Nights Without You: Sleepless Nights
The night never seems so long when I sleep
It is when I have no sleep that night lasts forerver
reminding me of the past guilts bottled inside
spewing over my bedspread and disturbing my sleep
allowing my peace of mind to be skewed by preocupied thoughts
The nights never seem to be so cold when I sleep
They never make me shiver as I do when awake
the cold lasts forever, making me stay sheltered under the sheets
But the cold haunts me as well
Reminding me that my night is without sleep
Sleepless nights are desolate, lonely places where the devil eats you up
he tells you the secrets you told, the lies you've kept from others
he reminds you of how horrible you are, of how you could be a better person
Sleepless nights are always so frightening, lacking of purity
Tonight is a sleepless night, dark, cold, and without conscious nirvana
I do not sleep on a sleepless night because I must endure the pain
the preocupied thoughts, the lies, the secrets, all of it that I shall endure
Tonight I remain awake for you, so that I may never harm you the way I did
For it is my nature to suffer when others suffer, but take the punishment alone
In nights that are like tonight, sleeples, alone and desolate of purity.
Comments
A lot of what you say here sounds so familiar. "In nights that are like tonight, sleeples, alone and desolate of purity".
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That's good thing right? lol! Thanks a lot for the comment Cam :)
So true..."reminding me of the past guilts bottled inside"...it seems like when you are exhausted and need sleep the most, it runs from you and all your most self-loathing thoughts appear. Voted up! Great job!
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Aww thanks!! :)
For a while I believed I was having so many sleepless nights because I was supposed to learn something important. Something that was buried deep within my subconscious thoughts that had to be awakened, happened for good reason I believe. Loved this, very meaningful and I can relate to it. Great job CrazedNovelist, impressive writing and I'm voting this up. Interesting, awesome, and beautiful as well :)
i'm scared of sleepless nights. that's the time when my heart will bleed again..those scars that were almost healed were waking up and breathing my nightmares again..
voted up for this very neat writing.
Ecmoonies are in dire straits, but I can count on this!
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