Monica was my childhood friend and we did so many things together,everyone knew us. I called
her my best friend and she believed so much in me. There were times she
will fall out with her parents and i will be the one to make her
understand that there is nothing like one’s parents, i always made her
do what her parents wanted her to do. We were just good friends and our
families knew about the bond we both share.
She wanted to be a doctor but i loved art and wanted to be an artist, i changed my mind because i wanted to be just like Monica, we both dreamed to own a hospital and call is MORAY HOSPITAL. It was like one of those kindergarten thing but i knew that i had a different feeling for her,i dreamed of her at night and i missed her whenever we are not together. She was to me a woman and not a girl, at 16years, she looked so pretty and every boy that came across her wanted to talk to her and i always felt jealous when i hear other boys talk about her.
To love and be loved in return.
I knew that Monica love me but i don’t know if she have a romantic
feeling for me but i have to express my love in any case, at first; it was
hard so i decided to do it in writing since i had no guts to stand and
profess my love physically. I wrote her a poem.
"Baby, we have come a long way
It has been you and me all the way
I knew love when i first met you
And if i have to choose once again
I will still choose you to be my friend
But if heaven ask me to choose a wife
I will not hesitate to ask God to make you
Monica i love you and want to be your hero
Will you love me back in return?
Will you think of me when i am away?
Will you kiss me and say you love me?
Take my heart o the most beautiful
Keep it safe and make it yours forever"
She could not believe it when i gave her the poem and a love card so that was how it all began. Things were going on well and everyone knew that the end of our relationship would be marriage, she took the whole of me and in my eyes, there was no other woman that existed expect my mother. Monica was my hands and legs, she was my everything and i pledged allegiance to heaven above to keep her safe.
DREAM COME TRUE
We both became medical doctors and worked in the same hospital but as time went on.
I realized that sometimes when Monica was out, she will
off her cell phone, at first i took it for granted but this continued
going on and each time i ask her why, she always had a good reason to
win me over, i also began to see some changes in her, she always wave
away my question each time i ask her when we will get married.
“It’s been our childhood dream baby” i once told her but she asked me to hold on because she was not yet ready for such commitment. She was 25 and how can’t she be ready after all these years together?
"When you love someone, you are not only giving that person the right to love you back but also the power to hurt you."
One day, i came home from work and noticed that her car was parked
right in front of the gate, she was suppose to be at the clinic because
we run an off work clinic together.
To cut a long story short, I went inside and realized that she had parked all her things out from the house, i tried to call her but her cell was off, i got confused and immediately called her sister Ruth and told her the situation, everyone stood by me, one month without any trace of Monica was like hell to me, i could count the days i ate in this one month, life became a total turmoil. It was obvious that she was safe but why did she had to leave me and just disappear?
With the help of the police, we traced Monica. She moved to another city with my friend Ben who happened to be our former help in the clinic, i fired him two months back because of Monica’s complains. She told me that he was disgusting.Monica had been sleeping with him, she had the plans for me to fire him so no one will suspect her infidelity, it was her whole plan and it worked for her, i could not believe the discovery neither did anyone that knew us, our parents and loved ones were all heartbroken but what can i do? It was a betrayal from the one i love.
"Happiness lies in those who cry, those who have been hurt, those who searched and those who have tried. For only they can appreciate the importance of people who have touched their lives"
“Monica dear, all i have wanted
from my childhood was your happiness so if this is what you want, so be
it” i told her “but no woman will ever take your place in my life. Good
luck my love.”
That was the last thing i told her and the last time i saw her. I was stressed up and in pains.”O lord help me grow” i pleaded God.There is no two ways about this,I love Monica and without her, i know that i cannot exist but
"To truly love is to have the courage to walk away and let the other person who wishes to be free go on no matter how much it hurts".
After six months, one day while getting set for
work, my parents entered my compound uninvited and with them was
Monica. She knelt begging
“Raymond please forgive me” she cried
And so were my parents, my mother was crying and i realized that i was crying too.I could not hold nor hide it. I love Monica,have missed her and there was no words to express the joy of seeing her back in my life.
"It is heartbreaking that sometimes, when we have so much pains in our hearts and the only person who can stop us from crying is the same person who made us cry".
My heart was broken but the love i have for Monica is greater than the pains she caused me but how do i forgive her?It is hard for me but for happiness there must be forgiveness.
People always underestimate Forgiveness and traditionally,we always believe that when we forgive someone that we gain nothing,most people agree that the forgiven benefits more than the forgiver but put yourself in my shoes and imagine what you would have done. Of course this is about BETRAYAL but what is at stake is greater than this hypocrisy.
What if you were wronged and it is in your own best interest to forgive?
What if you will be better off when you forgive?
What if you will find happiness when you forgive?
Is it better to have your live subdued by bitterness?
There is the power of love and it works in it's own way.There is also the power of forgiveness and it equally works in it's own way but so many of us always under estimate the power of forgiveness. But i am glad you stopped by so all i want to let you know is this;
"Sometimes we must be hurt in order to grow, fall in order to know,lose in order to gain. And sometimes we have to be broken so we can be whole again"
I believe that to forgive Monica will bring me happiness but i made up my mind right there while she knelt and with tears,a whole brand new me not to watch her die, i saw true tears running from her eyes and i saw love in her for the first time since we met, i remembered when we were 9 and 7,i was singing and she listened;
"Some find it in the eyes of their loved ones
Some find it in the eyes of their children
I found it in the strangest place
But who can deny the joy it bring
When you find that special thing
You will know the meaning of her name
Monica with you i need no wings
I am flying without wings"
Of course i found it in the strangest place, a place i never knew it was.It is true that i love her and of course you must have seen from all i said that the power of love works in it's own way now check out the power of forgiveness.
Monica and Raymond
"It is hard to be with someone you think you love only to realize later that your heart still belong and will always long for the person you left behind"
This is the power of forgiveness because to forgive is to let go of the past and focus in the future.
Today,we are better off because all our childhood dreams has all come to pass and above all things our new establishment Moray Hospital is the best in town, if not Monica's mistake, i would never be whole and will never know that true love lies in what cannot be seen.Therefore for you to truly be that special thing, you need to hear the words which your partner fails to speak.