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Jen's Solitude

Updated on August 11, 2010

Jen’s Solitude

My peace does not come easily today, my well-being has given place to just being. My thoughts keep me captive in my pain, and my once sweet memories have turned bitter, leaving me sad and sadder. Today I’m desolate in my solitude and devastation.Like a visit from a family member unloved, this devastation must be tolerated for a duration. Today I’m heart-broken and missing you, your voice, your laughter, even your tears.

When that tomorrow comes, will I look forward with tears of joy when once we are reunited? To see my best friend again will bring me untold delight, to see my mom - ECTASY! Until then, I wait with long-suffering as my support, with love for you as my stronghold, and today. . . with pain as my companion.

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      Jen's Solitude 7 years ago from Delaware

      Thanks Granny's House. Nice to meet you too!

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      Granny's House 7 years ago from Older and Hopefully Wiser Time

      Well written. I am glad I found you. Take care.

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      Jen's Solitude 8 years ago from Delaware

      "only words" that you offer MFB? Hardly! Thank you so much, I look forward to reading this over and over, especially during those difficult times when the tears want to flow!

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      MFB III 8 years ago from United States

      Escape to pleasure and smile.

      ©-MFB III

      There is a space

      deep inside us all

      a well that refreshes

      and gives new flavor to life

      it is seldom visited often enough

      but it's always ready to invigorate

      Immerse yourself there

      in that pool of happy tears

      long since shed

      on the paths of memories lanes

      where what is old, and familiar and warm

      will renew...blotting out despair

      that grows like a fungus on

      your present state of mind

      Pick a spot...any spot

      back when you were five

      Mom's tenderest kiss

      your first taste of ice cream

      or the taste of watermelon

      on a hot noon in July

      your first kiss

      whether or not it was

      in dreams or real...

      use music to help carry you there

      there is probably a song

      for every moment in our lives

      that was playing then

      that one special song you so love

      go back to a place you cherished

      and spend the day

      even if it is no longer there

      breathe the air...walk the fields

      your youthful feet trod

      call an old friend and just chat

      look in the mirror and take stock

      using admiration only

      to define all of your assets

      for you see there is a space

      inside of us all

      that harbours us

      from the cruel edges

      of each days realities

      ~

      Walk softly there

      leave no depressions

      in it's sands

      go barefoot in

      the summer that was

      relive the love

      that made your heart

      race your soul

      till they both won

      feel the soft touch

      of a concerned friend

      or just spend some

      moments on the beach

      wind in your hair

      and salt tang on your lips

      gulls crying stereo wails

      for all the days you were away

      I send with you only positives

      and a small kiss of gratitiude

      for your cries

      we have all at

      one time or another

      been in the land of

      uninspired

      the sick, the weary

      and the lonely

      on an incline

      overwhelmed

      where gravity

      strains the shouders

      and despair is

      the only pairing you know

      escape from there to a place

      that knows not these burdens

      and s m i l e ! !

      It's only words

      all that I can offer

      while wishing there was more.

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      Jen's Solitude 8 years ago from Delaware

      Thanks so much russiangypsygirl! I'm glad we have found each other to!

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      russiangypsygirl 8 years ago

      Just gorgeous! I'm so glad you found me, and now I found you! Your poems are exactly what I love to read, I felt your depth and sadness. Thank you for a wonderful read!

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      Jen's Solitude 8 years ago from Delaware

      Hi Money Glitch, thanks for reading. I'm glad this very sad month is almost over as losing her hurts the most right now. I look forward to filling my soul with pleasant memories about her once again. I appreciate your comment.

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      Money Glitch 8 years ago from Texas

      I read this hub first and had to go back to see what had happened...(the lost of a loved one). The words sounded so familiar that within my spirit I already knew.

      Hang in the Jen, some days I can recall actually having to tell myself to breathe just to make it through the day. Thanks for sharing!

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      Jen's Solitude 8 years ago from Delaware

      Thank you so much fastfreta.

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      Alfreta Sailor 8 years ago from Southern California

      Very heartwarming, I don't look forward to this feeling. Thank you for sharing. Looking forward to reading more.

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      Jen's Solitude 8 years ago from Delaware

      Thank you Duchess, I am counting down the days until January will be here.

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      Duchess OBlunt 8 years ago

      Jen, you can paint such a vivid picture with so few words.

      Hang in there!

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      Jen's Solitude 8 years ago from Delaware

      Smiling at your last sentence LizzyBoo, thanks for the laugh. This month can't be over soon enough, but finally there are only a few days left.

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      LizzyBoo 8 years ago from Czech Republic

      The darkness comes and goes. We all have our ups and downs. I know you are shinning trough your hubs, the clouds have no chance to survive! Be strong and smille. God will guide your steps and I will read your hubs. :-)

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      Jen's Solitude 8 years ago from Delaware

      Will Do, ethel! :-)

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      Eileen Kersey 8 years ago from Kingston-Upon-Hull

      Keep the faith

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      Jen's Solitude 8 years ago from Delaware

      Hi Connie, Yesterday was the official day, but was much easier to get through then the day I wrote this poem, which was on Tuesday. Don't know why, but am glad its over now, needless to say. We do get through it, which is what I hold on to. Thanks for your comment.

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      Connie Smith 8 years ago from Tampa Bay, Florida

      One day at a time, sweet Jesus....I love that song, sung by Christie Lane. We have to face each anniversary of death like all others. Somehow we get through them and go on, and yes, the memories are bittersweet, yet then again, more precious than Gold to us. They can make us cry and they can also make us smile and laugh. Embrace the wonderful memories as the day approaches as we both know our loved ones are smiling down on us from Heaven.

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      Jen's Solitude 8 years ago from Delaware

      Good Morning Jessicab, tnderhrt23, and Sue

      Thank you all very much for your caring and empathetic comments. Yesterday was a very hard day, but am glad that my heart is not as heavy today. Writing this brief poem helped as did your warm comments.

      Glad the sun is shining once again! :)

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      Sioux Ramos 8 years ago from South Carolina

      Dar,

      Few words, much said! Reaching outward rather than sinking inward, even in your moment of anguish, you see the light of joy. You feel the mixture of all that is, knowing each is a passing fleeting thing...except the final note of joy, and although it sounds so faint now...you hear it yet.

      Bless you through this leg of your JOurneY! Prayers, Love, Light and Peace to you at this time! Se

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      tnderhrt23 8 years ago

      Moving piece, I have visited this place more than once in my lifetime.My favorite line...""Like a visit from a family member unloved, this devastation must be tolerated for a duration."...this too shall pass...be strong, have faith, "Weeping may endure for a night, but joy cometh in the morning"

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      jessicab 8 years ago from Alabama

      Very interesting hub and stay strong, you can do it. From Jessicab from hubpages.

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