I Can't Replace You
They don't fit perfectly, but they feel just fine, like heaven for me.
I can literally smell you and I can almost swear that with my eyes closed I can see you watching and that's the best time of my day, what I always look forward to everyday.
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Not a keep sake, but it does the bit just perfect. And I feel alive when I wear that baggy hoodie with mickey mouse on it, and that bandana that you always had tied on your wrist.
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And your spot on the sofa is still yours, feels like no one can ever fill it but you because I swear I see you there sometimes whenever that song you loved is playing.
I still try to dance to it, but dancing hasn't come to me just yet, not sure if it ever will anyway.
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Moulin Rouge has grown on me, sometimes I almost shade tears when Satine dies. And I still don't get it why you loved it although it ends terribly.
Am just not sure if i can ever replace you no matter how hard I try.
I just wanted you to know that.
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And if you were a mistake, I'd have no problem doing it over and over, because it feels just right.
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And if wishes were horses, I'd be riding on one to get back to you.
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