Looking In
I stand on one side of the glass, wondering
Looking on, as if a stranger, never belonging
My mind wonders, in and out of thoughts
Ideas, memories all just streaming through
Time meanders in my life, weaving a mixed path
I stand on one side of the glass, pondering
What would have if I had chosen another
What could have if I had the courage
What should have if I had the clarity
Time meanders in my life, leading me unknowingly
I stand on one side of the glass, reflecting
Choices, decisions, there have been many
Where would I have gone, who would I be today
There are so many if only’s, if what’s, if I had’s
Time meanders in my life, forging ahead
I stand on one side of the glass, frozen
Past emerges, nightmarish, real
Emotions are a whirlpool, pulling me
Down, down, down, spinning a spiral
Time meanders in my life, meaningless
I stand on one side of the glass, surrendering
It’s hard to withstand, easy to give in
Drowning me, overcoming me
There’s a sense of comfort, familiarity
Time meanders in my life, long forgotten
I stand on one side of the glass, shivering
Digging deep within, searching
A flicker of light, a bit of hope
Voices I hear, some encouragement
Time meanders in my life, quietly ticking
I stand on one side of the glass, rooted
Fists clenched, mind determined
Fighting, with whole soul and great might
Pulling, pulling myself out
Time meanders in my life, seconds counting
I stand on one side of the glass, breathless
Darkness releasing, spilling all about
Brightness abounds, warmth wrapping ‘round
Relief washes over, as darkness fades
Time meanders in my life, reminding
I stand on one side of the glass, rejoicing
I am alive
Beth100
August 2, 2009
copyright 2009
Comments
AUTHORPearldiver -- You know I couldn't resist you, so yes! :) Now, what are the directions to Bumbletown? ha ha ha Thank you for your compliment -- means the world to me coming from you. I consider you one of the best here on HP... actually, one of the best that I have and continue to read!! :)
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DjBryle -- Thank you for your wonderful support and kind words. It pleases me to know that it has comforted you. :) Wishing you a peaceful and loving 2011!
Excellent prose Beth... that I hope you will go back and read again... not so much the poem; but more the time line that is stretched out here in front of us, which shows an increasing growth of an excellent writer and the esteem that is heartfelt for her heartfelt words.. Very Nice.. Marry Me Tommorrow... haha Thanks for sharing your talent.
The flow of emotions in this awesome poetry has captured me, just so as the happy ending, I feel so comforted, as there are times when I look at the mirror and feel the same way as what you have artfully put into words. Thanks for sharing this masterpiece of yours,my friend. Wishing you a blessed 2011!
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Tom -- I don't know if I could take him seriously, plaid suit or not! :)
Beth,
How can you not take a guy in a plaid suit seriously or was it how can you take him serious
"Ya Know these kids there trying hard out there ...but Ron if Ive told you once Ive toll-ya a 1000 times kids keep your heads up out tjere!!!! "
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TH -- I never take Cherry seriously, so I hope that it wasn't him who said that. lol Arthur Miller -- now, I like that one. Thanks for sharing it!
B300,
"If you are patient in one moment of anger, you will escape a hundred days of regret"- chinesse proverb or was it don cherry- probably the chinesse
Maybe all one can do is hope to end up with the right regrets.
Arthur Miller
TH
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Fred Allen -- You have given me one of the highest compliments possible! Thank you!! I love to write poetry, and many of my pieces are not published. I have them in a box, somewhere. I'm elated that you enjoyed this piece. :)
Nice progression, Divine conclusion! If someone told me that I have the heart of a poet, I would consider it a most high compliment. You have the heart of a poet!
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lxxy -- Great minds think alike!!! Great to see you! :) Ah, we don't spend enough time in our womb...maybe the world would be a different place if we did. I'd love to read yours!
Ahh, the miracle of life!
"I stand on one side of the glass, pondering
What would have if I had chosen another"
This reminds me of a lyrical poem I wrote many moons ago, similar concept. A bit darker. But it spoke of reflecting within. Always a great hobby, in my tomb. ;)
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Kenneth -- Awww!!! *blush* And you're one terrific poet too!
Your welcome you got real talent!
