My Thoughts To Share

I want to share something with my sisters of Kaleidoscope Color, and that is, that it's great to be over Thirty!. Trust me when I say that. For until I hit that Magical Year when it all seemed to come together, the pieces seemed to fit in their proper places, and I felt really ALIVE. BEFORE THAT, I had just been a dreamer, not knowing what I really wanted. Not liking my mind or my body, and feeling a little lost....and not really knowing why....just searching. I was looking for myself, but just didn't know it.

A girlfriend said to me, "Everything goes downhill after thirty. Your Looks, Your Figure, it's all downhill from here kid". Thank god I didn't believe her. I was still riding my old bike around town and loving it. Eventually, this friendship ended.

Thirty was the same year that I finally moved into my "First Home." A home of my own. I doubt that I was really ready for one before that age. But wait my dear sisters this tale gets better, even though this next paragraph might not sound that way....

At age Thirty-three I LOST MY JOB. A job which I'd held for ten years....a job which I had grown to HATE. But three Magic Words kept me there...IT PAID WELL. Until I got my notice, "Merry Christmas, Happy New Year, you're no longer needed here!" And I lived through it my dear sisters. In my Twenties....it might have crushed me.

I won my right to collect. Corporate hadn't realized they had picked the day of our office Christmas Party to terminate me and mumbled something nice which I chose to ignore.

However, I would personally like to thank them. For I was soon to discover where my "talents" really lie. I CAN WRITE, AND DAMN GOOD, I might add. Oh, I had written some plays at school, and short stories after my kids were born. But I like a fool...a young fool, had let it lay dormant all these years. My Mind was on a sabbatical.

But after Thirty my dear sisters my head came alive, I wrote a novel! My brain began expelling thoughts which I would write down on pieces of paper to be transferred to a "Mac" someday...Well someday came. The kids are grown....no excuses now, and I have my Mac.

So my dear sisters, go for it. Fill yours dreams, don't put off your tomorrows. Smile and say "We can Do", And try to imagine what the rest of our "growing years" will bring.

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"ME" by b. Malin

I LIKE SUMMER BEST. DANCING IN THE DARK. WISHING ON A STAR. A GREAT TAN!

I DISLIKE PHONIES. PEOPLE WHO PUT ON AIRS, OR STARE.

I LOVE WALKING BAREFOOTED. GOOD WINE, AND FRIENDS TO SHARE IT WITH. MY QUIET TIMES, AND MAKING LOVE.

I REGRET MANY THINGS....SOME OF MY WAYS. NOT TELLING MY FATHER THAT I LOVED HIM.

FIGHTING WITH MY MOTHER, NOT ALWAYS MAKING UP.

I AM GOING TO TRY....TO STOP BITING MY NAILS. FORGIVE OTHERS FIRST. LOOK ON THE BRIGHT SIDE, AND NOT BE SO CRITICAL OF "ME."

I HOPE TO SEE MY FAMILY HAPPY AND HEALTHY, AND GETTING ALONG.

GROW "OLD" WITH MY HUSBAND, AND NOT NOTICE IT. SEE OUR DREAMS COME TRUE. STILL MAKE LOVE, AND NEVER BE A BURDEN TO ANYONE.

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YESTERDAY'S DREAMS by b. Malin

I never look back on yesterday's dreams, I leave yesterday far behind me. I don't think twice of what could have been for what good would it do to dwell?

When the night seems too long and sleep won't come, I lay on my back and will my mind to think of Happy Times....of my Tomorrows. For I know they are full of Wonderous Dreams of what is yet to come!

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Dreaming is Great! Making it all come true is even Better! by b. Malin