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Nights Without You: Sleepless Nights

Updated on December 23, 2012
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The night never seems so long when I sleep

It is when I have no sleep that night lasts forerver

reminding me of the past guilts bottled inside

spewing over my bedspread and disturbing my sleep

allowing my peace of mind to be skewed by preocupied thoughts


The nights never seem to be so cold when I sleep

They never make me shiver as I do when awake

the cold lasts forever, making me stay sheltered under the sheets

But the cold haunts me as well

Reminding me that my night is without sleep


Sleepless nights are desolate, lonely places where the devil eats you up

he tells you the secrets you told, the lies you've kept from others

he reminds you of how horrible you are, of how you could be a better person

Sleepless nights are always so frightening, lacking of purity


Tonight is a sleepless night, dark, cold, and without conscious nirvana

I do not sleep on a sleepless night because I must endure the pain

the preocupied thoughts, the lies, the secrets, all of it that I shall endure


Tonight I remain awake for you, so that I may never harm you the way I did

For it is my nature to suffer when others suffer, but take the punishment alone

In nights that are like tonight, sleeples, alone and desolate of purity.

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      Lynn 

      3 years ago

      Ecmoonies are in dire straits, but I can count on this!

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      Not Found 

      6 years ago from Neverland - where children never grow up.

      i'm scared of sleepless nights. that's the time when my heart will bleed again..those scars that were almost healed were waking up and breathing my nightmares again..

      voted up for this very neat writing.

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      Olde Cashmere 

      6 years ago

      For a while I believed I was having so many sleepless nights because I was supposed to learn something important. Something that was buried deep within my subconscious thoughts that had to be awakened, happened for good reason I believe. Loved this, very meaningful and I can relate to it. Great job CrazedNovelist, impressive writing and I'm voting this up. Interesting, awesome, and beautiful as well :)

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      A.E. Williams 

      6 years ago from Hampton, GA

      Aww thanks!! :)

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      LABrashear 

      6 years ago from My Perfect Place, USA

      So true..."reminding me of the past guilts bottled inside"...it seems like when you are exhausted and need sleep the most, it runs from you and all your most self-loathing thoughts appear. Voted up! Great job!

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      A.E. Williams 

      6 years ago from Hampton, GA

      That's good thing right? lol! Thanks a lot for the comment Cam :)

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      Chris Mills 

      6 years ago from Flagstaff, AZ

      A lot of what you say here sounds so familiar. "In nights that are like tonight, sleeples, alone and desolate of purity".

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