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Kenneth -- Thank you very much for your compliment. :) I am really happy that you enjoyed this poem.
this was one of the best I read since I joined hp!
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Steven -- It's always been a interesting concept for me to study...how we are all different yet so much alike. It doesn't matter how far we are apart in this world, or our backgrounds, or our beliefs. Human kind is more alike than what we want to believe. Thanks Steven!
Beth, I just have to say that this was probably one of the best poems you've ever written. However, I always find each poem of yours that I read to be good, but this one really touched me. As I think it plays true on how a lot of people feel about themselves. Showing we all tend to question ourselves in various points of our lives, yet still having the will to handle each day with a fresh mind. Your a great poet Beth. It's no wonder why a lot of people admire and respect you. Your not only one of the most beautiful girls, I know. However, you have a deep and beautiful soul too, and it shows in this poem.
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Sam -- Thank you and I have enjoyed reading your poetry. :)
Nice way to easily bring in the moods. Good imagery. You inspire me to put in more of my own poetry.
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Sophs -- Thank you for reading my poems as it is an audience like you who give me inspiration to write. :)
So beautiful, I really enjoyed this thanks for sharing :)
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Moulik Mistry -- Thank you for allowing yourself to be drawn in. :)
I*N*V*I*C*T*U*S -- It's great to see you! Thank you for your compliments as I greatly value your thoughts. I am very happy that this poem led you to a great place. =)
I love this poem. So beautifully written. I made a promise to myself long ago not to regret and question past decisions..back when I was a teen and had completed a 'full circle' of every extreme and realized that the ugliest hour and maybe the worse choice all compiled to whom I had become. happily so. Of course..there are these moments.. to reflect... Though, I say this poem speaks more when my heart is involved somewhere in the present....wanting to ensure the placing of aware steps...
You are an amazing poet, Beth!You took me to a great place..thank you. I plan to read more... :D
It is a deep portrayal of your self, so introspective that I cannot remain aloof from your sentiments, well done...
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Winsome -- Never aks directions? This reminds me of a few people I know! lol Yes, when our heart and spirit is at peace, we know that we are where we should be. Thank you for sharing your thoughts, I greatly appreciate that.
Very nice Beth. I like to say that when traveling I have two rules: Never ask directions and if you think you are going in the wrong direction---speed up! =:) When I slow down, I know my heart is at peace, going where it ought to be going. Time meandering....ahhhh. Thanks for a lovely piece.
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Charanjeet Kaur -- You sound like a very giving person. You are never lost; just look into your own soul with truth. You will find yourself. I hope you have and will. Thank you for your wonderful comments. I'm glad that you read this and left me with your thoughts.
Beth this is indeed a beautiful piece you put in as a hub. Love the poem, made me retrospect in a good way of all the times I wish I stood up for myself. All my life was thinking about others, there comes a point when I look at the past and feel I lost myself.
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Sage -- Thank you for your wonderful comments! It pleases me so that you, as a reader, enjoyed reading it as much as I did composing it.
What a brilliant poem, you have captured an array of thoughts and emotions. Digging, deeper and deeper, intensity builds. Ending with, rejoicing to be alive.
Great job, love your poem, love the title and the repeating of the first line in each stanza. "I stand on the side of the glass" very effective.
Sage
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MOW -- Yours is a great compliment, and I thank you. I feels wonderful to have you relating to my words (well, actually, me!).
Beautifully written....you take us through a whole spectrum of emotions here....what it means to be human actually....and I could truly relate to it. Brilliant!
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Denno -- I am really happy that you've enjoyed this poem. Thank you for sharing your thoughts.
This is poetry as its best. Vivid, real, images wrapped within carefully-chosen, never-random words. Expressing depths of sorrow; heights of happiness. I truly enjoyed this. Thank you. :-)
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Petra Vlah -- Thank you and I am happy that you enjoyed reading it.
A great poem. I loved everything about it; the idea, the emotions, the way it flows. Thank you
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Thank you Ray. Happy New Year to you too!
great poem Beth. I love it.Happy new year.
ray
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Misty -- Thank you for sharing your feelings. And thanks for your support.
the words of your poem almost fell off my computer the were so strong. I could feel the emotion. Beautiful. Thanks for sharing.
