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My Comparison of My Yesterday Vs. My Today

Updated on January 9, 2017

I Analyze Everything. Especially Life...

It's been a few days, or maybe even a week since I've posted something. I usually can just spit a poem out and tweak it a little and post it the next day. However, this week has been a busy week for me, and it was a little difficult to come up with any good thoughts that were clear and precise. I was really occupied being a mom, helping my kids out with costumes and things like that for our homecoming week here in our little town.

It wasn't until I would lay in bed at night to rest that I would come up with something I thought would make sense for a poem. And still, I'm not so sure I'm completely happy with this one I'm posting, but I will leave it up to the readers to decide that.

As this hub title says, I analyze everything. So, when I lay down at night, you can imagine all the things I ponder in my little brain. I think about life. I think about my life and how its changed through the years the most. I don't know why, because I usually live in the moment. I only visit the past when I am writing or when I have too much time on my hands; which isn't that much. In this particular instance, I just couldn't sleep, and so I started analyzing life; my life in general. This poem is the result of that analyzation.

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Definitions of some uncommon terms

AMONGST

a·mongəˈməNG/prepositionpreposition: amongst

surrounded by; in the company of.


GRANDEUR

gran·deurˈɡranjər,ˈɡranˌdyo͝or/noun

splendor and impressiveness, especially of appearance or style.


AMIDST

a·midstəˈmidst/preposition

variant of amid.


ZOETIC

adjective zo·et·ic \zōˈetik\

Definition of ZOETIC

of or relating to life : living, vital


VIGOR

vig·orˈviɡər/noun

physical strength and good health.


ANGST

angstäNG(k)st/noun

a feeling of deep anxiety or dread, typically an unfocused one about the human condition or the state of the world in general.

Yesterday Is Gone

I drive along, and I wonder

as I watch a breeze among

the leaves falling from

the trees…


where are we now? How did

this life get so hard to live out?



I used to breathe in those winds

of fall and feel alive amongst

the splendid grandeur of it all.



Amidst the people of the world,

I was here, a part of earth.



I was human, if but a mystery,

yet still feeling completely

part of a scenery.



Though different, I was,

and unique, I remained;

I felt confident enough

to successfully hide any

pain.



Alive in myself and quite

energetic; I felt my rhythms

as continuous zoetic.



Like the cool water that

rolls over the rocks

of a river; I still felt a

flow of contented

vigor.



Now, it is with much angst

that I try to be a part of

life today; my life in itself…

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More Uncommon Words and Definitions

AGNOSTIC

ag·nos·ticaɡˈnästik/no

a person who believes that nothing is known or can be known of the existence or nature of God or of anything beyond material phenomena; a person who claims neither faith nor disbelief in God.


REALM

realmrelm/nounLAWarchaicliterary

a field or domain of activity or interest



DULLY

In a dull manner; without liveliness; without lustre


QUALM

qualmkwäm,kwälm/noun

an uneasy feeling of doubt, worry, or fear, especially about one's own conduct; a misgiving.

Today Is Different

Bearable has gotten dropped

a few notches to knowing I'm

alive but feeling agnostic.


Almost wishing death to

knock on my door. Sick of

waiting on that final realm,

so I can explore.



The sun shines but a dismal

heat. Not a warm invite does

it beat. It shines its rays but dully

I say, blister is all I feel today.



The night comes upon, and I

look for the stars who don't

seem to shine quite as bright

than before.



However, the night, as not the

same, is still my favorite from

the day.


The moon shines and instills in

me a weird but peaceful qualm that

boasts you mustn't give up, just

keep hanging on…

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I'm Curious...

Do you feel life has changed for the better or worse

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© 2015 Missy Smith

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      Missy Smith 2 years ago from Florida

      So true aviannovice. I do rally in that life with every new step I take. And somehow, I am grateful for all the times I strayed. :)

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      Deb Hirt 2 years ago from Stillwater, OK

      A time of the magical mystery tour sometimes leaves us with more questions than answers. When it becomes crystal clear, the journey will make so much more sense. You are still finding yourself. The the path and you will stray upon occasion, but each experience will teach you a little more about a fulfilling life...

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      Missy Smith 2 years ago from Florida

      Thank you Eric. :)

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      Missy Smith 2 years ago from Florida

      Thanks Stella. Always a pleasure to hear from you. :)

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      Eric Wayne Flynn 2 years ago from Providence, Rhode Island

      Honest, soul searching work here.

      EWF

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      stella vadakin 2 years ago from 3460NW 50 St Bell, Fl32619

      Missy, your poem seems to be about all of us. We all feel like this, but keep on going. Your poem was very good. Stella

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      Missy Smith 2 years ago from Florida

      Thank you Frank. If I'm not any good by now at this writing thing, I probably never will be I suppose.

      I try and delve right into the things I write and hope it comes out in a way readers will comprehend and hopefully with my own stamp of unique intuition.

      Thanks again. You are always very kind with your critiques and comments.:)

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      Missy Smith 2 years ago from Florida

      Yes, Manatita, I do know my struggles well. I know myself well.

      Did I ever mention to you that once I took a college prep course where we had to do assignments to get to know ourselves better in order to succeed? Well, I aced it with rave reviews from the instructor who made a note to tell me how impressed she was by how well I knew myself. lol.

      Anyway, if I don't know anything else, I know me I guess. :)

      Thank you for always being so kind and encouraging. Many Blessings!

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      Frank Atanacio 2 years ago from Shelton

      it's always good to question your surroundings, children do it and they become better adults.. also love your poetry... you seem to be getting better as you write :) Frank

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      manatita44 2 years ago from london

      Keep listening to the moon. Again, life generally moves forward, but sometimes in a spiral, not straight.

      What can I say? You know your own struggles. If I can help in some small way, then always let me know. Sleep a decent sleep. Much love as always. Great Hub!

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      Missy Smith 2 years ago from Florida

      So true Venkatachari, we must keep moving forward. And you are certainly correct; we all have these types of feelings from time to time. I'm glad you read it with an outlook on how everyone could relate. I think that made me feel better about the poem, because I didn't know if I was bringing a point across in this one. Thank You! :)

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      Venkatachari M 2 years ago from Hyderabad, India

      Interesting to read. Your portrayal of life yesterday and today is all that happens in every one's life. So, it's a good reflection into everyone's ups and downs and excitements and boredoms. This is what life is and one must keep moving with it.

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      Missy Smith 2 years ago from Florida

      Thank you Jodah. I was a little unfocused on this one, and I probably used the definitions as fillers, if I'm honest. The busy week, I think, is finally over, and maybe now my focus will return. I wouldn't call this the worst hub of mine, but it's definitely not the best. lol...Thanks for caring enough to read it. :)

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      John Hansen 2 years ago from Queensland Australia

      Glad to see another hub from you Missy. Yes sometimes real life has to take first place. I hate it if I go a week without writing a new hub, and force myself to just start writing something or go out of my way to find something to act as a prompt. Life sometimes just seems to be going the wrong way at times, but if you ride it out thing usually turn around. I did enjoy the read and I liked the word definitions you included as well as the pics and Eva Cassidy videos.