MY DEAD ROSE
I was hoping that sometime you'd hear the many love songs I wrote for you, and maybe take you out to a few places that you like.
The thought of just seeing you kept me alive, kept me wishing that day time wouldn't end... And you talking to me just blew my mind off for weeks, you smiling at me made me feel high, untouchable in a way I couldn't understand.
All along I didn't say a thing, and now you gone. Am damaged beyond words.
My heart beats but it will never beat like it did for you. My eyes see but I sure they'll be none like you. My pen writes but nothing i write makes sense or means anything.
I even stopped dreaming, I stopped hoping, I stopped being me the moment you left...
And I promised myself I'd never make no more promises cause I'll only be hurting myself. Who am I kidding, why break my own heart while there's peoples waiting on it just to crush it.. Why ...its fun mending it.
And am just thinking, ... What's after the stars... What's stands when the sun's gone. Whats next after the antidote is ineffective.......
You like the only universal antidote that I know of.
© 2019 Amani Utembu