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My Heart to Heart Talk With Father Time

Updated on March 6, 2017
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Missy is a unique writer who enjoys inviting her readers into her thoughts through her poetry and other topics of discussion.  

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Let's Talk About Time and Love Shall We...

I'm back! After a little writer's block, I have found my flow to write the piece I wanted to write a few days ago.

As humans that go through life blinded in a sense, there are two things that I think halts us to make us sit up and take notice to ourselves and our environment. These two things are time and love. We all want one to stop and one to continue to grow. If we are lucky, we find true love and then time stands still. If we are not, we either deteriorate to die alone, or we find another type of love to sustain us. It could be something we love doing; like I have found my passion and love for writing. It helps with the empty kind of love we all seek that some of us never find. I'm grateful for that.

This is a theme that is always stuck in my mind. Although, I have found my love of writing to fall back on, and it has helped me tremendously forget the things I strive for and have not yet achieved like a true love; I will always be the kooky me who searches for a fairy-tale of unselfishness; an undying heart of humble, and a truth of life in the moment. So, my urge for love will exist if I find it or not.

I continue to hold onto a little faith that I still could find someone waiting out there who would accept the silly, nostalgic, and overly romantic type in which I am. You never know, right? I still have a little TIME. :)

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Dear Father Time...

Oh, Dearest Time, why do you punish me? Leaving me lonely for someone to hold my glance; is it too much for a rebel like me to have wanted a little romance?

I think back to how hard I always tried, and it truly took me a few abandonments to realize, that it’s just not meant for me. It’s not for me to stay tied down.

The thing I desired was the pretty dream of a love entity. Though, what have I found, Dear Time? One happy day then years pass, and now I endure knowing sad inadequacies about myself. (sigh)

Him and then he, made me feel this way, when I was chided for not having a perfect schedule of duties displayed. So many little inconsistencies plagued my way.

And at this moment, as the mirror I stare into reflects my mature self; I wonder whether it will be too late for a final love quest?

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Oh, Time, why do you abolish me to this life I’ve lived staring at me now in the present tense? Choices I made haunt me to an extent, yet, they have also brought me up with a good sense.

Is that enough for me now, Time? Can I be proud of my hardcore valentines? I don’t know? I don’t know if even though…I accept my unique glow, whether I should be happy that I never found my beau.

The one who would look at me and say; yes, you are different, but to me, different is beautiful and brave!

Time…time…time… come back for me. Blast me away to the place that changes this course I have traveled; making sure I keep my wisdom, but forgetting the grovels.

Though I know Time, it isn’t your fault. I loved with a trust that was my own default. Maybe you just thought that none was deserving of my kind of pure faith, because truly loving someone, is giving up on time and place.

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"Like a Wave Crashing Into the Shore, You Wash Away My Dreams"

© 2017 Missy Smith

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      Ronnie wrenchBiscuit 2 months ago

      Here you have expressed a common feeling. But the fact that you are bold enough to publicly express such feelings is quite uncommon. Of course, everyone wants to be happy, and there are many definitions of happiness. For instance, I suppose a masochist is happy whenever they are being mistreated. But our mortality suggests that the pursuit of happiness is an absurd notion. And if we are lucky enough to realize our definition of happiness then it is at best only for a moment. Sooner or later we must all say goodbye. And so, I will simply cut to the chase and say goodbye now. "Goodbye Missy Smith". And now I will leave you with the wisdom of Cole Porter: "Birds do it, Bees do it, even educated fleas do it. Let's do it! Let's fall in love!"

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      Missy Smith 2 months ago from Florida

      I always enjoy your comments and your writing WB. You can tell that you have experienced many emotions in your lifetime to be able to express yourself in such a profound way with whatever you may write. I think if I am rare in writing out my feelings, then you have shown me I am not alone. Could it be that both of us are uncommon drifters with a brave reluctance to share our wisdom of what life has taught us? I think so. Thank You!

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      Venkatachari M 2 months ago from Hyderabad, India

      I am glad to see you are able to express your feelings in such a beautiful and appealing style. Your feelings are very natural and anybody can associate with you at times. You are bold enough to express and share them through these writings and thereby engaging yourself positively.

      My blessings, Missy.

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      Bill Holland 2 months ago from Olympia, WA

      Powerful...sadly beautiful....and, to me, hopeful. I once expressed these same thoughts, and then Bev walked into my life. I went, instantly, from loneliness and un-fulfillment to complete happiness overnight. Amazing how quickly it can happen, often when we least expect it. That was my long-winded way of saying you are deserving of love and I hope it arrives soon.

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      Lori Colbo 2 months ago from Pacific Northwest

      Raw, beaufiful and poignant. You express yourself so well and are so transparent. You always touch my soul. Praying for your peace, as always. Blessings Missy.

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      Dana Tate 2 months ago from LOS ANGELES

      Missy, may I join the club of, "uncommon drifters with a brave reluctance to share our wisdom of what life has taught us?" responding to your comment to (WrenchBiscuit) It took me a long time to be comfortable with showing my heart through my writing. I was so concerned about words that may appear convicting. But I will never forget how alone I felt in my pain so I kept everything locked inside until it almost destroyed me. It would have made a big difference in my life if I knew there were people like me and you who could relate.

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      Shyron E Shenko 2 months ago from Texas

      Oh, Missy, you touch the heart

      and make strange feelings start

      things that hidden in soul

      that never should be told

      you drew them out

      and turned them into gold

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      Blessings Missy

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      Missy Smith 2 months ago from Florida

      I really appreciate that you appreciate my style of writing, Venkat. :)

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      Missy Smith 2 months ago from Florida

      That's what I've always been told, Bill. When we least expect it, love walks in. I'll try to hold onto that hope, but unfortunately, I, at some point, just may have to give up in order for me merely to enjoy the life I have alone. I wonder what my cut off time will be; when I can say I am totally content even if true love didn't walk in my door?

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      Missy Smith 2 months ago from Florida

      You are so kind, lambservant. That's why I love to write poetry. It is expressive in ways that move people, and it has the ability to relate to many lives. :)

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      Missy Smith 2 months ago from Florida

      Oh, of course, Dana, the more the merrier in this wonderful club.

      I think I have said this before, but it is so freeing to put your emotions down and strip yourself naked in front of curious readers. It is also wonderful when you realize there are more of your type out there. You don't have to feel so alone in your reverie anymore.

      Thank you for your kindness, Dana! :)

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      Missy Smith 2 months ago from Florida

      That compliment made me glow, Shyron! Thank you so much! :)

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      Audrey Howitt 2 months ago from California

      Missy, your ability to open yourself in your writing makes it so special--you are such an emotionally honest person and I love that about your writing

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      Missy Smith 7 weeks ago from Florida

      Thank you, Audrey! I always hope whoever reads my poetry, thinks of me just the way you described. :)

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