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Never Heard from you

Updated on November 2, 2011
After a snow Storm in Paris, France
After a snow Storm in Paris, France | Source


I never heard from you

When the wintery blizzards

Battered the countryside

Your absence froze my heart

Like the frost on the ground

I never heard from you

When the daffodils

And the murmur of the birds

Announced spring

I never heard from you

As the season of new beginnings came and went

My heart filled with renewed hope

With the warmth of summer.

As leaves fell in autumn

The headlines were about a local hero...

I will never hear from you!




Explanation about the poem

This poem was written for a creative writing class.

I had never dared write poetry as my genre is fiction until this wonderful person running the course encouraged us all to experiment with poetry.

This is a dedication to all the loved ones we have lost and also to those left behind. At the end of the day it is the ones left behind who suffer.

It could be a soldier never returning to his family. With all the turmoil in the world, wars and revolts, so many of our soldiers are taken away from us. When we are not sure, we always hang on to the last bit of hope. Hence "...heart filled with renewed hope..."

A father walking out one day and never returning. A close friend told me that when she was ten, her father walked out one day never to be seen ever again. She is over forty now and she is still hoping he will turn up one day...She spends time with her father's brothers trying to keep the faint memory of her father alive. This pain for me is so deep and yet not one you can easily share with others. Waiting and waiting, until the waiting becomes unbearable and finally we would rather know the person we are waiting for is dead so we can stop waiting.

Even if these people are proclaimed heros, the pain felt by those who are left behind never goes away.


I was in a melancholic mood feeling a great sense of loss when I wrote it.

This poem as many of my other subsequent poems, also deal with my own loss. As it happened, I started writing poems after my mother was diagnosed with cancer and I went through a period of hope and despair on a daily basis.

When finally my mother passed away after a lot of suffering, I felt this strong weight on my heart as if someone had put the heaviest stone in there. And 'your absence froze my heart' was the closest I could get to describing the feeling.

I also dreamt a lot of my mother and often in my dreams she had miraculously recovered and it felt that the waiting and the hoping had all been worthwhile.

On a lighter note, the change in seasons have a great impact on most of us. I absolutely do not like winter, except when I am skiing but love spring the season of new beginnings.

So the poem reflects my mood during the various seasons.


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      ideasinked 

      6 years ago from Mumbai, India.

      The poem touched my heart!

    • Chaya Parmessur profile imageAUTHOR

      Chaya Parmessur 

      6 years ago from FRANCE

      Thanks Habee! Us poets do really feel each other's words and pain as well. Thanks for voting up!

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      Holle Abee 

      6 years ago from Georgia

      I can feel the yearning in your poem. So sad. Voted up!

    • Chaya Parmessur profile imageAUTHOR

      Chaya Parmessur 

      7 years ago from FRANCE

      MsDora, Thanks so much for the encouragement. You are right the more we write the better we get.

      Denise, thanks very much for your comment. I know if anyone understands you do. I did read your hub where you shared the last moments with your wonderful husband. I wanted to write something but felt nothing I could write would reflect how sad I felt reading the hub. It must be so hard to lose the one person you are closest to in this world! But you are certainly a very brave lady and you are very much admired at HB!

      Thanks for voting up.

      Vinaya thanks for all your great comments on my hubs! I promise I will get around to reading and commenting on yours!

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      Vinaya Ghimire 

      7 years ago from Nepal

      I loved the irony: the beautiful pictures and then the loneliness.

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      Denise Handlon 

      7 years ago from North Carolina

      Chaya-a beautiful poem and a touching explanation. My heart aches for you. I recall the days we found out that my mothers cancer had come out of remission and that her prognosis was poor. She died on Christmas morning 2003 I loved your description of the frozen heart. Yes, there is a numbness...sometimes for a very long time.

      I too, dreamed of my mother. She would come to me when I slept and some dreams made me more sad, others were happy. My husband's memory also came to me in dreams after he died of cancer. Thanks for sharing-voted up.

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      Dora Weithers 

      7 years ago from The Caribbean

      You did a great job of creating a sense of longing and disappointment in the poem. Sorry about your loss in real life. Keep on expressing yourself in verse! You can only get better!

    • Chaya Parmessur profile imageAUTHOR

      Chaya Parmessur 

      7 years ago from FRANCE

      Thanks Jami for voting up!

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      jami l. pereira 

      7 years ago

      Beautiful ! i voted up and awesome , great write , thanks for the read:)

    • Chaya Parmessur profile imageAUTHOR

      Chaya Parmessur 

      7 years ago from FRANCE

      Hi Little Kim, thanks for your comment!

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      Little Kim 

      7 years ago from Any town U.S.A.

      sad, i know what it's like to wait

    • Chaya Parmessur profile imageAUTHOR

      Chaya Parmessur 

      7 years ago from FRANCE

      Thank you writer20! I am glad you loved it.

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      Joyce Haragsim 

      7 years ago from Southern Nevada

      Well written and loved your sad poem. Best of luck with your contest.

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      Semple 

      7 years ago

      Beautifully written Chaya and the prose was as well and brought a tear to my eye.

    • Chaya Parmessur profile imageAUTHOR

      Chaya Parmessur 

      7 years ago from FRANCE

      Pearldiver, your words about me and my poem mean a lot to me! Thanks and good luck with the contest.

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      Rob Welsh 

      7 years ago from Tomorrow - In Words & NZ Time.

      Nice work Chaya, thank you for sharing... and from one who writes about sad things and growth, I feel envious that you used words that convey such power, so well. You fit your poetry perfectly.. Take care

    • Chaya Parmessur profile imageAUTHOR

      Chaya Parmessur 

      7 years ago from FRANCE

      Thanks Rosemary! But I find writing about sad things in your life somehow helps with the healing process.

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      Rosemary Sadler 

      7 years ago from Hawkes Bay - NewZealand

      A lovely but very sad and poignant poem you have written here Chaya.

      Good luck with the contest

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