this man may be the most unlikely person to wish one well. - Dolphins in the Surf
Behold the dolphins that use to swim under our feet. I wish you could've been like them. This is an elegy to a surf-partner and childhood friend who caught his last wave way before his time.
© 2015 Dean Traylor