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My Healing

Updated on October 3, 2010

I’m not going to fight the memories of the good and bad times

Beat myself up because some of the memories have me longing for your touch

No I haven’t forgotten the pain you caused me or the tears I’ve cried

It’s futile to sit here and try to deny, we did have some good times

Selfishness was the weapon in your war; mine was strength you didn’t know I possessed

Haunted thoughts of you drift into my sub consciousness only to come alive in my dreams

When I close my eyes to sleep

Running away from facing feelings unresolved, only made me realize I need to exorcise these demons

So I can move on with my life

To say I hate you would only give you power, to say I’d loved you once upon a time might be more real

But its forgiveness that I have to find in me to get back what I lost when I turned my power over to you

And you abused it so cruelly

Had to learn to love life again

Even when the darkest days threaten to swallow me whole

Age and maturity watered with the tears of growth

Learning who I am and what I stand for

Imagining good can come from bad

Not letting the past recur in my future

Giving it all to God for without Him I wouldn’t be

HEALING

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    • Sa`ge profile image

      Sa`ge 6 years ago from Barefoot Island

      Very beautiful and touching. Yes you are right about forgiveness. :D Very powerful work here. aloha oe

    • miss_jkim profile image

      miss_jkim 6 years ago

      Such words of truth, such reminders of the pain I too have been through. You seem to have found the right path to healing.

    • Dim Flaxenwick profile image

      Dim Flaxenwick 6 years ago from Great Britain

      Oh Boy !!! That was really something. I felt pain in the pit of my stomach. You are one heck of a writer to have that effect on me. Well done. Thank you. x

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      poetvix 6 years ago from Gone from Texas but still in the south. Surrounded by God's country.

      A great write of moving on from the painful in a healthy, eyes wide open kinda way.

    • tom hellert profile image

      tom hellert 6 years ago from home

      ek,

      Fascinating stuff

      TH

      Nice

    • Mentalist acer profile image

      Mentalist acer 6 years ago from A Voice in your Mind!

      A poeticaly truthful verse ek ellis;)