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No Hero

Updated on February 19, 2014
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I don't think you understand the sacrifices that she made.

Perhaps if the dragons hadn't chased she would have stayed.

Let go of all the demons that were tingling down her spine.

But those last six steps are the ones I can't rewind.

Where do you look for hope when hope is six feet down?

I wasn't supposed to be the one to put you in the ground.

It's the hope that I had clung to when I couldn't hear your voice.

And the life of miles between us since we never had a choice.

But I know you had more time, there is too much left undone.

Now regret is my companion and the blackness has become.

If I'd only, if I'd tried, if I'd been there, if I could

I would save you from the ugly, steal the hero, make things good.

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      ahorseback 

      4 years ago

      Ksharp , But you see ,you are the hero , cause you would have been there ! This thing called survivors guilt isn't so great a place to dwell ! Now she is still near you , you know !.....Big hug for U!

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      Kristi Sharp 

      4 years ago from Born in Missouri. Raised in Minnesota.

      Thank you for reading and for your input. It's a terrible group that we have. The "left-behinders" the ones who are blessed and cursed to go on without. Perhaps I do dwell for longer than is recommended. Losing a sister left a very big empty place. Nevertheless, I am glad for your being here and appreciate the comforting words.

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      ahorseback 

      4 years ago

      Maybe we are lucky to be able to draw small comfort from our writing , sometimes I think it's a curse as well although we may hang on to it too long . I don't know the answers but I feel your pain here , and feel for you too ! I am sorry for this happening , you are not alone here , you know that right !.........:-}

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      Kristi Sharp 

      5 years ago from Born in Missouri. Raised in Minnesota.

      ocfireflies, Thank you for reading and commenting. My little sister was an amazing person. I miss her so much. -K

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      ocfireflies 

      5 years ago from North Carolina

      What a beautiful picture and tribute to must have been a beautiful person. Thanks for sharing.

    • krsharp05 profile imageAUTHOR

      Kristi Sharp 

      5 years ago from Born in Missouri. Raised in Minnesota.

      Aubrey, Thank you for reading and for commenting. It's always nice to have someone read your work and appreciate it. -K

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      A.E. Williams 

      5 years ago from Hampton, GA

      Very cool writing Sharp! I really thought that was so interesting to read. Thanks for sharing it! I really hope to see more of you around the hubs!

      -Aubrey

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      Sid Kemp 

      5 years ago from Boca Raton, Florida (near Miami and Palm Beach)

      Thank you, Kristi, for your encouragement and good wishes. I can guarantee you that grief, the deep need to express feelings, and the difficulty doing it are not a "woman thing." A friend of mine, a man, took weeks to work on a poem for his dad after his dad passed away.

      Practically, times are difficult. But Kris and I are alive, and I am writing. Spring comes, and the world is renewed.

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      Kristi Sharp 

      5 years ago from Born in Missouri. Raised in Minnesota.

      SidKemp, Thank you for reading and leaving me a message. It's nice to hear from you again. I'm saddened to hear about your loss. Losing a sibling seems like an unfinished life. It took me six months and about ten pages of scrawling to finally achieve these three paragraphs but I felt like they were feelings I needed to "turn loose". Perhaps it's partially a woman thing and partially an infliction of grief. Nevertheless, I'm glad I wrote it. If you do write about your brother, I would love to read it. I hope the spring finds you well and that you are enjoying HP. I miss the team :) Most sincerely, Kristi

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      Sid Kemp 

      5 years ago from Boca Raton, Florida (near Miami and Palm Beach)

      Thank you, KR. You inspire me. I lost a brother a couple of years ago, and I haven't been able to write about it yet. His birthday (and the annivesary of his death) are coming up next month. Maybe it's time.

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      Kristi Sharp 

      5 years ago from Born in Missouri. Raised in Minnesota.

      teaches, It's nice to hear from you. Thank you for your condolences. Writing has definitely helped me discuss this confusing and difficult tragedy. I sincerely appreciate you reading and commenting. -K

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      Kristi Sharp 

      5 years ago from Born in Missouri. Raised in Minnesota.

      DREAM ON, Thank you for reading and leaving such a lovely comment. I appreciate your heartfelt words. -K

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      Dianna Mendez 

      5 years ago

      A beautifully written tribute to a lovely person. So sorry for the loss. I hope that your writing will help you to heal over time.

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      DREAM ON 

      5 years ago

      You reach into life and share with us a great loss.From this sadness peace is found in family and friends.It was very special and take care.

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      Kristi Sharp 

      5 years ago from Born in Missouri. Raised in Minnesota.

      lindacee, I hated that this happened during the apprenticeship. I didn't want anyone to know but I couldn't keep it from Simone - timing :) . I sincerely hoped that I could pick up and keep on running but sisters are like stepping stones. Thank you for taking the time to read and comment. I appreciate your words of kindness and I miss the team so much. I hope that everyone is doing great and hope to be back into the full swing of things soon. -K

    • krsharp05 profile imageAUTHOR

      Kristi Sharp 

      5 years ago from Born in Missouri. Raised in Minnesota.

      cperuzzi, Thank you for taking the time to read my poem. It's definitely not the typical hub but words and emotions I had to turn loose. It took me six months, many sleepless nights and a lot of tears but here it is. I sure appreciate you taking the time to read. -K

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      lindacee 

      5 years ago from Arizona

      So sorry to hear of your loss. Your words, while painful to write, will hopefully help with the long, difficult healing process. Take care.

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      Christopher Peruzzi 

      5 years ago from Freehold, NJ

      Very nice. Makes one think of loss from drug addiction.

    • krsharp05 profile imageAUTHOR

      Kristi Sharp 

      5 years ago from Born in Missouri. Raised in Minnesota.

      billybuc, I'm glad it touched you and I thank you for the lovely things you always say. Your words are always good to hear. -K

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      Kristi Sharp 

      5 years ago from Born in Missouri. Raised in Minnesota.

      spartucus, Thank you so much for your caring words and kindness. I wrote about twenty pages of poems before shortening it down to these few short lines and it was definitely a way to turn some of it loose. Oh, how I miss that little girl. It's good to hear from you. -K

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      Bill Holland 

      5 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Oh my....that was painful my friend. Is it possible for such a raw poem to be beautiful? If so then this is. Well done....not a tribute as such, but a perfect capturing of pain and regret and yes, love.

      Welcome back! You touched me with this one.

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      CJ Baker 

      5 years ago from Parts Unknown

      Hey sister K, beautiful heartfelt poem articulating the emotional loss that you experienced with the lost of your sister. It was hard for me not to get choked up while reading it. I know that writing poetry can be an emotional outlet that can help us cope, and I definitely hope that is the case in your situation.

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