My Time w/ Pan's Shadow
Finding neverland - Forgot Overture
I never have been afraid of the dark. There is so much magic hidden there. One day, I found a shadow of a boy who would become a close friend. The shadow was trapped in the world that my world lies within. I found him while exploring new surroundings. He had been trapped so long that he grew calloused skin and did the things that people were supposed to do here but he doesn't belong. I can see his center. I can see the part that he has long forgotten. I see the part that existed before he gave away his power and became lost here. I can see that he is a long way from seeing it himself. He feels like most people here do, that someone has stolen the unseen from him.
His spirit remembers the world that he is from. In this world he is king and everything revolves around him. He is the toughest and the bravest. He has the heart of every mermaid and wins every battle against the pirates. Everything is an adventure and always ends up going his way. This is the shadow of a boy who found his Neverland, never grew up, and was free. Unfortunately, where he is now is a world of peaks and valleys. While there is magic here, it is rare and often buried under the weight of this world. The lost can never spot it. It is difficult to see and even harder to obtain. The battles here are not always won and the adventures here often require sacrifice. It can be such a hard place for a lost boy and so many here are lost. This place would steal his joy and replace it with such hopeless negativity and anger. My friendship brings a lost boy peace and painful hope at times and I have earned the shadow's love. Perhaps I remind him of his faithful faerie or the sweet Darling girl that was worth more to him than 20 boys. I go and keep him company in his confusion often and share stories of the little world I made here. I try to show him that there are some of us who don't belong but are still at peace and happy here but he can not believe and can not see. The obstacles in this world that are normal send the shadow spiraling down into depths of anger and hatred. He rejects things like a boy having a tantrum would and to me it makes sense that a boy who is lost would. I spend so much time escaping my world to sit with Pan's shadow. Maybe it is because I want to help him believe again but my time is almost up. My world is calling me back to it. I often escape for a while to enjoy things hidden in other places but I love the world that I have created. My world has joy and sadness and is filled with magic and adventure. There is peace here. The invite for the shadow to spend some time there was given once but I knew it could not be accepted. He feels he is trapped and the invite does not change that I am more like a Darling and he is a lost boy. I return to my home. I can't stay to be his faithful faerie. All I will ever do is visit the hidden places; the neverlands and wonderlands often. I will never want to stay and still I am never really too far away either.
© 2013 Lissette