The Life of a Poet
"Lonely Pain" was written during my teenage years. It's so interesting for me to go back now and look at some of my older poetry and recall those same memories I had that inspired each poem. I have always been a dramatic person, ever since I was probably able to talk. However, once I hit high school, I did go through some traumatic and life changing events that would forever change me.
Believe it or not but poetry actually saved me during those years. All that time when I was struggling to find my way through the hurt and pain, I found this strange new power in writing. It was weird...I could say anything and everything...anyway I wanted to...and no one was there to judge me...it was just me, my pen, and a notebook.
For years, most of my poetry was never shared with anyone really. I never had a reason to. But then one day I found my notebook, and I got to thinking....oh wow...I really, really, REALLY do miss writing poetry! Maybe I should share it....share my deepest most inner thoughts...my heartaches...my loves...my passions...maybe someone out there will see the power it instilled in me and find their own inspiration.
I hope you not only enjoy reading my poetry, but I hope it also sparks some inspiration in you as well. Happy reading.
How Do You Paint Lonely?
Lonely Shall I Be Forever More
Lonely shall I be forever more.
This is all life has in store
For me, I have become numb to the pain,
Vicious scars are all that remain.
I can't seem to sleep,
As only can my heart weep.
And I can not wake up,
For my mind's thoughts are running amok.
It's as if my feelings are tearing at me
Inside they pull, what will come to be?
I can only take the hurting for so long
Before I lose my place where I belong.
And as I hurt so I push all away
Even though I need them to stay.
And so the cycle of my pain shall turn
On and on, forever more, no lessons learned.