Reflections: Meditating thoughts marinated in a pot of metaphors.
Each paragraph is a complete thought within itself, they do not continue onto the next one.
Like a child in the night, he wanders through the darkness trying to find his way. Not knowing which way to turn, only knowing that he must find a place to see; a place in the black night of his mind, where maybe some light might break through. He tries to remember what brought him to this mental state. Was it fear of some sort, a fear that he should have rejected, instead of accepting ….As he pondered on it, his only prayer was to try in some way to push this thought of fear out of his mind so that he can dissolve this constant renegotiation in the mind. As a result it would revert back to its essential nothingness.
As FDR stated “The only thing we have to fear is fear itself” This is a statement I strongly believe in. I also believe that “the fear of being wrong” is also part of the “fear” that FDR referenced to in that statement. It is this quote that has prompted me to come with this thought. As individuals, we should never be afraid to make new mistakes, sense mistakes are that which we learn from. -Those who are afraid to be wrong are also afraid to be right, because their fear of being wrong will always prevent them from noticing the mistakes which could have helped them (to be right) or improve -.
Someone asked how do you acquire wisdom? I said, by getting rid of self. The human ego prevents wisdom from entering the mind. Until we stop glorifying the ego, we will never get wisdom. Instead of saying, “I did this” and “I did that”, giving ourselves all the credit, we should realize that God gave us the intelligence and the ability to accomplish whatever was needed. If we understand this and give God the credit we slowly diminish giving ourselves the sole credit. By doing this the door to the mind will be open a bit, allowing a little wisdom to enter. And this bit of wisdom permeates the mind, just like a bit of seasoning permeates the food. This is why I often say, what's encouraging me to learn is knowing that I know enough to know that I don't know because the moment I allow my ego to take charge, I will always clash with those who have the ability to correct me.
I had a dream, I dreamt that One day I was walking in the hood down a street of vagabond, during my work as usual, and I saw a man coming out of the gateway towards me carrying a long object, which looked to me like a huge hypodermic needle. As I came closer, I noticed that it was exactly what I had imagined it to be. When I reached him, I asked, “What are you going to do with such a large hypodermic? He replied, “Before I answer you, let me tell you a short story. When I was a child of ten and I was sick, the doctor told me he was going to give me a needle injection, and this liquid in the needle would make me well. Now as an adult, I have come to the conclusion that what the world consciousness needs is an injection of love and integrity. So I have filled this hypodermic needle with a fluid composed of love and integrity. Now my problem is where in the world consciousness shall I inject it.” After saying that, he walked rapidly as he fades away before my eyes, and I never saw him again. In the African culture, we believe that dreams that are remembered are messages that should be conveyed to the world. I also believe that our dreams are composed of small fragments of our consciousness - therefore, whatever it is that we dream about have some sort of relationship with our awareness.
Sometimes I feel as though there is a process of permutation going on in my consciousness, similar to that which happens to the caterpillar as it changes to a butterfly. I am not sure when it will complete itself, and what the end result will be. I only know that it is an experience I must undergo. As I meditate, I feel somehow this is my destiny on this earth. I assume that there will be many obstacles put in my path, which I will have to overcome. But I feel the more I persist in this process the more I continue to grow in consciousness. I guess if this permutation continues; hopefully it will help me dissolve any problems that confront me in the world. To me this process going on in my consciousness is exciting, and I feel that when it concludes itself, I will hopefully have developed into a new and improved self.