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Dolly -- All poetry should be read out loud and thank you for your wonderful comments!
Your poem is soulful and beautiful. To do justice, it would be wonderful to hear it out loud.
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Rawlus -- Ha ha ha! Now, that's the quick way out! I like it! (and no toe stubbing here!) lol :)
Hmmm, very nice knitting of our alphabet I must say. I was hoping you just pick up a chair and smash the dam glass and step into life. It worked out anyway. Keep writing, your good, no, gooder! CC
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Thank you jacobkuttyta for sharing your comments and for dropping by!
Nice read... Thanks for sharing your thougts
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Thank you for your kinds words Jenni! I'm very glad that you enjoyed this piece!
I was drawn in and connected to this poem. You have a gifted way of expressing how it feels, wanting to find that true sense of self, and lack of second guessing. A very insightful and inspirational piece.
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Ioua -- Thanks for dropping by. Happy endings are always what I want! :)
Grammatically and lyrically I like the use of the parsed predicates it gives a synergy to the word path and the life path in a neat tempo.
As far as the story I'm glad the spiral decent had a happy landing... Well done...
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Manmoth - Thank you for your wonderful comments! I haven't thought of publishing any of my works, but now that the seed has been planted.... :)
Beth100,
Figuratively and literally, I love the cool, soothing rythem and the regular ressonances of "ing's" just before you bring us, the readers, back to "standing on one side of the glass." A brilliant poem; you should seriously consider submitting it to be published.
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Lgali - Thank you! I enjoyed writing this one! :)
another good one
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DeBorrah -- Thank you and we can only learn of ourselves by looking truthfully within. By doing so, we can change and grow.
Beth100
Nice poem very introspective!
Blessings
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Kim -- Thank you for reading and for your supportive comments. Peace!
Very lovely Beth!! Reflective in more ways than one. I appreciate your perspective and sense of time. Peace n' Blessings! ~ K
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Thank you Michael.
Lovely.
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Manlypoetryman - Thank you for your compliments. Yes, I am glad to be where I am today, alive, aware and looking forward to the future!
So many perplexities to ponder? Only a Poet would dare try to go there in words and thoughts...Well Done. Liked this one...alot! Not all can find reasons to rejoice at the end of their long search within...Yet Interestingly, you appear glad to be now on the other side looking back. Sounds like no matter what you had been through...You were glad to be where you were at...and alive.
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Saqqara - I have read your poems here on hubs, and they are wonderful. What is your blog address? And thank you for your sincere comment!
Beautiful poem! I love all of the passionate words you used.
You should come visit my blog and read some of my poetry sometime.
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GoodfriendIam - Here and now is the best, and I'm still practising in staying in the present, but am enjoying every second of it! Thank you for your encouragement and celebration!
K@ri - It encourages me to write when I see that what I write can be shared and felt amongst everyone. Thank you for letting me know how it made you feel!
You had me 100% with this one! I sooo understand "Time meanders". Beautiful poem...I really, really loved it! :D
Beth I am so happy that you have found the life, in the here and now, for it can be no were else but here. I rejoice with you my friend!!!
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Larry -- Clarity can be hard to come by at times and if we only could see what others see in us, it might be an easier task. Thank you for coming by!
Well written, it hit me... you did a good job.
Look forward to reading more.
Lots of emotion and soul searching here..very expressive ..indeed, we all cry out for clarity...Thank you, Beth, for this lovely prose....
Carpe diem, Larry
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Aye, matey, me thinks at times I am. :D
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Introspection is a good way to reground ourselves to reality. Thanks for the words of wisdom, John! Always great to hear them from you!
Regret is one of the most painful things we can experience. The solution is to live life a little fuller. Take more chances. Be bold.
Only when we take chances, really experience life do we finally realize we are alive.
Good for some introspection.
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Yup, all those " a's" in life....thanks for reading fiery!
The regrets of life, huh - coulda, woulda, shoulda...in the end you're alive, so what do you do with the gift. Nice poem, Beth.
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Thx alittlebitcrazy for your wonderful comment!
Beautiful poem - full of lively emotion, and a happy ending. I enjoyed it!
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