Life Goes on Without

Grief is

my constant companion

makes me feel

like I weigh a ton.

Everything has been

a bit dull

and faded.

I am just passing the time

the longest prison sentence imagined.

Time now moves

ever so slow

cause each day drags

catches and pulls back.

My head aches

all the time

my stomach is unsettled.

If something makes me laugh,

though only for a minute,

I feel 10 times worse.

This guilt a cloud

as if I could ever forget.

I was numb

when they took you away

picking up your ashes

was just salt on the wound

that little clip of fur

has stayed in that envelope.

Maybe one day

I won't hear the clang of your tags

waking me up from sleep

expect you to come to your side of the bed

make it home only to look for you

and always wind up staring at your empty chair.

Today isn’t that day

nor tomorrow I am sure

and definitely not the next one.