My only sunshine

Like every other Couple, when we found out that Agatha was pregnant,we were thrown into joy,having married for three years and the only thing missing was kid(s) so it was a happy roof from the very first day we found out and as the pregnancy progressed, our joy(s) of becoming parents increased.

I do not know if anyone can imagine the Joy this issue brings in a house hold,especially to first time parents.We were nervous and wanted to find out what our baby is.

I want a baby boy i always told her

"No,i am the carrier and i can feel a baby girl" she says.

The scan showed a baby boy and this turned me into a crazy expected father,no day will pass by without my hands scrolling down Agatha's big stomach.I got her everything she needed and even bought the items our son will use until he is two years.Imagine this and picture yourself as me then you will understand the joy of this expectation.

I am the only son in my family and my parents were happy when they heard of the news,my dad was crazier than me,he is going to a a grand dad to a grand son.

The expected day was marked with prayers,i am not so good at fasting,can't remember if i have ever fasted in my life but the expectation of my son makes me fast four days in a week and this i did for nine months,some days i go without food,hope you can still remember about John the Baptist?I ate locust and honey and prayed every day.

I thanked God for blessing us and promised to train our son in his likeness,to me it is a new version of the story of Abraham.The Bible remained my companion,even as of the hour of labor,i was reciting psalm 23 for my wife and son.

Agatha had normal delivery.

The end of our joy and the real MADNESS.

Our son whom i already named Prince was born and diagnosed with Diaphragmatic hernia.

Does this mean that there is no God,i tried as much as i could to get the answer to this situation but the only answer is that we were going to loose Prince.He kept deteriorating day by day and was not responding to treatment,my heart was broken and i knew that Agatha was in worst pains.Her labor for nine months, the joy we shared and planted in our household since she took in has crashed,she hardly eat and hardly talk.

The doctor told me that Prince has a 20% chance of making it because his condition was immense,he said he has not seen such since he began practicing medicine.I had no strength any more to open my mouth and pray or rather talk to God if ever he listens though it is obvious that he don't even see neither does prayers get to him.

There is nothing much to do,it is now ten days and Prince has turned to a baby monster,i have to prepare for his funeral,it is not our fault and my faith in God died the very day this whole ordeal began.I called upon him but he did not answered.

Seeing my son lay motionless was heartbreaking.

Why did God, if ever there is one have to allow this thing?

I mean i needed answers to the confusion i was forced into.Just last night,i saw Prince in my arms and i called him my only sunshine,it was a real dream but i woke up with heart aces and here i am standing confused.

There is nothing i could do but to take it as i see it,I have gotten enough sympathy and it is time for me to just be a man,he is dead and there is no two ways about it,i and Agatha need to face this and just wake up from this dream,with tears all over me and disbelief in God,i lifted my dead son from the bed.

Just as i lifted him,i felt a strike on my head,there was something like rays of light,it shined into my eyes and the sensation of cold all over me left me in fears,i have never felt this way before but just as i wanted to rap him with the piece of cloth already tied on him,i remembered the sun in my dream and immediately felt lifted,i have not been talking so much ever since the start of this ordeal but i saw myself singing with high voice.

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine
You make me happy when skies are gray
You'll never know dear how much I love you
Please don't take my sunshine away.
The other night dear as I was sleeping
I dreamed I held you in my arms.
When I awoke dear I was mistaken
And I hung my head and I cried.

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine
You make me happy when skies are gray
You'll never know dear how much I love you
Please don't take my sunshine away.

I saw the two nurses crying but something happened,as i was about to wrap him up,he moved and coughed,he is breathing i shouted,my son is breathing,prince is not dead.There was a little bit confusion in the hospital because it is now nine hours since he was presumed dead.They took him from me and rushed him into the intensive care unit.

After two hours of what i will call the most confusing moment of my life,the doctor came out and notified me that my son was alright and not dead.

The follow up tests carried out showed no sign of the Diaphragmatic hernia. in fact, he spent just two more days at the hospital and was discharged.

I remember the sunshine i saw in my dream and the voice that spoke to me,that voice said "You are my sunshine"

It was the voice of Yahweh, it was the voice of God.

No one could explain what this means but i simply called it God doing his thing, his own way.MIRACLE!!!

Prince is growing up like any other normal kid.My only sunshine.